Welcome to my life....

2009-02-05T22:28:00.003+08:00

gee...CNy gg to pass so fast.....

I am still mugging and working...ah.....next thursday is officially my 'last' day at work.Coz apparently,the boss wanted me to stay but i cannot afford the time anymore as stated in my contract so they gg to bring me dwn from contract to 'temp' earning a pathetic 7 per hr as compared to my current 11 per hr(contract)......I still considering their offer thou.....

I kinda miss my colleagues.The talking cock and the mess arnd and those 'CTU high tea' moments....haha.........but well.....study comes first anyway.......I cancerian so very emotional de hor....haha...

Gd news: my team got into the preliminary rounds of the inaugural SPH business quiz!!! haha...this quiz is exclusively for SIMglobal,NTU,NUS and SMU.Each sch to send 4 teams but for SIM,there is overwhelming response as we have 16 teams so we have an elimination round on wed. and this morning,we are one of the 4 selected!! haha...yeah...Hope can progress further next sat. thou....

my next entry shld be abt pointing ugly singaporean bahz...

2009-01-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

gee....been so long and wanting to post this entry for a long time.........

I know it may sounds offending but i am sorry,i have already pent this up for a long time and i gg to let it all out today...

I feel that Singaporean dun really knw how to dress....i have been observing and these are the few mistakes i realised.

1)Never wear jean if u wear slipper.The purpose of jean and shoes are that we will not show any flesh of our legs and if u wear jean and slipper,it makes u look kinda sloppy.

2)Never ever wear shocking colour skinny jeans.I saw alot of young punks with funky hairstyle and shocking colour skinny jeans.totally irked pple off.

3)Wearing sunglass even indoor.I mean if u wish to wear sunglass as a fashion statement,knw the right place and time to wear.If not,u will only look like some unemployed CIA agent walking around......If u wish to wear it indoor,wear sunglass that is not too tinted......seriously,it is not cool to wear sunglass indoor.

4)I was at Kelly services to submit my resignation letter n i saw this guy totally pathetic guy.I think he already got a job and is there to sign contract or sth.He comb this 80's curry puff hairstyle and he looks like late 20 or early 30's.Firstly,his wallet is like damn fat that he struggled to take them out.If u have a fat wallet,u shld not even be gg Kelly to find job.Secondly,he brought shopping bag!! that was the ultimate.U go to interview with a shopping bag!! totally lack of interview etiquette lor.Almst wanted to educate him on d spot but decided not to be a nosey parker......

Juz now,i was on bus 133...saw this couple.....this guy was talking to his gf but i realised his eyes are very shifty.He talked but not focus on the gf and instead keep on roving his eyes arnd.If i am not wrong,he could be telling a lie.i went thru a course during my council days and this instructor teaches us how to differentiate whether this person is telling a lie or not.....damn useful......if one person eyes looking at only one direction,either up or down,the person is actually thinking....if he keep on let his eyes rover arnd.,...it means he is actually telling a lie......

Well....i submitted my resignation letter last thursday and will cease to be working in Citibank on 12th Feb 2009.Going to lock myself in a cave and start to mug like nobody before....so guys,my exam will only end on 29th may.So prior that,i will try to minimise my engagements so if i reject or nv go for some of the gatherings,pls do not blame me........thank u thank u!

2008-12-31T11:10:00.003+08:00

Well well well......

My blog has become an monthly entry le bahz....haha...sorrie sorrie...too busy la.....

Well.....2008 coming to an end.....guess it is a gd time to do a review of 2008 and resolution for 2009....

2008....a year of changes and turbulent....

After ORD....have a 3 month short stint at Central Provident Fund and after that a 2 month short stint in Ministry of Manpower....Entered SIM-UOL banking and finance and meanwhile working part time at Citibank too.....

Really a hectic as basically i be studying in the day and den work at night...Wkend are left mostly for revision.....

UOL is the last chance for me to succeed and my aim is to get a 2nd upper....unfortunately,i got the Citibank job only after i plan my timetable so my schedule is kinda screw up la...if i can choose,i wld have squeeze 2 lect. into one day so i only go sch for 2 days lor...haiz...but well...we gotta live with some regret anyway....

In terms of love,things are going well for my gf and me bahz...in a sense that things are stable...being more than 2 years le.....things have changed in a way as in the way we spend time tgt bahz....last time in NS,very free so can make time for her...but now,after ORD,my life get very busy le.....really wish to thank dear for her understanding....

2008 is a year where i experience a drastic change of life.....i no longer can take a backseat like in NS and i also learn alot in NS in terms of human relationship.....learn how to handle human emotions and stuff.....but now,i have yet to manage my own emotions......i feel very stressed whenever i tried to study esp. when i am working part time....i view study as an utmost priority for me.....

Well...guess i juz have to be more adapt to this sort of lifestyle...the pay is pretty gd and that is why i quite reluctant to quit...hehe...

Well....one thing i regret is not able to meet up with friends....last night juz came back from Ian birthday part...this guy is one sort of a destiny bahz....he is my first 3 mth NYJC frenz but right,he only come sch for 3 wks and den fly off to aussie le and yet we still able to maintain these friendship tgt with Huixiang for more than 5 years.......it's amazing,isn't it?

Gee.....i now nursing a flu...wad a way to end this year.....well...i certainly next year which is 4 hrs away will bring in some gd luck for me bahz.....*strike toto,strike 4D...etc...haha*

My resolution for next year:

1)To get 2nd upper for my first year examination
2)To get slimmer (every yr confirm will have de)
3)My gf and me love each other deeper and deeper

That will be all bahz....

My flu really getting onto me le....

I hope everyone has a nice year ahead and may 2009 bring abundance of hope and love to u!

Gd bye 2008,Welcome 2009!

2008-11-11T23:48:00.002+08:00

So long nv blogged again.....

Well...this time i really wan to wash dirty linen to the public le bahz......

Sometimes,alot of pple like to be fake.....like to show pple how happy their families are tgt etc etc......i also wish to do that but i can't and it is all because of my gd-for-nothing elder brother......

Since young,my parents have always been showering him with love and stuff.....but now,he is 26 years old and has never ever given anything back to my parents....here are the list:

1)During army life,lose money in betting,secretly take my parents' money to return bet

2)When my brother is dealing with Multi-Level marketing,selling magnetic bed...my parents first to buy from him.......one single mattress around $1.2k.....imagine if it is queen size....

3)When my brother wants to set up a trading account,they give him 5K to start the account.

4)When my brother went Malaysia to work,my parents pay for his clothings and air tickets etc.But work for 3 months,company got problem and came back home.

5)got a job in a advertising firm.Earn more than 1k.....may be very little but if u can eat at home.that 1k can easily go to alot.....and when i says more than 1k,i mean higher end of 1k......But when comes to give money for household expenses,will dilly dally and dun want to give.....

6)When my brother came home late,my mum always will leave the soup for him....

Look at the list.It will makes everyone grows with envy and believe my brother will return the graditute?? NO!

these are what he has done.

1)took my mum atm card w/o asking and withdraw money to pay gambling debt incur during NS

2)Took my mum new credit card and forge her signature and then what did he sign?MOS drinks.100 plus 100 plus sign sign sign........my mum didn't know.....

3)Happen thrice.Thought he learn his lesson.NO!....today,take again........my mum called me......i says i nv take....brother also says nv take....juz now came home from work.......mum told me,her card found in her purse............My brother put back!! u tell me la.This type of brother,how to earn my respect....everytime says i youngest so no rights to shoot him off.........wth!....now isn't abt the time to talk abt age,bro!!

Sometimes i wish to have a brother that takes care of home....vacuum the house.....do laundry,wash plates after meals.......but never.....he just eat and leave it there....letting my dad to wash for him.....

Fri night,go out late,come home 2 plus den slp till 11am or 12pm....eat lunch,facebook and PSP and den 4 plus,leave house and go out.....come home 12 or 1 plus am....slp till sunday 9am and den go windsurf....come home arnd 3 plus...facebooking .....and den slp...that is bascially his weekends....where the heck does household chores come in??!!!

I have to work and study.Weekends are the only time i can study for a long period.But guess what,i come home....to do household chores!!!

Haiz.........why can't i have a more sensible brother?

2008-10-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

gosh....been eons since i blogged!! really really busy........

For the past 3 mths,been busy working and studying at the same time....

Now i am in SIM-University of London-Banking and Finance(Full time).

At night,i be working at millenia tower for Citibank dealing with time deposits and foreign exchange.Pay quite attractive.

Although tiring but working at Citibank really open my eye alot and see the bank operations....
gee....imagine working fro 9am to 11 plus PM!!!......my future life......haha.......

gee....going to ramble on some insightful stuff that i have taken notice while travelling to n fro from sch to work etc la.....

i realise Singaporean fashion getting worse.Just today,i was sitting in a train and i saw a guy came in with a stupid and outrageous hairstyle i ever seen........his hairstyle machiam like Anime show.....the hair volume v.dense and flowy and hair v.big....and the freaking problem is his head and body so small la....and the whole time,he in mrt,juz keep on touch on his hair....i realli wan to laugh till pengz.....pls lahz......firstly,his head damn small for the hairstyle.Secondly,he still thinks he looks cool and keep on twisting and touching his hair....oh my gosh!! wanted to go up to him and tell him d cold hard fact but i think he noticed me coz i everytym look at his hair and then turn away sniggering while he turned his head towards me.....lolx....

One more thing i cannot stand is young punk.Those like kids who looks like 13 or 14 trying to act lao da.....think they watch too many HK serials le......got one time at Orchard mrt,got one grp of punks-2 guys and 1 gal wanted to get out of train but u know de,Kiasu singaporean all rush in first,so they have to push their ways out......den after forcing their ways out,they keep on shouting vulgarities and somemre one guy wear one HOT PINK skinny jeans.....den they all so freaking short..........saw them spew vulgarities....so freaking cute lor......wnated to laugh at them......coz i juz need to stretch out my arms,they can't touch me le.......But realli,kids always remain as kids....no matter how u dress or acts......u will always be a kid....so pls.....be like one and stop acting punkster..........

Haiz...it is not that i am a very fashionable person but i juz feel that s'porean still have to reserve that bit of 'conservative' mentality in terms of dressing and be constantly mindful that the world sitll have many pple living.....

I realised that sometimes a busy life can has 2 sides........either busy working or busy gg out with friends....but for me,i am busy with work and study......i have no CCA in SIM too.....haiz......realli a sad life...wkend is reserved for revision...*striving for my 2nd upper* which is slipping away as moments pass..........I have reached a new stage of my life......or rather a last chance for me to succeed.......Like what other pple are facing,with every new passing phase of life,new encounters or rather new awakening will arise......can we cope with it,deal with it and conquer it? Time will tell and by that time,a new phase will come again.....a cycle that goes on and on.......

gee...feeling very emo...time to stop and take a break before waking up 6-7 hrs later and start a cycle of working and studying again..........am i suffering from a burnout? *shrugs*

*gal gal........*

2008-08-06T08:39:00.000+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Pallada - The Fastest Tall SHip docked @ Vivo from 2th - 6th July

2008-07-21T22:11:00.001+08:00

A long overdue post.........
Sunday
was at Vivo. to be on board the fastest tall ship

Lucky for us
we met this Guy studying at Singapore Poly who was on board with them for a wk
He gave us a guided tour around the ship.
and into the cabin
where only the Russian crews were allowed - restricted area lor!

Pallada is like a training ship for Russia University.It is like the fastest sailing ship as it has participated in many races around the world.

At first,just went onboard and thought there are some guided tours or something but in the end dun have.But lucky we met a guy who had a chance to be onboard the ship.He from s'pore poly and was selected to go onboard the ship for a few days.

Before the stopover at S'pore,it had docked at Penang so the guy travelled to Penang to be onboard the ship and then returned to s'pore......

Had an exclusive view in their bedroom and hallway........presumably not everyone can go de worz....

Apparently,every day stay at sea is equilavent to 2 days so they are paid US$5 per day.Though quite little but they can have Mac laptop lor.They drink plum juices coz apparently it is quite cheap.They also trained in martial art for apparent reason-piracy..............

gee........was realli infotainment ....

den rush to play soccer after that........

Will give a consolidated work i have done for the past 6 mths............

In photo forms worz....hehe.......*hint to my lao po......*

2008-07-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

I have ORD since 060208.

I was the platoon sgt for my platoon.During my course as a PS, i have definitely make friends and also make enemies.It was never easy been a platoon sergeant as you have to make decisions that affects a platoon of 30 odd guys.

I have never admit or claims i am a very good platoon sergeant.I leave it for my men to decide for that.I am simply a platoon sergeant that get things done.To some,a good Platoon sgt is one that smokes them out for night off.But what they don't understand is that as a platoon sgt,I am all accountable for their lives.Imagine if i smoke them off and one of them get into accident,how shall i explain to their parents when by right,they should be in camp sleeping?I am there to prevent things from happening and not there to fret when things happen.

It is esp. hard for me when i am a PS.My ex-PC who ORD is ineffective and often implements new stuff that isn't the way to go in our unit.But i still have to balance things up between my PC orders and my platoon welfare.Often been stuck in the middle isn't a good feeling but as a PS,this is one shit that i have to take.U can ask my 'understudy' -Edward....he followed me around for 1 month just before i ORD.U can ask him how tough it is to be in my seat.

To be frank,i was thrust into my seat without understudying much.I picked alot of things along the way de.It is very hurting to see some ex-men damaging me even thou i already ORD.I agree,there is 1 or 2 pple who don't like me.He,NSMAN,is like one bad apple among basket.But when i ORD and when i still meet them on the road,i was very surprised they were very pleased to see me.They will says,'how life is gd when under me etc.'.......To me,it is assuring to hear that my efforts isn't unappreciated.With a different management since i ORD,they have a more difficult life.

However,there is just one person whom i feel i should address this entry to: NSMAN.

I know who you are but i shall not name you here coz i think i am not as narrow-minded and coward like u.

i already ORD le and what more do you want?I have never disturb u since ORD and neither did i disturb u during my reign.Crocodile was not started by me and definitely not initiated by me.If u hate me becoz of crocodile,i think u are damn narrow-minded.If u notice,a few months before i ORD,i never join in crocodile game.

Secondly,u were borned in 1985 but ur actions doesn't shows u to be one.U smear me in ur msn,i deleted u frm msn contacts.i have never get in contact with u anymore.U can vanish in my life for all u wan,i dun gif a damn.But 2 wks after deleting u,u tag the childish comment in my tagboard.It realli reflects ur mentality.

I have never ask u to be my frenz.I tried to contact u to ask exactly what do u want and you just choose to avoid my calls.COWARDLY act.U dare to smear me in my own tagboard and msn and don't dare to answer my calls.Really a coward act.

Secondly,i have never feign heart mur mur.As all my friends will have known,i sweat easily.So i went to see a chinese physician.He says there could be a valve problem in my heart.Meaning the blood need more force to push open the valve therefore leading me with excessive sweat.And with so many news of pple collapsing during exercising or die in their sleep,my parents are very worried.So i requested for a medical checkup since i was still in service and checkups are free.In the end,the diagnosis was that my heart is alright after going for a scan.

I have never feign heart murmur at all.And to think that,u used that to smear me and insult me,it goes to show how far ur upbringing is.,

I choose not to delete the tag because i have nothing to be afraid of.Pple are entitled to their judgements.Whether i am a good PS or not,i leave it up to my men to decide.As far as i am concern,as long as i do my part,i am fine with myself.But i am more worried for u,NSMAN.you are 2 years older than me but you choose to jog on the spot and not moving on.I feel sad for u.i already ORD for more than 5 months and i already move on in my life but you.......sad to says,still standing at that ever spot and keep on harping...............

Move on,NSMAN.............u are 2 years older than me,for goodness sake and jolly be like one.I have never seen such a narrow-minded pple like u.Be a man when u want to smear pple reputation and not avoid me like a tortoise...............

reflect upon urself when u tag on my blog.....realli feel sad for u...........

i shall leave the tag on for u to be remorseful.....

If u have what it takes, go be a plt sgt for one day....u will understand how tough it is....but well,i don't think u are qualified to be one anyway...........

*shakes head* how pathetic one can be.......

Photos overloading!

2008-07-06T22:31:00.032+08:00

Been a long time since i blogg.

Finally. some photos for this boring and words-loaded blog.

21 June - Cousin Janice's wedding

the food.. is mamamia~~

Tiara - flower girl

Special M&Ms.. ( see what is printed on the chocolates!)

Bro and me..

Us..

22nd June - My Party!

The Famous game amongst SDE - POLAR BEAR!
The whole idea is with a pack of cards: they have villagers, a healer, hunters and POLAR BEAR, who are the murderers.
The idea is that the bears kill at night
In the day, the villagers will have to try to identify who is the bear and eliminate.
Kill wrongly and u have lesser villagers - meaning the bears are winning!
It also depends on your acting skills. to convince others that u are not the bear (when u are!)

All who came to enjoy the food, the movie, the fun..

Xue Mei being famous for her cutting cake skills - she has the honours of cutting cake for me

The Singing session! and the DJs!

Many thanks to these Cameraman for the wonderful photos

Many thanks to Xuwen, Dawn and Xuemei for executing the Surprise 21 presents and esp Xuwen and Dawn who specially drove to my deardear's house the previous night to get the stuff from her.

And of course, her

p/s: sorry if anyone if left out. realli too much photos le.
NEXT! HuiXiang's Surprise party! - A very belated one also.

Phew~~

That is a whole lot!

Pictures speak thousand words.......really wish to thank my dear dear to help me post these pictures up........

have been busy doing surveys....will blog that in a seperate entry where the ever boring yellow words with no pic will take over this space....haha........

Meanwhile,enjoy these pictures bahz...........

2008-06-20T00:35:00.002+08:00

due to popular demand.....here is my list....haha.....

Wishlist *hint*

1)wallet
2)Mp3 (arnd 1 or 2 GB and must have FM de:creative d best:cheap n good)
3)Pencil case
4)Pens
5)nice shirts so i can start my sch term
6)watch

As u can see,my list more for Sch term de la...starting SIM in 5th Aug...whee!

2008-06-10T23:46:00.005+08:00

Gee.........a month of absence...anyone missing me except Big zhu....??haha...

Well.....left CPF centre.......wanted to stay on for awhile but to be frank,life getting bored there...last time,there used be an onslaught of WIS calls but 2 wks before i leave,there were like so many new temps around and no. of calls dwindling,i was literally answering only like 30 calls per day...(of coz,cannot fight the 'CPF LIFE' days where i can only answer 10 calls per day....lolx)....so i presume it is now the best time to leave when my contract is up bahz..........

At first,was offered a 9 mths starhub job....coz was thinking of working even when i was studying in SIM....but i kinda unsure wad my life gg to be like when sch term starts so better not take d risk coz it is kinda a make-or-break thingy for me in terms of future...do well now,get a 1st or 2nd class honours and my future is bright again...now it is kinda bleak in a way...haha......

So right now,i am a part time interviewer for Ministry of Manpower....more like a surveyor bahz......COz every quarterly,they will have this thing called the 'Labour Force Survey'....can't divulge details but in general,juz wan to see wad is the employment rate in s'pore bahz......selected household are being,well,selected to take part......And also,i am now officially part time tutor......yeah!.......

2 wkends ago,was doing promoter for Robinsons 150th birthday bash sale at Expo......saw a no. of friends like Jessica,My NS frenz,MY ex JC seniors,my MOM colleague etc........was having lunch at EXPO and oh gosh,the food is like damn ex....for those mixed veggie rice,it cost abt 4.80 for 2 meat and 1 veggie!! In any case,was having lunch and den got this ang moh lang asked me whether he can sit beside me since got space,i allowed.den have a brief conversation with him.He is an expat from UK working for Angsana company....the publishing firm that publish books like Mr Midnight and most popular russell Lee ghost stories series....Not known is his occupation but apparently,he travels round the world for book fairs and stuff.....and he was like telling me that s'porean crowds are not that bad compared to HK and a quote frm him:"u will not know wad is a crowd until u realli seen one!" lolx..........

Last sunday,play soccer at Anderson Sec. even thou body aching before the match....oh gosh,was like 3 wks since i last touch a football...lolx........now thigh pains,body pains etc..........*my deear dear first time accompany to my match lor* hehe......love her to bits lor...my soccer team official photographer....haha!

Euro 2008 has arrived and to be frank,i think Portugal and holland stand gd chance to emerge as champion but well,soccer has full of surprises AKA Kelong...so let's juz wait and see bahz..........

2008-04-20T22:15:00.002+08:00

Haiz....this wk is a very emotional wk for me....the batch of temp that is very close to me is leaving this wk.....

Hmm...this entry shall be a tribute to them bahz....

Jessica:a gal who sat behind me.She touches me with her dedication to help callers.Some callers are really very nasty and difficult yet she still goes all e way out to help them.Even out of her scope.I sometimes dun knw whether to call her dumb or respect her dedication.......and those days where i slack and she is damn jealous coz i am doing CPF Life and i will juz shake leg and read newspaper while she busy answering the never-ending national projects calls.......i rmb the first few days when she came,she having a hard time adapting to d environment.....and also,to endure her 'tortures' lor......anyway,she realli make me realise wad does 'GEMS' means....'Goes The Extra Mile'

Belicia: A very clever gal who sit diagonally behind me.....beside Jessica.....she comes across as a very intelligent gal and of coz,Raffles blood running in her....haha......her patience towards difficult callers are tremendous.I rmb when she came in,sheng gao and me were like betting that she will changed her tone frm nice to frustrated in 2 wks time....but she juz goes on and on till her contract ends....realli amazing patient and tolerance lor....but she got one period of time migrating to a new place(infront of supervisor) but 2 wks before contract ending,she was sent back to her old home....haha....and yes,her chinese also nt v.gd so whenever caller asks whether can speak mandarin,her typical response will be 'my mandarin nt v.gd'...damn hilarious....haha.....but her patience and tolerance realli mk me ashamed as i feel v.frustrated easily de.....

Pamela: a high pitch gal who does rhymthic gymnastic...some sports i dun even knw existed in my 21 yrs of life till she told me wad it is......and yes,i often disturb her by placing her name tag all over d centre....and she will often do many stupid expressions.....her typical one is clumping all her facial features into one center point which is her nose......and her voice damn high pitch lahz.......

Huitian: doesn't realli contact wif her much till last few wks bahz...often call her 'ant' coz her head very small and she v.skinny so often call her ants....haha.....knw her secret....but shall nt reveal....haha....

Eugene:ah....this boy...i tell u....realli mk me spend alot of time...when he first came in,he damn quiet la....often eat lunch alone and often buy those expensive coffee like coffee bean and starbucks......he damn quiet and often keep to himself....i spend 2 wks and he finally open up and he damn hilarious when he opens up.....many jokes came frm him lor....haha......hey eugene,rmb our 'pre-enlistment' party worz...haha......and he is one charmer boi....charm many hot gals lor....i spend 3 days persuading him to stay but haiz...to no avail and our supervisor realli likes him coz he often will boost our service standards lor......

Yao yee: jap name that translate into gay....haha...he got one big heart lor...v.brave to confront our supervisor and he is damn vocal....hey boi,u better watch wad u says in army worz...have to tahan la...in life,nth is fair....so in army,u beta tahan abit or else u realli IN for a hell of life lor.......but he v.cute la....will act gay whenever i call his name in a high voice lor....esp. to drag the last word 'yee' long and high....haha.......and he is d first guy who i saw play paper planes in office and even dare to throw d planes towards my direction lor....realli shock when i see that......

Last but not least

Nigel: a guy who inspire me wif his 'dun give the guy fish,teach d guy how to fish'....haha......he a damn funny guy who dun give a damn abt callers who threatened to complain coz he know that he is right in d first place....realli deserve my respect and my idol for that instance coz he is nt afraid of anyone when he is doing d right thing....

GOSH!!!

wad a long post....a tribute to my ex-colleagues in call centre...truly miss their presence in the centre...dun knw how to last thru d 1st day withgout them tmr but lucky i got my batch boys arnd...sheng gao,gurubaran and kenzi.......

In any case,if u guys are reading my blog.realli thank u for ur times in CPF.realli glad to knw u pple......frenz 4ever!

2008-04-13T20:27:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 wks since i blogged.....guess it's time for some updates....

Weekdays been pretty much the same.....Answer phone calls abt nat'l projects like WIS,GD,GST etc....Gd news to those 21 yrs AND above this year,we be getting some money at d end of April....be sure to monitor ur letter this wednesday coz we be sending out some letters rgd money nxt wk worz.......

Last wkend is very hectic i guess....

Saturday afternoon play soccer with my team....won 5-3.....we leading 3-0 at first half....i scored one and assisted one.......den evening rush dwn to selegie to catch soccer with mingwei,xing heng and letita......Arsenal vs Liverpool.....

On tat note,my dad be officially taking out Sports grp from 26 apr onwards.....hmm....no big commotion coz seriously,how to says.....it is no end to the price lor....god knws next season,how much will starhub raised the prices again and in my honest opinion,with all d big hooha,pple are still subscribing to it wad.........money still rolling for them.....all talks and no action will nt make them wake up their idea and continue to raise prices............that is why i decided to cancel d sports grp.....we need PRACTICAL actions and not juz plain talking!!

Sunday went to dragonboat at Kallang...it is a birthday celebration for my frenz....pathetic turn out rate so in d end,4 pple per boat.....realli kill d ass out of me sia.my arm practically rips off my socket lor......

This wkend,saturday morning went to Main Office and work........den afternoon,dear went wif me to eat lunch at home...bought Missy Muffin for her...yup,the one on tv de....den at night,went zouk wif HX....he went to pick me up on his car.....den shun bian gave me a piece of his dad b'day cake....damn nice la...choco cake....and anyway,last night was a alcohol-free night for us....even thou he is driving,i still decided to pei him drink fruit punch and lemonade...so lame rite.....pay $30 juz to drink fruit punch....haha....oh yahz...clubbing getting expensive....$30 lor!!! anyway,it has been eons since i clubbing wif my best buddy....had a great fun la...but we very old le...so club till 1.30am and we left lor......got 2 gals tried to hook us but den rite......we juz have our own fun dancing lor....the good old days....and oh yahz,we went early so decided to chat along d river....haha.....talk abt our JC days when we club like hell lor.....

den today,just came back from soccer....damn rough team...i sprain my knee and was out at the 30th min....sianz...think gg to be out for a week bahz...sianz...argh!! knee sprain...been so long since i suffered a knee sprain.....

Anyway,next wk is gg to be last wk for some of my close colleagues....gg to miss them sia......

2008-03-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

gee....what a day today!

Wake up at 7am so that i can get ready to go CPF Bishan to work bahz........coz everytym if service counter nt enuff pple, they will get pple frm call centre....

After work at 1pm,bought some bread and rush off to boon lay to play soccer match.....
Oh man....the match.,...2nd half,realise my calf is nt wrong....when i tried to twist and turn,there is a slight and unusual pull at my muscle....wanted to sub off but want to hang on for awhile la....den the moment came,i slide tackled one guy,he jumped but he landed on my right calf......den that is e breaking pt le.....my left calf immediately goes into a spasm...so freaking pain that i can't even walk....the poor guy tot he injuired me but the prob is he stamped on my right calf but my left calf is in pain! haha.....den helped off the field......
Den i very angry,my team mates says i chao keng lor....wah seh....a blow to my professionalism.....if i chao keng,i will nt stay on for so long lor......*angry angry*

Den share cab wif my 2 other frenz....from boon lay to Toa payoh....u work the figure and somemre got the 35% surcharge....gee.......

Now my left calf still very sore.....haiz.....den realise my left knee also bruised.....haiz....old le.....bones getting weaker........ :(

2008-03-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

gee........wad a great day to end the week in work bahz......For the last 2 days,have been handling WIS calls.....realli driving me crazy.......repeating umpteen times over and over again.........i can even juz slp and mumble all e procedures........haiz.......

To be frank,i find d scheme very troublesome la............firstly,why have 2 payments?secondly,why send out letters for those pple who nv declare income their medisave,making everyone confused coz d letters are very redundant when u juz need to pay what u supposed to pay for the remaining CPF medisave contribution.....haiz......realli sick of all these stuff.........i not disputing it is not wrong to put the amt into Medisave but if they want to do so,be fair to both status bahz.......it is nt their fault that they can't often get a job that gives them CPF too....haiz....

Being in the customer service industry since after JC days,from King Koil promoter to handling difficult base residents in base to now,Customer service officer for CPF.......realised that it is not that we are providing very lousy service,i find that it takes 2 hands to clap..........customers often demand this and that and they vent all their anger on innocent promoters like us.........we are here to provide them info of the products but not as a 'punching bag' for them.we have rules to adhere to and if we can disclose,we will.Not point shouting and yelling over the phone wad.The more u sounds disrespect for us,it will do u no gd too.U will nt get the info u wan to wad.i find that singaporeans are very demanding.....like wad MM Lee Kuan Yew said is true....our altitude still have a long way to go before reaching first class...........*first class facility,third class mentality*

welll.....sth to ponder abt our altitude bahz........

2008-03-26T22:54:00.003+08:00

Juz came back from National Stadium.......

This morning,received a sms from Jon Lim,he working in SSC so he got free tix to tonite world cup qualifying match between s'pore and lebanon......was contemplating wanting to go or not....

den juz nice as i was gg out for lunch,guru ask me whether i wan to go tonite coz he want to go tgt with yong quan.........hehe so juz nice,able to secure free tix lor.....

Den evening time,quickly rush home and have a quick dinner den rush down to nat'l stadium le....was quite disappointed la...tot it is gg to be a full hse but in d end,only 1 quarter....haiz....wad happen to the 'LION ROAR'.....

In d end,S'pore win 2-0 but was funny la...everyone was boo-ing at this 'no. 8' guy from lebanon........the fun isn't at the match but the crowd bahz.....

Gee.....very long nv blog and as can see frm my tagboard,some pple are nagging.....

Well...life is quite smooth i guess....being stuck with Life and DV for last wk.....den today did 4 codes in morning and den switch back to 3 codes......had abt 105 calls till 5pm when Mee Mee switch me back to CPF life....hehe....gee...so many pple leave and MC lor......make the call centre v.cold.......coz v.little pple.....

Last saturday,my hse become a s'pore-based taiwan election commission...haha.....my dad crazy abt taiwan election lor....seriously,i am glad ma ying jeou win....i think only he can bring taiwan to a greater height.......i find the polictical scene in taiwan very colourful.......but it is such a shame that the green party keep on attacking blue party,even smearing their reputation and even took a swipe at Mr Ma's deceased dad....haiz.........why can't green party win it fair and square......very happy they lose badly......but Mr Hsieh is truly a great speaker,flaming up the atmosphere whenever he talks whereas Mr Ma talks in a more civilised and more calm manner......

Well...finally submitted my Uni application......

today is my dear's bday....happy birthday dear........may all ur dreams come true :)

2008-03-02T20:34:00.002+08:00

Sianz...realise v.long nv post a decent one since i ORD

Life is being a smooth trail i guess after i ORD.Now working at CPF call centre.Pay pathetic but learnt alot of CPF policies.......*no comments* on some of the policies....

Met frenz and colleague in my workplace..........The turnover rate is like extremely high la.....

Yesterday went to Mallery 21st birthday party at Toa Payoh,very near where the JI head escape....*scary*....

It is like the 7th 21st birthday parties i attend bahz.......

First is Cheryl Bock,2nd is Lim yu sin,3rd is qiu ru(dear's frenz),4th is Lily (dear's frenz),5th is Yu cheng,6th is Ming wei and den last nite,mallery bday.....

Mallery is my pre u sem. frenz.Pre u sem is an annual seminar that is held at NTU or NUS.my time is at NUS,stay in PGP too......even thou we have met only for 1 wk coz it is a residential camp.....it pleases me that when we last night sat down wif my pre u sem grp,we still able to catch up on each other life and some things juz nv change.....

In life,we will lose and gain frenz.It amazes me how frenz whom we can see everyday in sch can't even compare to frenz made in a wk........guess maybe we rarely meet thus able to relate?? *shrugs*

Last nite,it is nice to sit by the pool and juz gossip......get to knw things that i dun even realise until now la....nice gossips....haha....

Oh yahz,one of my frenz,Seng kiat serves NS as a policeman...so coolz la....he like damn busy becoz of JI head escaped.....

talking abt that,i wonder how he escape la.....i think gt 2 versions....one is he bought over the guards and second is black magic??as in like hyponise some guards and juz escape??i mean he is limp for pete sake and yet he can juz escape....realli make a mockery of our police system....juz hope he get caught soon or else s'pore will be in grave danger lor.........

This morning went to have our first match wif some orange team.......lose la....but dun wan to talk abt the match....wad an unsporting behaviour.......

well....tmr has to start wrk le......

*yeah*

wad my bday means!

2008-02-17T13:40:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: June 24

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.

A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.

You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.

You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.

Your strength: Your devotion

Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness

Your power color: Lilac

Your power symbol: Heart

Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2008-02-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

12 more hours to taking my Pink IC.....

If you ask me how i feeling now,i wld tell u,"lost"....

Seriously,2 years of life juz pass by......

BMT in tekong to SSC in Changi Naval base to unit in TUAS Naval Base....a span of almst close to 2 years...

It is also during my time in NS that i met the girl of my life.......

NS is realli a life changing experience to me....even thou most of the times,i hope i can ORD early but now come to this time,i dun knw why but i feel a sense of lost....

Maybe it's becoz i 8 to 5 so feel more sentimental as compared to other pple who juz keep on doing duty?? *shrugs*

seriously,i learnt alot....alot......whether sufficient to prepare me in working world....i dare not says but i wld says definitely more than what 12 years of education can give to me bahz.........

I so going to miss......the routine life.....waking up at 5.20am,leaves home at 5.45am,tried to get a copy of newpaper so i can read on train and rush to take the 2nd train at 6.04am for NEL and rush to take the 6.24am train for the green line and again,tried to catch the first bus to TNB but most likely must stand if wan to catch the 1st bus......

Such a routine...thou tiring and exhausting but definitely,a routine??

I am getting emo.......

2008-01-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

Die die die.....

Pple flaming me on my tagboard....but well......wad to do....a guy whom everyone loves to hate....hehe.....

Anyway,6 more days to ORD.....

hmm....on one hand,i can't wait to get out of my NS life coz seriously,waking up at 5.30am juz to do 2 hrs of travelling from my hse to base is def. not a long term affair bahz..........

But on the other hand,i kinda miss my life bahz........seriously,after 1 yr and 10 mths in green and suddenly out u go,into the society is gg to be a cultural shock for me bahz..........hope everything will turn out well for me bahz......

They says NS life is one period of time where guys definitely have fond memories bahz.......fully agreed.....i am glad to meet some of my NS frenz.....was looking at my BMT pic juz a while ago,floodgates juz open up....from field camp,penguin rides to tekong,to Changi naval base and to the unit where i spend the bulk of my NS life-Tuas Naval Base.....memories that i can't erase.......

To everyone whom i met thru' out my NS life,thanks for knowing me.I knw some hate me and some love me too but hey,that was in the military time bahz.......let wadeva hatred some frenz have for me vanquished when i ORD bahz.........SOrrie to those whom i have indirectly offended bahz.........Thanks for those who have given help to me in one way or other......

It's time for us to part our way,my fellow comrades.Journey may be long and ardous but look forward,the end is near.............

2007-12-31T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone......

It's the time of the year again when we bid farewell to good old 2007 and welcome the new 2008 with open arms.....

2007 could consider a peaceful but yet fulfilling year for me bahz.....from the appointment of guard Commander to the appointment of plt sgt,the process has enlighten me alot and allows me to look things with a different perspective....

And of course,my relationship with my gf couldn't be any better and it is more stable then before........

This year also allows me to have a reunion with my primary sch frenz and it is amazing how one has change over the years...........6 years of empty gap and when one takes initiative to organise,everyone juz simply joins in........thanks wanrong :)

Well,it has been a very fruitful year..........learning that different pple have many faces.Sometimes i wonder,everyone also do duty but why muz one person give me so much trouble.....haiz......life is juz so exciting........

Well,enuff said abt this year le........

time for next year resolution:
1) Be a better man
2) Slim down
3) Be more fitter
4) ORD peacefully
5) strike 4D
6) strike TOTO
7) earn more money
8) study well
9) Be a better bf
10) Be a better son

Yeah!

HAPPY 2008 EVERYONE.......GG DOWN TO MARINA BAY TO WATCH FIREWORKS....YEAH!

MAY EVERYONE WISHES COME TRUE.......

GD BYE FOR NOW.......2007

HELLO.....2008.....

2007-12-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

Gee......Merry Xmas to everyone...........albeit an Expensive one thou......

I seriously dun knw how come the inflation is so high........

ERP gantry getting more and more,charges increasing.......

Been travelling arnd in taxi for some times and i actually pity the taxi drivers...

to me,the root of the problem is the ERP gantry.......Buses dun pay ERP but Taxi do.And worse still,Taxi are public transport and ERP rising charges are to make ownership of cars higher so as to reduce the amt of cars on the road.But i strongly agree that Taxi drivers should not be charged the ERP.With the rising taxi fares,they are getting lesser customers.

One taxi driver told me that lower income pple made up of their 60-70% of their customer base.The rising fares are meant for the upper income customers whom will have vehicles by then........a case of misjudgement by the upper management?? And ultimately, it will just the taxi drivers who are gg to face all these............

Finally,a post tat did not touch on clubbing *hint* aly.......

haha....

sch of thoughts bahz..........

2007-12-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

gee....what a day....juz came back from parade rehearsal......

For these past few mths,it is like a bullet train....

days going past juz like that..........wheez.....

Honestly,i am burnt out......realli tired.........everytym i go back to base,tons of problems awaiting for me.........pple report sick,mounting strength not enough,pple altitude me.............

The whole morning,on one hand has to look after the marching contingent,on the other hand,base side also give me problems.......sometimes all i hope is to have a few good leaders in d plt and not those leaders that are out against u........coz in d end,their faults become urs......haiz............i am also a human being......why can't anyone understand that part? Everytym i goes on leave,my morning will be like a working morning..........i also need my rest......i am burned......really burnt lor......haiz..........i juz need a listening ear.......the anguish i have in me whenever i go back base and faced plt problems,i simply juz wan to find someone to pour out my woes........i think andrew and sherwin will knw wad i mean.........070208,pls come quickly..........*gasping for air*

Sometimes,i look at myself and wonder is there sth wrong with my leadership......I admit i am not a perfect person nor am i a good leader.......But to a MAN point of view,a gd plt sgt gives 'off' to plt,smoke them off.But to me,i have to be accountable for everyone and i am sandwiched in between my PC and my plt.........

Nowadays,i realise the new batches of pple coming in are getting more and more '3G'.....last time when i am a new bird,wadeva my PS want me to do,i juz ok and go....but now,these pple juz keep on asking 'why muz this,why muz that....' and it is freaking irritating..........i got other stuff to do and yet here u are,keep on asking questions............why can't juz says,'yes,plt sgt.'....haiz.....

My PC also another backstabber.Always make me the bad guy.Last time,our unit cannot let pple go outside and report sick coz pple will tend to abuse the system but my PC says he dun wan be a bastard and thus,announced happily to everyone that he allows pple to report sick outside and trust the plt to have integrity.......but now,pple are beginning to abuse it and when i complains to him,he turned his words and says,'report sick outside is a privilege' and if pple abuse,we can take it away but to be frank,i have no recollection of him saying that infront of the plt.....he simply waiting for me to says thus making the bad bad guy.........

Seriously,i wld prefer to have many frenz...........but if i place my friendship into ops,i wld nt be fair anymore.......thus when i am strict,pple starts to says this and that and critise me..........last tym,i am particular abt critism.....but now,i am simply numb to it........guess wad they says are true bahz......when one climbs higher the ladder,the lesser frenz he wld have?? *shrugs*

ALl i wish for this xmas is for me to ORD in peace.......Hate to be PS when during end of year...........cfm alot of problems............haiz........

recently been clubbing..........i am afraid i will fall into the pitholes of clubbing again.........last tym,was crazy over clubbing due to relationship problems in JC and now,*shrugs* feel v.relaxed when in a clubbing atmosphere bahz........doesn't help much that i have frenz who willing to open bottle de lor........been drinking red wine past few wks.......den shuttlers of beer........gonna pick myself up from the slump....*argh*

can anyone juz let me ORD in peace??

2007-12-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

Whee....clearing leaves and lotsa of leaves....haha...

But when leave,also v.concern abt Base matter la.....particularly in the morning....haiz....

But in anyway,went sentosa yesterday....now like one red lobster....

Den that night,went phuture....been 2 mths since i went phuture.....

Met alot of pple bahz......

At first enter,saw Morgan,Zheng An and one more guy,i forget the name le....all CCHSM pple la.....

den meet up wif my frenz at d dance floor and den we go order 'Baileys Milk'....whee!! Nice Nice lor.........that shall be my fav. drink from now,So now,Lychee Martini has fallen to 2nd position....haha.....

Den hit dancefloor and alot of army boys lor.........i mean those recruits la........actually i got nth against them but a grp of botaks?? a Big No-No bahz.....it is not as if i nv been a botak b4......but to me,if i botak or wad,i prefer to chill in a pub and stuff but well,once again,each individual has their own preference......

den saw my frenz,Ying shing and siJie on dancefloor and den offer to escort them back to entrance coz phuture was freaking packed...

On yahz,one more thing,saw one birthday boy drunk like shiet lor..........vomit noodles all over the floor,frekaing disgusting..........think my birthday party at club,gg to ban all alcoholic drinks le...only juices...haha.....

Den while on d way back home,at entrance,saw my BMY mate,sheng siong....whee!!

hHaha....so many pple meet up and surprisingly,most of d time in clubs....

*shrugs*

2007-11-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

Gee........been eons since i blogged......

well,generally,life kinda stagnant now bahz since it is gg to the end of year and i am 70 more days to ORD.........whoa.....

Being Guard Commander last wk coz Josiah not arnd.....

It's juz being weird being a GC...*shrugs* maybe too long nv be le bahz den the guys i used to have are juz so different bahz............

But one gd thing is that i am much closer to my guys bahz.......when i am a PS,i juz hole up in my office,doing my admin. stuff but with GC duty,at night,i can still settled dwn and kid arnd wif my guys.

I realise the pespective of a MAn and a spec will never converge..........it is hard to satisfy one end coz human are never satisfied....once u give them this,they will want more and take for granted wadeva things that were given to them in d first place (shrugs)

Oh yahz,was doing duty when this NSMAN requested to come into my base to get sth but of coz,i didn't allow him and he threatened to post on blog.

Has blog become a medium where people juz write and write without getting their facts right and hopefully one day,some reporters or journalists happen to stumble upon their blogs and try to create a mountain out of a molehill?? has blogs becoming a medium where people can threaten one organisation?

Well...none of my biz anyway,that guy can go blog for all i care anyway........To me,stay firm in ur stand and juz not waver bahz......

Seen many types of faces in base and my time in Navy has teaches me how to deal with any sudden incidents and also facing different type of people bahz.......

Am i too nice to my guys?

*shrugs*

2007-10-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

Sianz........could be off tmr de but have to go back to base specially for the IPPT thingy...........to assist the unit in conducting the IPPT.....

The reason is becoz i have done b4 and if i go instead of a newbie,things will nt screw up and our plt name and reputation is preserved....diaoz.........

Haiz.......My guard comm. also CMI lor.......ORD same time as me and yet give the 'i can't be bother' look......i see le also dun knw wad to do.......i mean i also have my times b4 wad.......i was holding guard comm.,guard 2ic and magazine spec at the same time while u on course wad..........i have gotten more shiet than u before i become PS de........when i give u advice and u dun listen and when u get screwed,it becomes my problem again..............wth.........so how?wan me to take up the role of Guard Comm. again??cannot always be relying on me to do the jobs juz becoz i am more proficient in it wad...........realli wonder wad will happen to the plt if i am nt arnd lor.......haiz........the whole world is on my shoulder.......

Everytym the plt on duty,when i book out,wad i dread most is a call from office......realli scared.........haiz.......can't even go off in peace.........now i learn my lesson le,gg to go on my 'off' when either plt dismount or on 'off' too........

Argh!!!

However,come to think abt it,my appointment as a plt sgt has indeed let me learn alot.......from responsibility to adminstrative stuff........i have learn to look at things at a bigger picture.........with 2o over men life and welfare at ur hands,u realli nid to learn......

However,how i wish i have a capable assistant whom i unfortunately dun haf........my GC only knw how to play PSP,one day,i shall ban PSP frm my plt lor.........see wad they gg to play.......i mean u play,okay la,but play in d day when everyone v.busy and things happening,it is realli dumb.......realli waiting for things to happen.........juz wait.......i waiting for juz one big mistake and i sure gg to kick his arse........

WOAH!

2007-10-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

haiz.........

Even thou i am much closer to my ORD.........3 mre mths.......but somehow i feel my life in TDS is on a decline instead.........

Seriously,i hate my Platoon Commander.

I myself thinks i am more capable than my Platoon Commander.Just becoz i am doing my job well and good doesn't means u can juz push more jobs to me lor.......and den,after pushing the jobs to me,u still dun trust me in handling it den i thinking why nt u go and do urself.......

So much for a poly scholar........low EQ..........come on la,where is ur flexibility........know why ur frenz in unit leaving u one by one,fellow officers don't like u.......and u have to cling on to another officer.........

I realli cannot stand it anymre.........last tym,i dun have this feeling de but right now,i seriously dread booking in to base........my health is declining again.......juz nt feeling right these past few wks..........don't knw is it the stress?? haiz....*shrugs*

Sometimes one need praise here and there to keep it gg but he doesn't??!!! On one hand saying tat i am doing my job but on d other hand,saying that as a plt sgt,i am too nice to my guys....i mean wtf!!! u are not the one mingling arnd with the MEn....so wad those thingy on battlefield and other infantry unit???come on la,u are long enuff here to knw things dun exactly work wad u dream of it lor..........WAKE UP!!

haiz......realli sick and tired of work de..........i presume even harder life coming after plt 2 forms back..........

If only my PC knw how to give more praises and less threats........all he do is threaten this and that.........wth!!! i wait till he goes in work life,i make sure he die lor..........come on la,we all are NSF.....dun gif me this kind of BS!!

Oh Gosh.........why am i not enlist in january den i be less than a mth more to ORD...........haiz..........tahan that bugger for 3 more mths........ARGH!!! it's killing me!!!!!!!

How i wish i have my previous PC.....know how to mingle arnd........as a PC,this is wad u shld do wad.........why go and differentiate officer and men lor......we all are humans being la.........why can one officer do so and the other don't??

argh..........i miss the plt spirit that we used to have when we haf the SSC 7............the soul and heart of plt 2.........

i dun wan plt 2 to be ruin in my hand but i need the autonomy to run the show...........is it a psychological problem?? that i myself unconsiciously giving me undue stress??

Haiz......i dun knw...........*shrugs*

2007-10-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

last night have a chat with my buddy...Huixiang........seems so long le......

He ah.....knew him from 1st 3 mths in NYJC........same orientation grp.........den decided to stay in NYJC to try to conquer it and den landed up in Student Council.........hmm........4 years of friendship.......copper,bronze,gold or diamond frenzship??hehe.......

In any case,we 2 buddies also go chiong clubs tgt before we enlist lor.........

den suddenly,it strikes me when i ask him wan go club,he says that i no longer in d same league............

actually,to think abt it,it is quite true.......

Clubbing........it can view as negative or positive depending on hw u wish ti look at it.......

to those who knew me or saw me in clubs,the most i go for are the waist and i will actually ask d gals whether i can dance w them de...........

However,some,will prey on innocent and young gals who may be a noob in clubbing and starts to get hanky-panky with the gals.........i will take pity if the gal can't shake the guys off.But sometimes,dun knw la,whether is the gal realli a slut or juz enjoy being violated all over her body,she like seems to enjoy being violated lor........realli realli v.ashamed and look down on gals like them......

However,one can't realli blame the gals........coz with the booze and the loud music,the gals may juz forget themselves and let their guard down among the music and crowd and this is where guys come and in and take advantage........

Last time,before i am attached,i admit to go clubbing for gals.......i juz love the glam lifestyle of clubbing where gd looking wear pretty clothing and go and let their hair down.............

However,now i am attached......total different story........

tink my dear also afraid of me..........but dear,u can ask my frenz like aly or HX wad,i realli knw my limits in clubbing de........esp. wad i can or shld do bahz.......and that was way b4 i met u lor.........

Dear,still rmb wad we had chatted abt while sending u to tuition? that is exactly wad i am afraid of.......yes....u may knw hw to control ur liquor but the place is v.messy.....with a bit of drinks and loud music,once u get high........trouble will set in bahz........i have seen many cases where lechers will juz follow u where-ever u go de..........so what if u go wif frenz,u may nv knw wad ur frenz will realli do when they have a bit of drinks.........i also have cases where own frenz touch own frenz........alyssa,amanda and caiwen will knw abt the incident de la..........

Digress abit.........yup.......as i was saying......2-3 hours continously on d dancefloor...........*shakes head* no longer has the passion or stamina to do that bahz.........i prefer to juz sit back and chill and listen to music and see pple bahz......

It is amazing of wad u can discover how pple react to diff. situation lor.......diff. ways on how to approach a gal and see hw they pick themselves up after getting rejected.......realli interesting....i bet some matured men muz be doing the same to me when i first go clubbing bahz.......haha..........vicious cycle..........

It seems eons that i go clubbing.........but dun knw why,everytym i hear clubbing songs,i will feel a sense of energy running thru me..........*shrugs*

Has the dragon in me awake?

I realli hope not...........

Maybe too stress in work le bahz..........dragon wan to come out and play..........*shrugs*

clubs...clubs...clubs.........

2007-09-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

Haiz..........dun knw wad is happening to me nowadays..........the passion that i once have for things are all gone.........

The enthusaism has all vanish except for doing stuff for my dear..........dun knw why,when comes to stuff rgd my lao po,i still always have the passion and enthusiasm to go all out for her but when comes to base or myself,i juz lack d fire.........

Haiz..........i used to look forward to wkend,coz they are the days to revitalise me after one week at work but now,to me,wkend doesn't seem that impt after all le........I used to jio pple out to club on wkend and stuff but now.....dun knw.......juz laze arnd at home bahz........

is it becoz i have forsake my nightlife?I am a nightly person de.........i listen to clubbing music when i am happy and stuff.........

haiz.......dun knw wad i am blabbering abt also la.........

To sum it up,maybe my life too monotonous in a way bahz........sometimes clubbing or pubbing,get to meet diff. pple and get to observe diff. pple too..........abit more exciting.........is it the reason why i suddenly wan go clubbing?*shrugs*

haiz........i dun knw wad is wrong with me la.......

*pouts*

2007-09-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Sianz.......

Dun knw wad's wrong wif my unit lately.........charging pple and stuff.......somemre my batch boy..........haiz.........a sense of detached in my heart........

sometimes i wish to blog out my unhappiness in my bog but at d same time,i have to be careful or else dun knw which MSD come and spot check me den i die......

But lately,welfare wise being okay la........but haven't get my 8-5 yet.........actually my life the worst de la........dun knw why everytym =my NS so sucky.......

To be posted to become sea soldier alrdy very suay den summre when go tuas,stay-in.........wah piang eh.........the only gd thing is i got sgt la......

Sianz sianz sianz...........everyday,mentally v.exhausted........plan alot of things to do in yr end..........but nw don't seem to have the enthusiaism le...........die die.........can anyone pls ignite my passion and enthusiaism again..........

*the only constant thing in life is changes*

2007-09-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

240907

a date that may seems juz another day to other people but to me,it is a date that changes my life drastically.........

exactly one year ago,at night,i summon up my courage and finally msg her my feelings for her.Yup,sounds insincere but well,i couldn't hold it anymore.......i was having my OJT at that point of time so yeah,it was only on 26th sept that i finally get to ask her in person to be my gf..........

Everything juz started to change frm there.........life realli juz revolved arnd her but hey,who can blame me? she is my first love and my first relationship.........

but well,we have exprience high and low point of our relationship bt all i can says is that these experiences juz make us feel stronger and more bonded tgt as one love.........

one year le,and to be frank,we are nt there yet........but we are still growing.....growing tgt,learning things as we move along........

but to me,all i can says is tat my love belongs to her,koh feifei.........

i love u

2007-09-16T14:54:00.000+08:00

Phew phew........major ops has finally ended.....

But well,even thou the major ops has ended,all i can says is that life in TDS is on a decline bahz........3 plt system become 2 plt........mount,dismount,mount,dismount........totally no life at all lor.......the bad thing is that it is my plt that is being splitted up.......haiz.......now plt 1 has 2 PS-es and plt 3 got 2 guard comm.........sianz diaoz........

Actually,my PC wan to fight back to have 3 plt system again but seriously,i dun think it can wrk out.Come to think abt it,if have 2 plt system,i may have a higher change of getting 8-5 and secured wkend due to the increased of manpower but on the other hand,if 3 plt system,we have 8-5 for the whole plt and standby week........one cycle will come and go very fast de.....den very fast,ORD lor............less than 5 mths and counting..........woohoo..........

Now,hope the PS-es can have their secured wkend and esp. me bahz........i more deserved to have my 8-5 role coz of the split in my plt and me having a double job of PS....tsk tsk.........

Now,my dear dear doing her project at my house.......happened that her planner book was opened and inside there,she wrote her first crush's bday there.........it somehow sets me thinking.........

No doubt it has happened a long time ago........but it somehow sets me thinking of my first crush........but my dear's action somehow sets me thinking in a way.......up to nw,my dear stil rmb the bday and still got kip in contact wif d crush.........whereas for me,the last tym i met her was in a coincidence at my house nearby tuition class and i was sec. 2 at that tym.......but i nv bother to talk to her........and that was it.

*shrugs* somehow feel that the first crush is somehow that special to a gal bahz.but to a guy,maybe it is juz curiousity bahz......so not considered as first crush lor....sianz......guess it is the cold weather fault bahz......letting me anyhow think abt stuff........gee....

but well,as i was saying it sets me thinking,how long have i ever starts to ask abt my frenz's well-being..........so far,the only frenz that i contacted wif is huixiang......the rest..........*Shrugs* AHve i been neglecting them?or have i juz taking them for granted.....only when things happen den i starts to search for them??/haiz.......many many tots that flow back to me.......things have been v.busy for me...........

Busy busy busy.........if only i have 48 hrs per day....

*Shrugs*

2007-09-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

Phew.........to think tat standby week is coming after 2 wks of duty.......things juz go awry again........

Coz 2 wks frm nw,got sth major happening which i can't disclose or else i be the nxt jeffrey....but anyway,OC wan us to get prep for the major thing so all stand in next wk which happens to be my standby week....

actually i not get nitpicking here if i having my 8-5 after the major but NO.....my PC still wan me do duty lor.......................but nvm,i shall play arnd coz i also have Base Orderly Sgt to busy with...hehe.....den he still wan me to do duty rite....steady lor.......he also got alot of admin work for me to do and he still says wan me to delegate my tasks....i mean hello lor....wake up ur idea la...my guys alrdy so xiong doing duty and nw u wan them to bear extra stuff when PS shld be the one handling it.....sometimes,i think studying too much not gd lor.....he still says wad poly scholar.....may have High IQ but def. low EQ to begin with........

This is navy.Not some infantry units that u have been to.Sumtym i wonder why our unit keep on having infantry trained officers lor.....really out of the way coz they don't knw wad our jobscope are.....we are not infantry lor......haiz.......they always says newly posted PC v.garang.....time will change....hopefully i do see a change bahz or else....life as PS is gg to be a tough one....

cheers....:)

2007-08-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

phew............1st week of duty almst ending soon...........

sumtym why am my NS life so unlucky?

First posting in as Sea Soldier alrdy suay enuff den when kanna posted to TDS as spec.,even mre suay coz alot of misunderstanding..............den i Guard comm. so long..........juggling between Guard Comm.,Magazine Spec and guard 2 ic...........all by myself............wad keeps me gg are my gf and that my 8-5 life.........

den now i become Plt sgt............i still have to do duty till mid. sept..........i see other plt plt sgt..........all newly appointed juz like me and yet they can 8-5 or rather as far as i see,so far only one plt sgt la coz the other PS is standby week de but we shall see how it goes next wk..........

Den haiz......to me,i told myself this:i shall endure till mid sept........bite the bullet.........

And another matter is the old birds that are ORD-ing 2 wks later..........realli glad that they ord-ed.........coz seriously,they are more of a bad influence rather than a gd influence to the plt............they play stunts like no ever b4 and still dare to raise voice at me...........come on lar,last time is last time........last time no stay-in but this tym has wad so dun expect wad is given to other ORD personnel muz be given to u guys too lor.........i realli hope they quickly ORD-ed la.......

Haiz..........gg to my new appntment.........no doubt heavier responsibility but come to think abt it,it is gg to be 5 mre mths b4 my big day lor..............*ORD*

Can't wait for it to happen.........

WHOO!!!!

2007-08-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

gee....took leave this wkend coz realli v.shagged out.......

Was learning plt sgt and to add on to the fact that my PS v.garang and strict,i can get 5 phonecalls frm him in 25 min..............totally record for me lor......

Haiz.......den Guard comm. also lahz.........got some unhappiness over the plt.....dun knw la......sort of with them le........but have to give punishments to them also la den they like nt happy so haf to explain to them again bahz.......

Nowadays,army is not all abt control by fear bahz.......we are in a 3G army generation and most of us are educated and fear is outdated in a way......we all know how to think,know how to differentiate wad is right and wrong so it is best to go soft and den go hard if things dun improve.......

recently,my plt mate,lakshmen and jeremy asking me why i so moody nowadays.....i realli dun knw bahz.........on one hand,i trying to pave a new direction for the plt and wif the limited time i have on my hand,juggling between GC and PS,i totally gt no time and energy to think abt it.On the other hand,i have my dear dear to worry bahz.......she juz ended O week and nw busy rag and wad is worse is that she fell sick....haiz....*shrugs* glad it is over bahz......

these 2 weeks realli a testing time for me.........sometimes it is not that the burden can share bahz but juz that i nid pple to probe me bahzx......realli be persistence in wanting me to says and den maybe i will relent bahz......but these 2 wks.......*shrugs*.....dun knw bahz.......everything juz in me....waiting to explode and glad that i pass by singapore river on sat.....letting the waves bring my stress and troubles out into the ocean and remain there......

On sat.pei dear dear to go see NUS rag and flag day........dear dear had a outburst but partly my fault bahz........sumtym i wonder,is my action causing all e outburst that she have?i realli dun knw.......i got so much to think,so much to ponder......in my mind,plt stuff and her.........juz gg round and round my head.......but anyway,was quite hurt by her outburst and it seems everything is my fault.....she is not wrong bahz......coz maybe can says i am petty or wad but it seems i dun realli like the idea of me being 2nd??*shrugs* She is willing to sacrifice her health for rag but for me??*shrugs*

Anyway,Rag is a success.Seeing the event realli mk me miss my council days.Esp. CNY 2006........the cheerleading and the float.........everyday go sch nv see sun,leave sch also nv see sun.........almst everyday stay until sch gg to close at 9pm den left sch and the whole thing repeat again and seeing that my house win the dance component and all d gals hug and cry realli touches my heart............and i once again felt the hype last sat..........i once told my dear that i nt gg to touch wad event stuff but after last sat.,maybe i shld run for Student Union? haha.......wait till i get into the uni first bahz.........

gee.........very fast,i gg to be 8-5 le but life still gg to tough until october bahz where everyting will settled down and i be juz waiting for my ORD to come nearer!! woohoo!!

gee....a long post..........

whee!

2007-08-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

gee..........

Busy busy busy cycle for me..........

i am now understudying plt sgt and is my guard comm. upperstudy......dual roles in d plt..........it doesn't help that my current plt sgt is on leave this whole week........

Haiz........den my dear dear also busy with her own stuff........o week and rag.......

She fallin sick too and yet i am in base..........

Hand tied up.........sumtym,i wonder at myself too.....can i handle 2 roles??

I am realli mentally exhausted.......so many things for plt sgt to learn and on the other hand,i muz teach my understudy well too.......

So many things yet so little times........plt.......haiz.......dun knw la.......

So many troubles...........

2007-07-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm..........today rest coz of flu........

Braces-wise,everything normal bahz,can bite bite bite le juz that those hard ones can't realli bite into den i nv bite lor........

Had a short dispute with my gf but after some times and a chat wif her,everything back to normal le.......

sumtym i wonder why couples can have cold wars for so long den i realise becoz they nv communciate...........both parties not willing to back off and wan to insist they are right.........whereas for my gf and me,dun knw lehx,when we quarrel,after we cool down for a while,within the day,we resolve all problems le.......

well........*shrugs* communciation is always the key to all problems *wink*

2007-07-29T11:40:00.000+08:00

LAst night realli was a blast........

Had a primary 6 gathering.........i mean how cool is that,after 7 years of almost totally not contacting or seeing each other since our primary sch graduation........

Went to bugis mrt and saw only wanrong there..........she organiser and i can still recognise her coz she and me same JC anyway......den slowly one by one,pple start to stream in and i got a diffuclty spotting some of them and i think huiqiang changed the most.........from tomboy to a girl......albeit a pretty one bahz........

den everyone starts making their way to miss clarity cafe.......my 3rd time there and 2nd time in the week........bleahx.......den surprised to see kaiwei,eliza and samuel there too........

Den got alot of pple la............total of 15 pple,5 guys and 10 gals,totally outnumbered........but realli coolz to see how everyone has changed over the course of 7 years,some pple changed drastically,some pple don't.

Eveyone was chatting and stuff.........i mean seriously,after 7 years,some pple internally has meet up and bonded but some dun,so well....alot of things to talk abt lor.........den frm miss clarity and talk all e way to merlion.......haha........everyone juz chatting anything to everything under the sun or rather moon bahz.......

talk all e way till 12.20am den we starts to leave merlion and everyone was like discussing how to share cab coz out of 15 pple,10 lives arnd toa payoh area lor......den shiok wei,me,edmund,yinghui wll share a cab but den suddenly got bus 57 came which happened to be the last bus and everyone starts rushing for d bus and den edmund starts running and i also follow suit and in d end,my grp all rush.......coz juz take the bus blindly..........

lolz..........definitely a blast from the past and seeing so many pri. sch frenz fine and dainty is definitely pleasing bahz......

Heard they organising another one and this time we gg to inclde more pple.........yeah!! can't wait can't wait.......

2007-07-28T08:37:00.000+08:00

Hm...........juz now stumble upon sth that i shld nt even knw or do it.......

However,did it and saw sth that i dun reli like to says........

does one past really matter?

To me,it does play a part but like wad i always told other pple,'past can't change,but present and future can so do sth abt it while u can b4 u regret'.......

19 words............but ever so impactful..............

2007-07-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

Yeah...........sianz...........today finally put braces le.........

At first,i tot process gg to be long....like arnd 2 hours but in d end,only 45 min. lor.........hehe.........

den ask dear to pick colours..........haha.......at first,nurse only called my dad but when my dear nv moved,the nurse also says,'i wan gf to pick colour too'....hehe........den chose blue in d end..........

Hmm..........braces realli v.mafan..........first,brushing teeth and den cnanot eat too hard food lor..........for at least 1 year............heart pain pain.........

Den chewing also difficult.......den the pain is gg to be back tmr coz the anaesthic wears off lor........haiuz..........tmr den says bahz........

Sianz.........josiah gg to be attached out and i have to retrain a new guard comm..........ARGH!!!!!! den summre i learning plt sgt stuff..........AAARGHHH!!!!!!!

Dual role..........miserable life.........

2007-07-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today is quite an emotional day for me bahz..........

Today is the day my brother will be working overseas....haiz....in china....

Took half day to send him lor........

Sometimes i realise it is when u almost not gg to see him for a long long while that one will knows how much actually one will miss each other bahz.........

For eg,since i enlisted into NS and my bro into SIM,we hardly see each other bahz.........like wkend,he will go out and den wkdays,he be busy with his wakeboarding stuff.......so we hardly get to see each other at home so i tot my bro leaving overseas for work for a few mths,i will not cry bahz.......but i was wrong....

As the time ticked faster to him gg to past thru the departure hall,i feel a tinge of uneasiness..........his frenz also came to send him off.............the gals cried and so is my mum.............at the point of time,unknowingly,my tears start to well up le..........i managed to hold it back....but barely.......i realli dun wan to cry in public area but maybe it is becoz of the nature of my cancer,i am a very easily emotional person.......

I still remember when i am in pri. 5,my mum went to sydney for 5 days......i every night cried myself to slp......realli....no kidding........

Now that my brother has left for work,my room is seriously very quiet......i look behind and saw my bro's work desk....very tidy and clean.....no laptops.....no DJ set..........v.odd feeling.....i kinda miss my bro messy desk but haiz...........i miss my brother!!! *sobx*

guess this is a passing phase of life bahz...........all of us have to adapt to it someday in some ways......but for me,it is gg to be a rough one but well..........i can manage lor..........

Meanwhile,was reading a book called 'tuesdays with morrie'....totally touches my heart..............it says abt a professor on the brink of dying..........
Family is the foundation of everyone.............without family,there can never be one.......will friends be there 24 hr for u when u are sick?it is always d family there that take care of u 24-7............

It also talks abt marriage.....respect and communciation....2 key points to a lovey dovey relationship............hehe............

Today realli a period of uncertainty.....even affected my dear dear too......on d eve of our 10th month anniversary.........she busy with her o week and rag stuff.......den i uncertain abt my bro.........sometimes i wonder whether one can multi-task?? *shrugs*

Bro,i am so gg to miss u....haiz........

2007-07-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Standby week le......

Haiz....got mixed feelings.......my bro gg to attach to overseas for work le.....like half a year lor......my bedroom gg to be empty le but beside when i got into NS,i realise i nv realli been talking to my bro also la....but now that he is leaving tmr,i have abit of reluctant bahz............but well...passing phase of life lor...........

recently,i dun knw why but i start to detest smokers........i dun knw why,realli.........some OJT attached to my plt for duty den some of them smoke den afer they smoke,their breath was like -whoa-......realli wan them to stay away till their breath gets 'fresher'..........but i tihnk only some cigarettes give a foul breath bahz.......some of my frenz smoke de,the smell not bad,muscluline bahz....haha

Lately,i having mood swing,dun knw whether my bro leaving has a part to play in it..........

My comp. spoilt den juz repaired and re-install MSN den was scrolling the msn list and i will often look at the subnick of friends in my msn.............

I realise that subnick is a way to show one character bahz...........i remember there was one time when i juz install msn and den will start putting questions like ,"anyone selling hp?,'headache'......that time the purpose was to attract attention bahz.....like want to test how many frenz are out there realli cares bahz......of coz,when i think back,i realise how foolish i am bahz.........of coz,nowadays my subnick is abt my profession of love so not much a frenz can 'show' concern bahz..........

Well....see how edgy i am now.....even subnick can also get on my nerves de.....lolx........

Now listening to mambo jambo....realli love it lor.....a great blog music as in u blog while listening lor..........

In a flash,my relationship has last till 10mths le......realli a long and arduous journey.........a journey where we both are still learning but i reckon both of us still have a long long way to go before we can be the perfect partner for each other.....

Giving and taking have always debatable..............it doesn't matter who give more or who receive more but rather it is how u give and take that matter bahz......*smiles*

:)

Bon voyage,bro......

Bon voyage to cheryl jie.....see u in november!!!

2007-07-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

Watched Harry Potter today...........show alot of talking but the fighting scene v.chaotic la.......like smoke here smoke there........i like watching magic show lor........

But well.......i watching with my dear dear so guess,it's all balance out bahz.........

Haiz...lately,dun knw wad happen..........but juz feel so sianz..........like sth bothering me but juz dun knw wad is it?? hmmm....but i got guys' PMS lor...but yahz...juz feel v.sianz.........unmotivated lor...........

aiya.......i nowadays highly irritable mood lor........aiya.......dun knw wad's wrong with me lately also...........

2007-07-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

Juz came back frm dinner with weelai,kaiwei and ian.....

Ian jetting off to Aussie since the closure of New South Wales(Singapore)...poor ian....lolx....but nonetheless,wish him all d best in aussie,mate.....

Went to Miss Clarity Cafe to eat and seriously,the ambience is gd.......the food is wonderful but my smoky salmon abit *eeks*....not my kind type of cooking fish method?*shrugs* but the dessert is good good good......the mud ooze and the warm bread and butter pudding......oooo......v.v.v.v.nice........*licks fingers* The prizes are reasonable and the service is great........

den when leaving,very frustrating....waiting a tthe taxi stand at raffles city plaza,and when the taxi came into the taxi stand,it is green de and den suddenly become *on call*....u knw how frustrating it is when esp. we are the first in queue.......luckily,got one private taxi.....one of the remaining 300 private taxi left in Singapore.....den ian has to rush home to pack stuff and leave for Airport le....*bon voyage*

Seriously,i knw the taxi wish to make more money but it is v.angry to see green available cabs juz zoom off.........but well....wad to do....2.50 more booking fee lehx....who dun want to earn sia.........

Am i a capable guard comm.?

when i juz posted in as a sergeant,i have many aspired dreams for the plt but when i finally become guard comm.,i somehow juz lack the initial inspiration to carry out wad i have for the plt. when i juz posted in bahz.....

Somehow,it is due to more commitment to my gf bahz......

*shrugs*

Sumtym,how nice it is to fight along for a cause with someone.......that is wad i am trying to be.......the person to fight along with my dear..........giving her emotional support and moral support when she needed most bahz.......and on top of that,my own fight in d base.........

After ORD,i guess i will be a much stronger person.........

2007-07-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

Gee....what a day today have been.....

Slept only 3 hrs and den luckily got no PT coz have sai kang to do lor....set up d tentage.......

Was pretty pissed with the HQ log side.....purposely give me a tentage that is not waterproof lor den we almst finishing le den luckily got rain den realise only the tentage is not waterproof den have to return and get a new one den the HQ assistant says is the Log spec. ordered to give de....i was like &*&*&* lor......

den given half day off and den go sentosa and see dear dear lor.......

Den jiu end d day le....

Tmr have to help other plt mount morning peak and den dear dear's FOC finally ends le......these past few days,meeting up with her often last only half an hour at the most on tuesday lor......but for the rest of 2 days,the duration like only 5-10 min .lor.......but i am there for half an hour den spend d rest of time waiting,seriously,sometimes i hate to wait but i dun knw wad charms my dear dear has over me that juz allows me to wait patiently for her de.....

gee....power of love? *shrugs*

2007-07-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

Gee......i dun knw wad shiet my plt is having bahz.....when other plt having their own standby,they like realli gt no sai kang to do for the week......

Whereas for my plt,this wk is like total shiet work.......Monday help plt 1 mount duty till tues....den today have to carry tentages here and there....wah seh.....realli sai kang coming in fast and furious.....

It is also a test of my own leadership skills.......coz the plt sgt not here today.....

Somehow i always think that i have adequate leadership in me.....but after today,i realise i still have a long way to go......

OC told me this sentence,'i give u one problem,u as a commander,find soln to solve it'.

i realise most of the time,i am the problem-giver and not a problem-solver in a way bahz.....As in,in my heart,i knw how to solve certain stuff but i juz dun knw or lazy to blurt it out??....or maybe i feel that if the task is given to someone else to do,maybe he can execute it better bahz......*shrugs*

I always believe in lead by example but as a guard comm.,it is not possible to do that.........

Thus,i try to show it by making sure my pple knw wad is happening arnd d base but pple will have otherwise thinkings,they think maybe i trying too hard.Some says why i dun wan delegate stuff to my Guard 2ic but i dun coz i dun wan to seem as if i am tekaning them and stuff,some things muz take one step at a time bahz.........

Sometimes i realise pple have diff. perceptions even thou u have a totally diff. meaning....i have learn to take things in my stride....making sure that i dun get waver bahz......

Sianz....dear still at orientation camp.....

will be all alone on the comp. till fri. or sat. lor.....hope got nth on for her on wkends lor and most imptly,i also have nth urgent on wkends too...........

*shrugs*

2007-07-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

Haiz....sianz...standby week and my dear went to become OGL for FOC........

Sometimes i hope i can read adult's mind.....go into their mind and get what they wan to says bahz.......I hate pple who like v.sacastic......like purposely wan suan u and stuff......i mean seriously lor,i am like only how young,u so senior le,still so childish to resort to using suaning to shoot pple mehx..........

Haiz....*shrugs* hope a solution comes to light one day.....i also wonder why she like wan to suan pple lor......i mean go bug ur own son's gf lor........she is gg to be ur daughter-in-law lor.......a formal status of relationship so go and disturb ur son's gf lor.........

Getting late and my gf involve in the Fright night.......and i nth to do so blogging lor coz normally,i be like chatting wif her on msn de........

Sometimes i look back at the things i done for my gf,i am quite shock myself.I told some of my frenz and they all agreed i dun look like the type that will do such swt things to my gf bahz........

To others,it may be silly but to me,wad matters most is the smile that i see frm my gf's face bahz........

I look back at my past and realised that my principle of love has not changed at all:To love doesn't have to possess.To love is that as long as the person is happy.
I am willing to do anything juz to put a smile on my loved ones.........

:) a simple action of smiling brings a greater impact on others' life so smile often :)

2007-06-25T09:52:00.000+08:00

Yeah...Finally 20 years old le.....No longer a 'teen'....hehe...in a way bahz....

My birthday has always been a low-lying affair apart in primary 4 when i invited my frenz all to my house for a birthday gathering......where we play soccer,carom board,bubbles....those primary sch days bahz....

In a flash,here i am,in zouk,a small grp of frenz celebrating bahz......i juz wan to chill out in club coz i v.v.long nv go club le den juz nice got table reserved for me in phuture so go there and chill but left at 2am coz dead shagged......hehe.....sent dear dear home too....

Den yesterday,dear came early to my house to give me a surprise lor.....ke lian her....only 4 hrs of slp and den bake oreo cheesecake for me.......thank you! V.nice lor....coz i simply love cheesecake....hehe......den slack all e way lor.....den go eat Burger King at night....

To me,i realli dun have the practice of celebrating birthday but thanks for those who have wished me thru frenzster,sms,email or phonecall....realli appreciate that.......

Yeah!! 20 years old le......

2007-06-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today have a gathering with council and it is amazing how pple still remain the same lor.....

Hehe....realli have a great fun with the council peepz cz they truly amazing pple to hang out with and also coz they celebrated bday with me.......

TO me,bday doesn't have to be extragravant or fanciful coz it is the company that counts and not the stuff that comes with it lor............

Yup,duty week starting soon but gg to be a short one coz i gg to celebrate my bday this sunday.....yeah!!1

2007-06-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sianz sianz sianz.........

This duty cycle is my first cycle of being a guard commander.....seriously,i know why pple prefer to be a MAN than a spec.....coz gc have to be on the roll all the time.......making decision whereas for MAN,all they nid to do is to perform their duties.....

i dun knw how many times i have been woken up by my guys in the wee hours of the night when i still hAve to wake up early to do my duty at 7am..........While pple are chatting happily in sleeping quarter,i busy doing my reports and going round the base for inspection and busy till arnd 12 plus b4 i can settled in......

All these i take it up........as a challenge....a challenge for me to push my limit....physically,i am tired....realli tired....but mentally,i am lucky to have my dear with me.............thank you.....

Seriously,i am sort of also getting used to it but it is good to hear compliments frm my fellow peers for my work......realli appreciate that......

Well.....my supervising GC ORD-ed today and seriously,i wan to thank him for teaching me all d stuff that Guard COmm. need to learn and the tips and techniques for certain OPS stuff.....realli thank u.....

Not that he is gone,i got no one else to fall back on and i am all left alone in the battlefront and frankly speaking,i am the fastest SSC 10 to be pushed to become a guard comm. whereas the other 2 plt still got old bird guard comm. to lead them.....

Haiz....whether or not,am i a successful guard com.,remain to be seen.........

2007-05-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

gee.....last standby was indeed a busy one for me........Navy Openhouse.....woah....a killer..........

Monday was spent at changi for training den thursday went to expo to set up 14 tentages and den friday,sat. and sunday doing duty le lor.....

Was surprised to see some of my frenz there lor......saw cheryl koh,patrica and kenneth teow...............one primary sch,one sec. sch,one JC frenz....lolx.......frenz frm diff. educational stages....hehe.....

Today went to shop arnd at Orchard.....Saw a no. of things that set me thinking......

Firstly,i saw some guys with outrageous hairstyles asking pple for donations.Seriously,i have qualms over punk fashion but wearing that to ask for donations is a big no-no bahz.Imagine a young punk coming towards u to ask for donations.
It sets me thinking on wad d charity is doing.I assume the charity sublet the job to other agency which in turns recruits pple without interview.Seriously,if one want to ask pple for donations,they shld wear more decently with a neat haircut bahz,not wad heavy chains hanging over and fringe covering one eye....i mean wth....wad are u trying to potray,it looks more like collecting protection fees bahz......

Secondly,this nth to do with orchard but more of an article i reading in newspaper.It is abt a youngster taking voyeur pic of a young gal.Seriously,the gal is not decently dressed anyway.It will create a sexual fantasy for the youngster bahz.I mean i always believe it takes 2 hands to clap.If u dun show ur flesh so easily,would a guy want to take pic? i also dun knw why some gals juz like to expose their flesh,i mean those overexpose de lahz........might as well go be a pornstar lor......

Bleahz....enuff said....go figure out

2007-05-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

Gee.what a hectic week i had last week.........

Chill out with my dear last week coz i took leave to go on a chalet with her.A short getaway from the busy world out there coz after the chalet,both dear and me will be busy with our own stuff so we wanted to take this chance to give ourselves a well-deserved rest and also to energize ourselves b3fore we go chiong,chiong,chiog arhz(busy with our work in english translation).

Will also be busy with navy openhouse this weekend too....sianz....my standby week where my wkends supposed to be free de but in d end,so many sai kang.....sianz sianz sianz........

Last night,went to chill out with my friends at acid bar.......love the music there bahz,the guitarist is good and the singer not bad.....had fun la....order alot of liqeurs lor.......all of us order one glass each so we haf 8 pple so we have one glass of bailey's on r rock,kahlua on d rock,sour apple,peach schnappi,sea breeze,triple sec with lime juice,rusty nail and one more i forget wad is it le.....but i love bailey's lor.....like ice cream.....nice nice!!

Sometimes i simply love the times that i can juz sit arnd and chill.Chat with frenz,listen to music and juz watch the streets......v.peaceful and serene lor........

It's nice to juz slow down the pace of ur life and listen to the heartbeart of d city......it is always beating so fast and furious......but when one slow down and chill,u will feel v.relaxed and when u go off and do ur work again,u will feel v.refreshed lor.......all d tiredness will be gone.......gone to a far far away land.........

2007-05-15T19:07:00.000+08:00

As i am typing this sudden urge of entry,tears are streaming dwn my cheeks....it has been eons since i cried......i know i may be a guy and guys shld not tear so easily but i am those emotional guys bahz....called me a sissy or a pussy for all u want but i realli dun care.......so wad if i cried......

I was reading my dear blog......i realised i realli failed myself as a boyfriend.So what if i am the guard comm.,it realli hurtx for me to read the emotional struggle my dear is suffering......sometimes i wonder is it a right choice to be a guard comm. whom everyone relies on.........

I was never there for her..........i was never there lending her the shoulder when she cries,never patiently listen to her sorrows........

Sometimes i juz hate myself for who i am.............

wad makes it worse is that my unit is tightening all d privileges....those politics behind....haiz/............i realli can't take it..........we hardly have one complete wkend to ourselves in one mth and there they all,happily taking all d welfare and privileges we once have............

But what realli makes me tear is how disappointing i am to my gf..........haiz.......

She bore dwn with so much problems and e least i could do is to lend her my listening ear,i told her she can call me anytime to pour me the sorrows and i muz be d first to know.....she done that but have i done d same as to provide her with a listening ear?No.....i hardly talk to her for 2 min. and my comm. set starts to bark and i have to attend to d matter in d base.....never once have i realised how anxious she is wanting to tell me all d probs........

Maybe my expectations of myself as a boyfriend is high *shrugs*
i am totally disappointed in myself. full stop.

2007-05-13T10:59:00.000+08:00

gee....realli hectic first week of duty......

I now the temp. guard comm. coz i need to go thru a test b4 i formally become a guard comm.....

Hmm....i like 3-in-1 sgt lor......i guard comm,guard 2 and also magazine spec....realli taxing both physically and mentally....coz josiah now go on course and den not enuff spec to go arnd lor......

gee....realli learn alot of stuff under the -stepping down' guard comm..........

gee.juz 3 more days.......
3 more days to my respite.........

*grinz*

2007-05-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

Gee....today last day of standby le.....

THis week could be considered one of my busiest but loving week bahz.....Juz nice my dear exam end on monday so practically been spending d whole of d week with her.....yup,no kidding,realli is whole week.....

Been out clubbing at phuture,meeting up with her frenz,cycling at east coast,sentosa to watch sunset,sandwich making........gee....realli love the simple stuff that we do tgt bahz.....

Sadly to says,all gd things come to an end..........BUT only temporarily hor....coz 16th May......haha.....shall tell u guys more when the days past.....hehe.......

Everytime at the last day of standby,i have this feeling that i dun wan to go back base lor......come to think abt it,9 more mths to go before i ORD le!! hehe....realli can't wait lor.....

Sianz,duty week soon le....haiz........but this duty cycle gg to be a short one lor.....hehe........coz coz.....i be taking leave next next week....whee!!!......Shall realli savour my leave lor.......as in realli 'savour' *grinz*

Anyway,i today went to Esplanade there....somehow i feel v.relaxed when facing water bahz.....coz i feeling abit stressed since i be undertaking guard commander next week le.....but seeing the water and coupled with my dear's love with me,i thoroughly feel at ease..............feel that the my dear has lifted the big rock on my shoulder and throw into the water and let the waves pushed the rock away lor......hehe......

It is also water that i get to know my dear....*sentosa*

So i simply love water!hehe

2007-05-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

Today,went to see commissioning of RSS Formidable and NAvy day......

Den went to see dear in my no. 3 uniform coz she wanted to see wad.....

Den buy some dessert to make my mum in law happy lor.........

Den went to buy sandwich making materials at carrefour....

den went home to make sandwiches le den bring to colourful bridge to eat....can't tell u where la,or else alot of pple go den no mre peaceful times at the bridge le....haha......*bleahz*

Sometimes i feel that simple acts can bring out a greater self-satisfaction....no fanciful dinner,no expensive taste etc...........guess a simple couple juz need simple acts of love bahz.....hehe......

I juz love a simple life!

2007-05-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

Today,weather surprisingly well in d afternoon.....

Went cycling with my dearie.....double bike de coz dear dun knw how to cycle den scared fall down coz will leave scars lor....*pouts*

Have so much fun lor.....

Den went to eat popiah but muz self wrapped de.........yummy!

How i wish every week is my standby week....den how i wish dear dear not nid to work and juz finish exam....lolx....whoo......blissful couple on d run lor.....haha....

can't wait for 16th may!!!

YeahIE!

2007-05-04T09:27:00.000+08:00

How to make a Fei Fei

Ingredients:

5 parts friendliness

5 parts humour

3 parts instinct

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little curiosity if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2007-05-03T23:55:00.001+08:00

How to make a Yong Cheng

Ingredients:

5 parts success

3 parts brilliance

5 parts energy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of lustfulness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2007-05-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

This standby week past v.fast sia.......Now alrdy thursday le.....

Been accompanying my dearie this past few days........

WEnt to watch 200 pounds yesterday.............seriously,i dun realli quite agree to plastic surgery lor......but sumtym we juz have to admit that the world is juz so superficial abt it,so pple under the social pressure,they succumb to it and went under the knife.....however to me,i simply wan natural stuff bahz.......

The movie also brought out another problem and that is pple chasing the fame.....once pple get the fame,they will give up anything juz to hold on to the fame...........*shrug*

WEnt clubbing at the newly renovated phuture with my dear.....seriously,the sounds system is great but now they plug in 4 more amplifier,realli make the place v.loud and unbearable lor......my ears still ringing when i wake up.........

Oh yahz,another irritating thing to happen on dancefloor to add.It is not that i jealous of the dancers wannabe or wad....i realli do admit that their dancings are good but their dancings are suitable for the packed dancefloor lor.....if wan do,go their own dance studio......u jolly well knw the place is packed and yet still try to do those toopid moves,making the alrdy packed place more packed becoz of ur big big actions,realli v.irritating.....grrr....

had a fun time with my dear dear.......

tomorrow gg cycling le!!!!

Yeahz!!!!

2007-05-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

Gee....juz went swimming....it has been ages since i swam........I simply love the cool refreshing water.....whenever,i am in d pool,i feel v.free and easy..........

After this standby week,i be very busy in base,holding multiple roles.........i realli need to relax my mind and body during this week or else i realli can collapse le bahz..........

It also has been awhile since i sat on a bus,plugging in my mp3 and juz watching the time go past on bus.......i often did that when i am in sec. sch and JC where days are alot slower.......

Was looking at my watch,it is like 1st of May.....9 mre mths before i ORD......time realli flew past,it seems that yesterday i juz enlist lor..........guess when one is numbed by love,time literally juz flew past den coupled with my stay-in,i can no longer count by days but only weeks bahz.....

I often will look back and see what i have achieved in the past 1 year,and seriously,other than getting the love of my life,i achieved nothing.............so am i considered a failure? *shrugs*

2007-04-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

Today is first day of standby week......

I realised as a guard comm.,i have to make many sacrifices.....like today,i cannot take d first bus out becoz i have to learn the software for the CCTV.............

I also realised my plt always kanna the sai kang thingy....like this sat.,we have to send pple to CNB for NAvy day....den the next standby gt the biggest sai kang-CNB open house.....wkend burnt lor.....sianz sianz sianz......

Today also officially signify the end of my dear's exam. *massage*

Now,she having gals' nite out at K-ster....den here i am,blogging alone,cold and lonely....hehe...kidding lahz....guess it is her time to unwind le bahz.......

To me,my job has ended...............

Yeah!

2007-04-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

Yeah.....Finally standby le......den also signal d end of dear dear exam.....yeah! Double Yeah!!

this duty cycle can consider quite fast for me bahz.Coz firstly,stay in so time fly even faster.secondly,i whole day learning to be guard comm. or can also says i like PA for the stepping down guard comm lor....hehe....so time realli fly.......

Hmm,seriously,stay in is actually similar la.I think it is better coz i can get more slp but also not good coz i can't chat with my dear online le lor..... :( but then,haiz,dun knw la.....stay in also like that,stay out also like that,no diff. bahz.......heng is that dear dear exam le,or else cannot spring surprises le......so still quite okay lor........

Well......sometimes one shld get into a relationship to knw oneself better bahz......i often wonder to myself,am i realli self-centred or selfless? Like for today,i also didn't know i be willing to sacrifice so much for my dear.......booking out to get some drinks for her and den some snacks for her to chase away the study blues......i often tot myself as a selfish guy,always putting myself first......but in this relationship,i truly understand how i often can compromise my own self to place my dear interest infront......but well,can says it is becoz she is my dear wad.....but for friends,i dun knw lehx......*shrugs* felt that i did not do so much for my frenz thou :(

Well,my dear exam ending le,some burden off my load le.and yeah,she finally can relax after a mth of study stress le.....hehe......she finally can fly away le.............*wink*

2007-04-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

Phew.....1st wk of duty almost coming to an end.........
This could be considered one of my most busiest cycle bahz.....

Got alot of learning to be done,guard 2,den have to be ammo i/c etc.....so tired.....so busy....but lucky got someone i can rely on....*thanx.....

Stay in first wk act. not so bad....coz partly maybe my dear having exam so quite okay.....slping wise,not much a prob coz i brought my fav. bolster into base,or shld be 2nd fav. coz now,my fav. bolster is.......*shy* Now,in bunk,is either i read some magazines or i juz study my stuff lor....guard com...alot of things to study de.....yeah!.....finally can use some brain juice le.....hehe......

Went MoS last nite with HX and co......not bad sia....VIP status den can enter Champagne Tattinger or sth.....not bad to chill out coz got it's own bar,not nid to squeeze with 1st lvl packed bar lor.......hhehe....their long island tea quite unique,nv drink b4 de as compared to zouk de..........i still prefer zouk de...........

Basically,that is d case for this wk lor............

Shall update next wk bahz.....

Ciaoz..........

2007-04-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm.....today.....after blogging the previous entry,i went to temple to pray.....for my darling exam and also for my safety in base.....

den went NTUC to get my stay in stuff den send dear to my house to study......

Hmm....this pretty much sum up my sunday....may be boring to other pple but to me,it is v.meaningful coz i am accompanying my dear to study for exam......

:) *gd luck dear......*

2007-04-15T08:58:00.000+08:00

Gee....today marks d end of my standby week which means i am going to stay in tmr le.......

Seriously,i try to have much fun as possible this wk but i realise there has to be a limit too coz it is not says i dun have any standby week anymore le wad so yahz,suddenly awoke and limited my enjoyment........

THis wk mainly is to accompany my dear studying for her exam.Shuttle between her uni and my base and my house.......lolx.......

Yesterday,went to meet up my JC frenz,ALson,Yisheng and Isaac and Brenda.......I realised how long i have never being to ORchard le.....gee........getting country bumpkin-ed.......Den went down to Clarke Quay.....we all arhz.....darn indecisive lor......like walk abit den stop and den talk abt where to chill....lolx....in d end,settled at crazy elephant.......well....can says realli not my type bahz,d live band there.....all d songs....i realli know nuts abt it......lolx........

Den 12 plus,i chao liaoz......hehe.......

TOday....today den blog bahz............................

2007-04-12T20:14:00.000+08:00

Gee......today went to crash my dear dear econs lecture at NUS.My dear dear often wants me to pei her go lect. den juz nice today she alone go lect. den i got off so not nid go back base so i juz pei her to lect.

It seems eons since i step into a lecture theatre.Realli brought back the college memories when we have mass lect. at LT 4 for our econs.Hmm.....juz miss those days.

Then i saw eliza in the theatre too.Den i also saw mallery leong but nv said hi coz i only saw her at the end of lect.Den i went NUS den meet alot of my frenz.Let's recap whom i met.
I met 1)eliza,2)mallery,3)kaiwei,4)xinyi,5)xueying,6)Li Ping.but wad a coincidence is that i met my sec. sch frenz,Cherine lor.....i almost forget her name.....lolx........wad a reunion bahz......

Den went to watch TNMT with her den send her home coz she having exam soon le.....gd luck worz :)

NExt is the big news.I am gg to stay in soon.Starting frm next wk,so haiz.....wait till den i blog abt how i feel.....

Seriously,i feel sucky,realli sucky.......9 mths and 28 days more to ORD..........and counting........

2007-04-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

Phew....the truth is finally out.....i will be posted to seaside.....

Actually,when i heard the news,i had a shock.It is true initially i wanted to go seaside.Coz firstly,i get to learn how to drive RHIBS and den secondly,i wan to learn sth in my National Service and den i also not that bonded with the plt so no harm gg.However,as i had done a few cycles with the plt,i slowly develop a bond with them.Slowly,whether i gg to RHIBS doesn't matter at all,in fact,i dun wish to go RHIBS le but as fate beckons,mr gary got some operations and initially,he was the candidate to go for seaside but becoz of the op,he can't go anymore so i have to go in place of him since the seaside need one more sgt..........

Well,the dust has finally settled.Seriously,i hate changes.Hate to change to a new environment when i am so used to the old one............Guess life is like that,the only thing that is constant in life is changes.......haiz........

2007-04-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

Sorrie sorrie,v.long nv blog.....

This duty cycle cld consider as a mentally exhausting for me bahz........Mr Gary Had an minor operation but attn c for 3 wks so i,the only newbie sgt left was tasked to be magazine spec for this whole duty cycle and also to do reports.....sianz.......

Wad bother me most is the uncertainty of my position.....actually Mr Gary supposed to go seaside but he got this stupid op den left me but PC like dun wan to cfm so said wait for Gary to come back and den 3 of us discuss who to go seaside.....sianz....i hate uncertainty....it is like wad u plan for the future all comes to nothing but of coz,this is wad life is......alot of things are uncertain and guess we juz haf to stick thru it..........

I realise i am the person that need praises and recognition sometimes........i mean it feels quite gd if someone praises u if u have done sth gd .....i am not trying to says egoistic here but dun u find that it is easier to scold rather than to praise? Go figure out bahz.........

2007-04-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

sianz....today is a black black day for me.........i had only 5 hrs of slp....den in d morning,after one shift of duty den i can actually slack all e way......but.....

Firstly,was pushed the sai kang of clamping pple cars and booking other pple vehicle.....den got one officer come and kpkb me....i was like -diaoz-.....dun make ur problems my problems lor.......i can actually book him de but i lazy sia....alrdy so many cars kanna booked le.....

Then somemore,the sun is like extremely hot and blazing......realli juz add on to my misery.......den hungry coz the booking thingy is round d base and is arnd lunch time.By the time,i reached guardhouse,it was like 1 pm plus le....hungry and hot lor........

Haiz.....sick of my life.....only you that keeps me going........

2007-03-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

haiz......

Don't know whassup with my left leg......i went to chinese sinseh twice and i tot i got it fixed....

But dun knw,after wednesday morning PT,the pain act up again and this time is arnd the knee area de.........die.....think gg to cripple le.......at first,pain still negligible but now,it is v.pain lor....can't even straighten my left leg.....haiz....pain pain worz.....think muz pop some painkillers and time for those medicated plaster......hehe.......crippled bengbeng on d move.........

Hmm...talking abt horoscope....was talking abt Cancer being the emotional sign of all......seriously,i think it is true........i was often ruled by the heart rather than the mind........and then right,when comes to relationship,Cancer will often fall deep into it.My buddy,Mr Lim HuiXiang is also a cancerian coz he was borned 6 days younger than me....hehe........

don't know wad i am blabbering abt also......hehe.....

Happy birthday my darling lao po!

2007-03-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

260307

My lao po 21st birthday!!!

Morning,help my mummy cook beehoon for my dear dear birthday dinner later.

Evening,went to the dinner.

SO warm lor,even HX wearing singlet can also sweat like mad....haha........

Happy birthday!!!

240307

2007-03-25T10:19:00.000+08:00

1 year of knowing each other and 6 months of being my honey lao po.........

Seriously,i often think what my life will be like if i am still single?

But that is juz a hypothesis coz right now,i am happily attached.

1 year ago,i met her at sentosa.......playing beach volleyball with her.Stupidly never get her contact no.It is her frenz who got me thru frenzster and gave it to her.And frm there,it is a new beginning to my new life......

Alot of my friends was initally shocked i settled down so fast coz i am always the wild and fool-arnd boy......but well,pple do change bahz.lolx.

Now that my friends have accepted that i am attached,they noticed a change in me somehow.More matured and more serious.........

Hm,don't know is it the NS that changed me or my new status.......but now i started to think before i act or rather sometimes la,coz i still have abit that rashness that i cannot eliminate so fast....lolx.........

Anyway,it was her that made me endure thru my Tekong Life and then my Sea soldier course.It was her again,braving with me thru my Sea Soldier Leaders' course Althou a different status la *grinz*

I juz wish to thank her for being my darling,one that loves me so deep.........

Akon-don't matter

2007-03-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

Konvict Konvict
Oh
Ohoohwooe
Oooh
Ooohhwooe

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin' and prayin'
Things between us gon' get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't you
Ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Oh oh oh oh oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
Ooooh
Cause I got you babe
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

2007-03-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

Gee......seriously,i dun know wad is wrong with my leg recently........

After my sprained ankle which is abit swollen,my left leg now suddenly pain.It is as if one nerve is being overstrained.........i mean like normal walking,is alright.Running also alright.It is juz that when i lie down and wan to get up,my whole left leg is one nerve is pain lor....den is starts frm my left buttock de....abit paiseh go see chinese sinseh lor....haha...expose my left buttock.....i will shy shy de lorz.......

Think paste some ointment plaster and see how lor.......like stretching also problem for my left leg.....see MO le but he says is sprained and i was like -duhz- den he only prescribe me painkiller and ointment.....no use de lor........juz wait and see bahz........

Then don't knw wad is wrong with me or the bunk bed lor....today,i see everyone like slp until so happy and soundly,whereas for me,i flip and turn also cannot get to slp......dun knw whether is it the bed or myself lor but cannot be the bed,coz i have slept on worser bed before and i still sleep soundly lor.......gee.....nvm bahz....juz wait and see again lor....maybe when i am completely dead and drained den i will fall alsp bahz.........

den today my dear talks abt gd looking pple in NUS.........den tot awhile abt it since i cannot get to slp wad.....hehe........

Seriously,it is a nature process.Guys attracted to pretty gals and vice versa bahz.I mean pple says abt wad character is impt etc. etc. but let me ask u this qn,who creates a better first impression?Good looking guy or an average guy?Den the gal will wan to know more abt the gd looking guy wad.Yes,if found that the character of the gd looking guy is bad den will move on and stuff but the first chance still gif to the gd looking guys wad........so aren't looks still impt?

Hm,pple often look for greener pasture in life or in work.Will love be a part too?Seeing a better guy chasing,will one attached gal break up wif the current bf juz to be with the so-called better guy?will love be so fragile?Hm....*shrugs*

Some things to ponder?

2007-03-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

Days slowly trickling by......

Seriously,i am so used to my life le............Life now revolve only me,her and my Navy life lor......

Looking back at the years,i kinda miss the old me.One that always joke around and juz treats everything so foolishly........

Now,i still joke around but only at appropriate times and then,becomes kinda serious abt stuff arnd me bahz........

Life is constant changing........now i realise how hard is it to stay true to urself as it is u who conforms to the environment..........no one is bigger than the world itself and that is one cold hard fact that we have admit to..........

haiz..........changing world,changing mindset..........

2007-03-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

Gee........tmr last duty of the cycle before i go on my standby week....YEAH!!!!

Hahaz.....standby week gg to be busy busy week coz got 2 special events happening on both sat. and sunday lor........

So most of my time during wkdays shall spend on preparation for both sat. and sunday lor....yippee!!!

Monday night spend on pei-ing my dear shop around for her birthday dress.Hm.....i know some guys hate to go shopping with their girlfriends but to me,i am actually quite okay.Dear share with me some of her tips den i realise shopping for the right clothes require some skills too.Looking at the large variety of clothing,i quite glad i do not have to made such choices lor.haha........i rarely go shopping with a female de so quite a country bumpkin lor.Didn't realise tube actually is juz a short piece of cloth but the elasticity is like -whoa- impressive lor.Hahaz....

Dear chosen one black dress but she wanted to search arnd for more choices first lor.Hehe.Shall continue during my standby week.....hehe......consider my birthday gift for her too lor.....

Sianz........SSC 11 going to come in le..........2 more batches before SSC 10 the next batch to ORD lor....can't wait but time realli flies when u in my vocation....3 wks juz fly past v.fast de......haha...........

2007-03-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

Sianz Sianz.......

Sprained my ankle while playing soccer yesterday........now my right ankle swollen like one small unripe papaya lor.....

Can still walk around lorz.........but the swollen part realli v.scary.....

This is my first sprain of the year lor,hopefully the last too but considering the amt of time i spent on sports,it will be like quite difficult to maintain that way but i tried lor.......

Oops....time to slp....haha.......gd nite everyone!

2007-03-13T05:37:00.000+08:00

Haiz......sometimes some things are better left unsaid??

I don't know but i feel that at least we let each other know how we feel about certain stuff........

Seriously,love realli cannot be compared.Love maybe is about compromising.COmpromising- a word i still yet to fathom about.A word i still need to learn.

I am always so unreasonable.Fail to understand from ur point of view sometimes and also fail to be sensitive to your needs.

Dear,u didn't hurt me over the words bahz.Guess the word is just disappointed.Just like how u were disappointed over me using the tone on you.Disappointment.

THis is just the passing phase bahz.We can walk it thru together and everything will be fine.Don't blame yourself.There are no wrong decision.Only decision that either u are satisfied or regretted.

Pls don't blame urself.No parties is at fault bahz..........just that it is i who is too mindful about certain stuff.It is me who is over sensitive.

gee....time to book in :)

2007-03-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

Haiz....so long nv blog coz i am still reeling from the aftermath of my unit announcement....

16 April....we going to stay-in la.....haiz.........knew the news gg to come but did not expect it to be so soon....haiz.....dreaded it.....but luckily stay in for a few days only.....mounting timing also changed....cannot says wad time la...but juz changed lor....got pros and cons la.....haiz.....alot of changes too.................gee.....why can't we stick to our old routine lor....so gd and no fuss too....

ANyway,went to Huixiang commission parade....congrats,my buddy....lolx.....see him so emotional,dun knw whether wan to laugh or cry wif him lor.....saw serene.....she commented that i now like more matured le esp. when i talked lor....*shrugs*...........

I think one has to mature eventually bahz....it is a matter of when and how.....to me,alot of pple have diverse views abt me.....some said i lame,some said i mature.....well....it is becoz i choose to be bahz.....when i talked abt serious stuff,i tend to be more matured in d way i speak but when i am wif a grp of close frenz.....i tend to be more light hearted in a way bahz....hehe.......coz to be frank,i think it is realli v.boring and dull to be serious all e time and also v.childish to be lame all e time too lor.....so i go in between lor....lolx........

2007-03-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

gee....today went wif dear to NTU to watch her tu di and shi mei involved in a taekwondo competition.At first,very exciting de but in till d end,it's getting sianz coz it's d same kicks and stuff and same movements to so yahz,juz so sianz............but it's not the competition i gg to watch la,it is more of me wanting to pei my dear lor.....den like that,most of my sunday taken up le lor.....

Seriously,sumtym, i think solving pple problems is easy but to solve oneself problem is like so difficult bahz.Hm,i wonder is it becoz in d end,the decision making lies wif the person so in a way,it will not directly affects me whereas i have to be responsible for my own decision so that solving others seem a breeze but ownself............*shrugs*

gee......shall stop talking abt clubbing for awhile bahz.....take a break.........

Tmr have to start a new duty cycle le...........*sianz*

2007-03-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hey pple,haha,back again to talk abt clubbing.This will be a short short entry......

For the fourth instalment,i will talk abt how to move around on dancefloor......

As we all know,the dancefloor will be v.packed so how do u move around..........

Firstly,do not ever try to seperate couple dancing.Coz most likely the guy will not let u cut him and d gal de.It will only spoil d mood.Den for grp of gals or guys dancing,try not to break them up too.But if bo pian,break up d guys bahz....lolx.....later tell u why........Anyway,as i was saying,cut thru in between grp.....for eg,got 2 grps rite,cut thru in between the 2 grps lor...........that is d best way and also the easiest way too...........

If got 2 grps,one grp of gals and another grp of guys,the guys will want u to even push them towards d gals lor.....got body contact wad den they will like blame u who tried to push thru the way but in their own hearts,they v.happy u push them lor.....so yahz.....

And dun worry abt bumping and wad squeezing,tis is wad pple will expect in a packed club de lor.......

See....short but useful entry....lolx......

2007-03-03T09:09:00.000+08:00

Juz woke up.slept at 3am last nite lor.Went phuture coz my frenz got good results for his A lvl so he opening bottle there to celebrate so went there lor.....hehe.....Bring my darling there also...intro her to my frenz bahz.......

Seriously,if u like R N B like usher,ludacris,black eye peas etc,dun go on fri. Phuture play dun knw wad kind of genre songs on fri. tat is not my type of R n B lor.......music sux but the company is great!

Hehe,my first tym to zouk.............in d year of 2007 la :p haha......

Anyway,here is my 3rd instalment abt clubbing: How can a guy protect a gal on d dancefloor?

Sometimes it is not that got guys frenz company on d dancefloor means protected le.The guy muz also know how to protect the gals bahz.So here are some tips.......

Firstly,as we all know dance floor is v.packed.In fact,the more pack it is,the more pple wan to join in for obvious reason.When dance floor get squeezy,easy to get touchy and gals will not notice,thinking it is becoz of no space lor.If u can get a corner to dance,den of coz,better la but dancefloor got few corners only wad,sometimes will not get de so here where the guys can step in.

Guy shld exert some sort of territorial right.Firstly,the gal muz be comfortable wif the guys frenz hands arnd them.That is to let the gal feel protected.I mean it is ur frenz hand and not some lechers' hands anyway.hehe.Best if is got boyfrenz along la......hhaha....feel more warmth lor.......Next,if the guy finds that some guys are dancing v.close to the gal's back,like grinding le.Coz sumtym guys like to do that de lor,purposely dance v.close deDen here,the guy cannot hum ji le.Bend ur arms den ur elbow will protrude out den push the guy away wif ur elbow.u cannot be scared de coz sometimes the other guy will get the signal and dance far away lor.For eg,last nite,my darling and i dancing.Den at my darling's back got a guy dance freaking close.I protrude my elbow and protrude and he still dun wan move so i purposely nudge him a few times.He looked back and saw my gf and me so he knew he no chance den he go dance far far away le.

On dancefloor,guys tend to be scared to get into trouble so they juz keep quiet.Which is totally wrong.To be frank,most clubbing guys are friendly in nature,juz that they are horny only.For eg,last nite,got a guy dance until v.high den his shoulders keep on moving at fast speed,almost gg to hit my darling's face le.I immediately tell the guy lor.Either tell the guy or move away,but if no space,den u muz tell le.

In conclusion,if u are a guy who accompany gals to dancefloor,do not ever leave the gals to dance alone.Secondly,dun be so hum ji.Be more confidence.If u feel sth is not right,move away or tell the invader lor.Bouncers are there for a reason la.Let the gals feel more protected.Exert ur right la.DUn be a sissy and juz keep quiet lor.

2007-03-02T00:28:00.000+08:00

gee....just came back from range....so so tired....dad made a big mistake lor.....he thought i am at Changi Naval Base so went there,but i actually at Tuas Naval Base.One end of Singapore to d other end.Told him long time ago le yet he still go there so bo pian,i came home myself lor.....journey long lor........haiz......

Anyway,there are feedbacks frm frenz that my first entry on clubbing stuff is good thus,i decided to continue the series of clubbing info......Today,i shall talk abt how a guy can attract a gal to dance DECENTLY............

Firstly,clothing wise.Personally.When i go to small clubs like coccolatte,i wear a normal graphic tee and stuff.nth to fanciful abt it.But for big clubs like MoS or Zouk,i normally wear a long sleeve shirt.It is like occasion thingy lor.Abit over the top for pple to wear long sleeve shirt for small clubs bahz.But like i said le,it is my own personal opinion.I also dun like to wear fanciful accessories like wad necklace or bracelet or cap etc. lor.........Seriously,clubs are not the best place to flaunt all ur blings-blings lor.wan show,go show in d daylight bahz.Another thing is that it is v.dangerous lor.Those heavy necklaces swinging arnd.........Oh yes,if u intend to wear a singlet to show off those pathetic muscles,pls trim the armpit hair.......it is highly gross to see a clump of 'seaweed' prodding out lor.....Eeyere......

Secondly,it is the mentality wise.For me,i realli juz go club and enjoy the music.Whether have gals or not,they are considered bonus to me.It is true.Gals can read guys' mind easily.It can be seen easily whether u are gg to club for gals.I mean of coz la,can't deny guys go club for gals de but the problem is conceal that monster urge of yours well la.Don't once go dancefloor,the horns immediately pop out.Enjoy the music first.Gals will actually look out for guys who are enjoying themselves instead of juz standing there on d dancefloor,occupying the space and not dancing and juz searching for the next target.Coz when gals dance till v.boring,they will start to get abit playful by teasing guys using flirtatious dance moves lor.So best to go and enjoy the music.For eg,when in clubs,i realli often see guys like juz standing there and not dancing at all.It is realli v.irritating.It is v.obvious they are searching for gals.Coz when gals who wear exposing clothes or dance until v.sexy,they start to stare at the gals and get touchy and stuff,straight away.

tip:enjoy the music,NOT the gals.....lolx.....

Thirdly,be a gentleman,not a wolf.Ask the gal for a dance.Dun juz simply grab the gal's hands or put ur arms arnd them.It is v.offensive.If the gal is in bad mood,she can simply juz shout,'molest'. and there u go,the next time u see her,will be in court le.Haha.Juz ask la.Of coz,if u scared u will get rejection den play by eyes lor.Inch slowly closer to the gal.Observe the gal's reaction.See whether she got get evasive or not lor.If she like starts to move away,stop ur approach.Some gals are realli out there to have good clean fun and not be a sheep where u wolves can haf ur hands all arnd them.So dun spoil their fun,i have seen cases where gals are just fed up wif guys getting their hands and bodies so close to them and they juz leave the dance floor.Simply detest these guys who chased gals away who are there for good clean fun.If the gal nv move or wad,slowly advance forward.Seize the chance and ask her for a dance.If she says no den move on lor.Dun be persistence lor.No means no.So back off.

One more thing,when dance,be mindful of wad u are doing.Dun haf ur hands all arnd her or wad.Start by holding waist and stuff.Realli hate guys who juz simply run their hands all arnd the gal,taking advantage of them.Of coz,can't deny there are indeed lecherous guys arnd that will do that lor even if the gal is unwilling.

Think that's abt all bahz.If there are any more things,i will add on to it le.

Hope the guys can pick up some clean points from it.....hehe.......

2007-02-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

gee,althou this wk is standby week but alot of things to do lor.....Coz got range den haf to go IMT,Technical Handling test and den Clean rifle and stuff.....sianz sianz sianz.....

Dun knw wad is wrong with my leg lor....my left knee v.pain....v.odd position too lor....is the outside of left knee de......think i overstretch or wad....now as i sitting typing,i got abit of wobbing pain......tot it will shakes off after a few days but dun haf lor..........sianz....dun knw is it becoz run too much or wad lor............coz nowadays,Physical training getting v.xiong,everyday run run run........

Or is it i getting old le.....lolx.....haha....body weakening and stuff.........

Oh yahz,i was actually pondering whether shld i talk abt my clubbing experience and share wif others lor.....like diff. techniques to get gals and stuff.....but i thinking arhz,if i says le,den if got gals read,next tym they go clubbing,guys will have a more difficult time but ah,i think i muz share some la,esp. those lecherous guys.............so i muz share some to warn gals esp. those who are first time clubbing........

There is one thing i extremely detest in clubs and that is guys juz grab gals wifout asking.......For eg,like a pair of gals dancing den suddenly got a bunch of guys dancing v.near them and den when some hot music came on,the guys will juz take advantage of the 'highness' of the gals and hold them or wad.For me,i will ask d gal whether she want to dance or not.Not that i wan to act gentleman or wad but it is my principle lor.......

However as much as i says that,there are indeed gals who hang themselves out there to hook guys de.Den i got nth much to says le.

But if gals are there for pure dancing and not DIRTY dancing,den they better beware bahz.There are guys who like dance v.near.Esp. when the gal's back is facing them lor,they purposely dance near them.den get v.touchy when the gal nv siam or escape lor.The guys will think the gal are enjoying their 'company' so they will go the next stage of being touchy lor.So for gals,best is to dance near stage or corner or sth....nv in d middle,u will be juz like a tied-up lamb waiting to be slaughter.........

Tip: Be more aware of ur surroundings and dun juz stupidly stand there and taken advantage.Find a corner or sth where guys will not attack u from 4 sides lor......

Next:Dun drink so much.Seriously,i think badly of gals who get drunk lor.It is realli -dead- lamb waiting to be slaughter.If u knw u can't hold ur liquor well den dun drink lor.Dun says becoz ur frenz birthday or ur frenz challenge u den u go and drink.U will regret if kanna tekan advantage of and dun knw who is the culprit.So dun be stupid.If wan go drink,go pub lor.More quiet place as compare to clubs which are dark and anything can happen if the music get too hot to handle.

The last point is the company.As in pple u are gg wif to club.Somehow tied up wif the second point.I had this experience at zouk.My first time there at that time.there was this gal,can see she is wasted le.den she juz put her head on my shoulder and her gals khakis like arnd...so i juz push the gal to them,telling them to take care of her.There was no guys in d grp.Juz as i push the gal back to them,got this 2 lecherous guys,one fat and one thin like 2 white sharks juz swim swim and like get the wasted gal lor.The gals like wanted to get to the gal but the fat guy like blocked them away lor.can see these 2 lecherous guys are like seasoned hunters lor......the gals totally cannot fight back as they kanna pushed away by the fat guy......i dun knw wad happen to the wasted gal in d end la..........but after awhile,the 2 guys came back and search for new prey lor........hate this kind of guys......or rather,bastards.

Den again,go wif guys doesn't necessarily means u are safe bahz.I had this other clubbing experience.There this guy,he went wif 3 gals.....den in d end,the other 2 taken away by guys....he could nt do anything also....lolx.....

But again,doesn't means more guys means gals are safe.I got tis female friend.She is a clubber.She was like telling me that got one time at a club.She went wif one guy de.but the guy brings another 2 mre guys,totally stranger to her de.So it means she tentatively only knw one guy lor.Den i think the guy abit drunk or wad den the other 2 guys like v.touchy to her den she feels extremely uncomfortable lor......

Tip:Best to go in groups.Like got guys and gals.And den right,make sure the guys u are gg with are pple u are comfortable and can be trusted de.COz sumtym the booze and music....well...anything can goes wrong in an environment like clubs.......even guys u supposed to be trusted wif may end up like a wolf too?haha....u may never know....Anyway,back to my point,guys and gals.....den make sure u only haf these pple lor....dun later ur frenz get more frenz den in d end,strangers more than frenz,den u muz be extra cautious de........in a way,that is why i dun bring gals go clubbing,coz sumtym u bump into friends or acquaintences in clubs den they see that u bring gals den go and take advantage den u also v.jialat.So know who u are going with and whether they got bring anyone lor.............

In conclusion,clubs can a fun place to hang out and chill if u know how to protect urself bahz.Those tips i have typed are frm my personal experience.Sth that i see and observe and pick up from clubs.I have so-called retired frm the clubbing scene le so i dun mind sharing this with u pple bahz......

Phew,wad a long entry.....haha....

2007-02-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,i juz wish i can either split myself into half or have 48 hrs per day...........

Then i can satisfy both parties and not feel guilty at all.........

If I have no NS,i wld have given all my 48 hrs to her lor.......

Sha gua,i also miss u lor........

Now i finally understand what is love.............

2007-02-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

gee,as i was about to type this entry,Maggie from Power98 suddenly called lor.....

Says i selected for this game called 'scissors,papers,stone'.Asked me go down to bukit panjang plaza at 2.30pm lor next sat.I was like dumbfounded.She said i got sms in my contacts lor.I forgot le but heck la,asked me go down lor.Hehez.i still deciding lor.Coz nxt wk is my standby week.My wkend secure den somemre sat. nite,my dear have to work.want to spend time wif her in the sat. afternoon lor.Sianz.Dun knw whether wan go or not.can win $6000 in cash and prizes lor but if so easy win,then i not nid work le lor.....haha.........i now like 50-50 going only lor.....

Anyway,dismount lor.Next wk standby week.My precious week lor..........

whee.........

2007-02-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Gee,juz finish mounting duty......

One more duty den standby week lor....haha...wkend secure....so fast,2 mths has pass le,11 more mths to ORD lor....haha....maybe long to others but to us,when doing duty,time flies de lor.............U literally can see time flies....

Was chatting with some of the reservists pple and i think one of them says wad is true lor.....when one have gf or wife,social circle gets smaller........

Hmm,i somehow agree bahz.Coz like widening social circle when u are single and widening social circle when u are attached have totally different meaning.When u are single,widening social circle means searching for a soulmate,someone u can click and talk to and somehow,u will aggressively trying to know more pple and go out wif frenz and stuff,eagerly searching for the right one.But when one is attached,things changed.The urge to know more friends will die off coz u alrdy found the right one.Thus,social circle starts to shrink,limiting to only a realli v.close frenz and these close frenz muz somehow click wif ur other half too so it is like a subset lor.........Beside when one haf soulmate,one will want to spend more time with him or her coz it is wif him or her that u will feel most ease and comfortable with,something that other friends can provide or give u d same feelings lor..........

guess that is wad relationship is abt bahz.U will bound to make some and break some de coz everyone has only 24 hr..........thus,to me,a simple sms or a simple call to friends will be gd enuff le.At least let them knw that i still treasure them as my frenz..............

2007-02-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today,took off to go for my dental appointment........

Saw alot of needles and clippers and syringes on the dental chair lor......so so scary........den my tooth,one canine is dead so nid to do root canal treatment den i think it is being split into 2 parts:exterior and interior.....so scary la,haf to go thru the process another time.....*pouts*

den the braces had to put in during end of march,more sianz,cfm got difficulty eating den the brace have to stay with me for 1 or 2 years....more more sianz.......shld have been mre careful when eating lor...but well.......nth can change anything le........

Tmr have to mount duty le,but v.short la,thurs. den sat. den standby week le....haha........gee...time realli flies.....

I realised i truly have matured alot since my days in army but i think it is more of my new relationship that realli made me grow up alot......a new relationship means a new responsibility and u learn to look at things in a different perspective bahz.......like be mre sensitive towards others and stuff.......

Chinese New Year is coming to an end and seriously,so lack of CNY feelings this year la,i gg to make it up next yr lor.........Pig Pig *oink oink*

2007-02-21T04:15:00.000+08:00

Whee....hehe....surprised to see me here....haha.....i juz nw cannot slp well den suddenly wake up so went out and juz nice champion league is on so tot juz tune in and watch for awhile lor.....hehe....hopefully can have a better slp later......

Well.yesterday,went to bai nian with my dear dear.She came back frm malaysia le lor.....haha.......went my house den go cheryl house.........gee.....talked abt d memories in chung cheng and guess wad,one of my classmates during sec. 1 got hitched lor........she is an indonesian and she is 2 years older than me but she get married to a guy who is 5 years older lor....haha....how time flies.....dun knw when my turn to get married :s

Then went take neoprints.....whee.......haha......den went to Manhattan and eat....seriously,i think their prawns are good..........can try the seafood platter for one if u are not a big eater but for gigantic eater,the seafood platter for 2 can satisfy u.......it is v.affordable too.........29.90 for a big plate lor..........

Went watch norbit.............show quite funny and lame....if u are looking for a good story plot,stay away frm this show but looking for a good laugh,this show may be for u lor.........

2007-02-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

gee....juz came back frm my big reunion dinner with my paternal side de......

Gosh,how time flies,everyone like grow up lor.....see my little niece and cousin....gosh....time realli juz went past......last time we were talkin abt studies,now is abt NS and career.......haha.....

den my cousin married at the age of 25 came.His first year giving ang bows lor den the couple like v.young.They were like tgt since sec. 4..........so lovingly lor..........but marry at young age got its pros and cons la coz both of them also nt yet financially stable too.........

Then sit arnd and chat lor.Nv gamble.....hehe....guai guai.......

Anyway,was watching this channel 8 show at 9pm.They talking abt true love.But this guy kanna stripped of his emotional line which means he cannot feel anything abt love and this gal who loves him dearly.She tried to do alot of things to jolt back the memories of the guy but to no avail.Then the gal likes want to give up coz she says she cannot carry on like this.This sets me thinking.Isn't true love abt staying wif the other half no matter wad happen to him?I mean yes,the guy may be emtionless but if the gal realli loves the guy,she shld stick by him wad.....can't becoz she tried but failed to jolt back his memories den give up wad......

well....true love.........no definite definition coz it has different definitions to everyone......

Happy New Year !!!!

2007-02-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

gee.......half an hour more to CNY...yeahz.....

Like wad i typed in previous entry,this yr i dun haf much festive mood coz tmr have to do duty....*sianz* but well,i am gg to make it up on next yr Chinese New Year coz i ORDed lor....hehe....

Book out den went home to eat my annual popiah....yup....my mum will made popiah on every Chinese New Year eve den i can purposely put alot of sweet sauce on the skin....yeah......like the sauce oozing out when i bite the popiah but rite,very very sinful lor but it is once a year so heck......

Last duty do wif fuzhi....so much fun lor...tok cock wif him during duty den play alot of stupid games too........he forced me to chat wif him till 2.30am when my duty ended at 1am lor....coz he taking over me after 1am till 4am lor......i damn shagged den hit the bed den knocked out le......

Well.........feel kinda lonely.....juz nice went to Plaza Sing to get movie tix for tues.....i hate to queue up for tix so i got it early....surprisingly,the theatre v.little pple guess everyone having reunion dinner bahz....i had it early thou........den walked arnd plaza sing alone....gee...juz feel weird......coz everytym i walked arnd,i have a hand to hold but not today coz she away in malaysia.....*pouts* den i notice a shop.....it says open 11am to 9pm (including public hols).
Den beside the sign,is another sign saying it is closed for CNY....haha....wad a contridiction lor.....Plaza Sing is quite empty except for a handful of shops....even Carrefour is closed......

Den went back home and helped cleaned up abit.......

Gosh.....think i have to go back to my parents and pei them for the countdwn le.....

I wish everyone gong xi fa cai,those who study can score well and those who work can earn more more money and last but not least,those serving the nation,quickly ORD-ed lor....wad else can NSF wish for....lolx......

2007-02-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

gee....busy busy day for me.......

Dismount on 13th feb but haf to mount duty on the 14th so decided to celebrate early with my dear.....

went my house and haf a quick dinner before she heads off to her house to pack the flowers.....stayed with her till 2 am....hehe......so technically,i had spent my first 2 hours of v-day with her lor.....yeah!!!

Went home and slept for 3 hour before booking in to base le......*sianz*

Then suddenly alot of admin work to do....so slept at 1am den woke up at 5am to do duty....*sianz sianz*

Chinese New Year is coming but yet,this year i dun feel any festive mood....muz be the NS lor....last time,i always the one hyped up for CNY,gg to chinatown and buy alot of decor to do and also help mum do spring cleaning but this yr,i go home den dead tired le den also,v.little time to do d decor and stuff....worst still,mounting duty on CNY day 1 lor......

The good thing is next yr,i ORD before CNY which means next CNY will be a fat fat one de....hehe...can't wait for that to happen......

Anyway,i wish everyone a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year in advance and hope the new year will be a smooth sailing one for everyone.......

GoNg Xi Fa CaI!!!

2007-02-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

Phew.......busy busy wkend......

Sat.,i brought food for my dear for lunch den we go shopping again coz my mum grumble i dun haf red clothing :(

Bought Hush puppy polo tee and den couple tee for my dear and me frm newbie....happy v-day pressie!!

In d evening,after sending dear dear to work,i made my way dwn to council gathering to send lynette off coz she leaving for aussie soon le.I realli like this way sia.Afternoon go shopping wif dear den at nite,after send her to work,go out wif frenz.Best deal lor.Appease both side of my world.....hehe.....

gee,i realli miss council.The Bachelors' club founders finally met again.Shane,Jon Lim and me.Den now,only left shane still single.Surprisingly,he broke up wif her gf on the same date when i went steady with my dear dear on the 24th sept lor.......as usual,fool arnd.....the council suddenly went cam. whoring....taking pic almst everywhere den almst get chased out by Raffles city pple....haha......

After that,everyone was dilly dallying so i act as if i tour guide,lead the whole grp out to clarke quay lor.At first,i wanted to go Coffee Bean.den we went past bumble beez,sth like a new club la.Then they were saying they can gif us a VIP room at $15 per pax.The guys like tempted to go but shane and me and the gals dun wan lor........the gals are like v.surprised lor coz i well-known clubber in council tgt wif Huixiang,my partner-in-crime..........hehe........In d end,persuaded all to stay at coffee bean.Chat arnd and chill.Everyone was like teasing my tooth la :( Den i went on my own act lor,making everyone laugh and stuff....hehe....juz like the same old times in council....

gee,i realli miss miss council.Those fun we had,those serious time when we work.....gee....wad a legacy council has left behind.........hope have more gatherings lor so we can catch up wif one another despite how busy we are....best best best deal lor..............

Den this morning,woke up early to accompany dear to eat mac breakfast.Coz i gg to her house to made v-day bouquets......den met up wif her frenz too.....the world is realli v.small....huifang is same class as huiping lor.....wad a small world.........

den slack arnd her hse till the flowers came.The flowers came and den we de-thorn lor........so many thorns sia.....i plucked until got thorns stuck in my finger....pain pain worz :( den basically my whole of sunday spent doing up the flowers lor.....

Sianz,tmr has to book in le....it signifies the end of my standby wk.........sianz ah...............

2007-02-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

What a day for me today........

Yes,yes,yes.....i know u all gg to scold me for being dumb but i still gg to says it....

I QUEUE UP FOR 2.5HRS FOR THE DONUTS AT DONUTS FACTORY.

yup,the hype arnd it is actually over rated but the donuts are realli nice.The bread is lightly toasted and is v.light.Not oily and sticky like those donuts sell at bakery and they do have a unique way of making the bread for the donuts.......

But seriously,queueing up alone is realli realli v.boring.esp when u are queueing up for more than 1 hr....mentally exhausting lor.........i feel that queueing up is the one of the ways that realli see time flies pass u lor.......so sinful.....haha......i can like do other things in that 2 hour plus lor.....hahaha....but well,i cannot realli turn back the time wad....so too bad....bleah :p

Standby week realli flies v.fast lor....haiz...how i wish every wk can be like this week....hehe.....

Sianz...next wk mount duty le.............

2007-02-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

This standby week is the best week i ever had lor......

today had half day off den wanted to give dear a surprise lor......she returning frm malaysia so gave her a surprise at kranji mrt.......Actually,i could have go home and rest de......coz morning PT v.shiong today.....but dun knw,still chose to go dwn to kranji.....journey quite long.....almst fell aslp lor....hate the red line....the dist. frm Jurong East to Kranji like so freaking long la,esp. frm Yew Tee to Kranji.,.....

I was there at arnd 2.30pm and sat at the bench there patiently....noticed quite alot of students....i was like thinking,i realli admire these pple,morning so early wake up to come frm malaysia to singapore to study....den rush hm to malaysia in the evening........daily for 5 days a week....realli v.shiong for them....yet they still hang in there till they get wad they aim for,for eg, a degree or An O lvl cert or sth.......

Den at 4pm,dear finally appeared.....haha......den presented her a bouquet of blue roses....hehe....

Den i sent her home den i also went for my unit dinner at seoul garden@ Parco......

What a way to end the day.....by giving a pleasant surprise for her.......

2007-02-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today is a bright and sunny day.....hehe.....Not referring to the weather,but my mood lor....

Today takes off to buy CNY clothing......gee.....with my dear lor.....

Buy shoes,buy clothing...

So happy.......takes my mind off the sad sad things in base for awhile...

Yeah!!!

Happy day for me!!!

2007-02-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....things took a worst turn today....

I went to National Dental Centre this morning to get my tooth fix.Sianz.Now toothless....muz wait for 1 more mth b4 i can put on the braces.....

Heard that the plt sgt announces that becoz of me not asking him permission b4 i report sick,now,everyone has to go see the MO of Tuas medical centre if wan to report sick......seriously,muz u says it is becoz of me,then now suddenly changed.....i tot isn't it always a standard procedure to do that anyway?Beside,i also came back and mount duty despite me still having flu........u are juz trying to take advantage of the situation to turn the whole plt against me wad......

To me,u are seriously a coward.....u dun deserve to be a plt sgt at all,if u haf to says against me,says it in my face.....and says becoz u wan me to change,not becoz u wan to suan or insult me.....seriously,only a coward will talk behind my back and spreading influence pple to hate me even more....u are not a man....a coward,hiding behind....u ask urself,whether do u deserve the post as a plt sgt??

Seriously,i am trying v.hard to make peace with the plt since the incident that we trying to change the old bird-new bird system.......But dun knw why,nth seems to work.I am often feeling v.stress......i realli wan to juz escape frm everything......maybe juz changed plt?changed to rhibs?I realli dun knw wad to do le......i tried my best,to do everything nice nice and yet................

Nth juz seem to work........i am realli at my wits end le.......I realli dun wan to stay in a plt where everyone hates me lor.......seriously,i am suffocating.........the plt suddenly looks so scary....like when i enter the bunk,everyone like wan to devour me and tear me to pieces........

How?can someone pls help me??

2007-02-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

Juz return frm base.....

Next wk standby week lor....yeah....time to do some CNY shopping.....hehe.........

Seriously,i need one long sleeve shirt and one t-shirt and one pair of jean and one pair of shoes and viola!!! haha........

was searching thru my msn and saw this subnick:keep a smile on your face when u are dying inside,juz for e sake of supporting others...........

I ponder it for awhile and it makes all sense.Especially for pple like me.......

Alot of pple see me as the bright sunny guy who often bring laugher to others.......but how many actually know whether am i realli that happy inside?How many pple actually know that i am crying inside when i appeared to be smiling and jovial everytym.........

I often appear to be the happy nut coz i dun wan pple to feel sad arnd me or to be bothered by my problems.i want them to feel happy and easy with me.....not always consoling me or listening to my woes......i am the type of person who rather keep my problems close to me rather than saying it out.......In a way,it is a bad thing coz sumtym the problems are so heavy that i often feel like dying...........I am selfish coz i dun wan pple to worry abt me...........I rather i help others than others helping me..................

Was on the bus with fuzhi.....i blurted out sth: Without hopes,we will not be disappointed.....or rather the higher the hope,the harder u will fall..........

Don't know.....i mean hope is often view as positive thing.....sth that keep one gg.......like hoping the gal one is jioing to be his gf,hoping to get into a good uni etc....all positive things......

But wad if one nv get what he hopes for,how disappointed will one be? So won't it be better if one dun hope for anything so he wun get disappoint?

Well....so is hope good or bad?

Only u urself can judge for urself.......

Sick of My NS life

2007-02-02T20:24:00.000+08:00

Seriously,i am now nursing a slight flu and went to see a doc and got a medical certificate.Then the plt sgt said why i nv ask permission b4 i go report sick....i mean wad d heck,i am seriously ill lor.Not like some chao keng pple in my plt and they juz simply vindicate me.Even thou i got MC,they juz ask me go back and mount duty coz not enuff pple....seriously,i think it is all bullshiet....

They are very very protective of those old birds(pple who came in earlier than us).I mean that is not v.fair to all of us,.the new birds.I believe in equal treatment.I mean leave also wad.First come First serve.Where got everything muz let old birds go first,it is simply ridiculous.It is like some pple can chao keng for 2 or 3 days or more and they simply juz let them off lor.....

Haiz,i am getting sick of my NS life.Disrupted sleep,poor living condition....one person kanna flu,it will cfm spread to the whole room coz of poor ventilation.I alrdy spread some of my flu to some of the NS men coming for reservist le.......

I can't wait to ORD......my NS life realli sux to the core......CAn anyone help me get out of the bottomless pit tat i am alrdy in???I juz feel so helpless....feel so trapped in this tiny world.....a world where i cannot escape.......

I am crying silently in my heart at night although i am appeared happy......i am suffocating in this world of NS and can anyone pls hear my grievances and be there for me........this period of time is realli the lowest point....i am totally disillusioned abt my life.......everytym i book out,i juz wan to go out and see the world....how beautiful the outside world is beyond the cold hard steel gates of Tuas Naval Base.........

I often cycled to the seaside there,and juz watched the waves splashed against the banks......how i wish i can juz jump into it and let the waves bring me far far away from the cold hard world of NS.........far to a place that is not backstabbers, a place where everyone is innocent and simple.......where i can place trust in them rather than putting up a fake front to protect myself....haiz.........

Dear,i am sorry that i am juz so not myself this few mths.....i am gg thru a bad patch,pls bear wif me......pls be with me when i need u most..........coz it is only the love for u that keeps me gg in NS...............*sobx*