This is going to be one long post so bear with me la.

Had a hectic week.Got IPPT and ranged.

For IPPT,finally got 10 flat for my 2.4km.Yeahz.IPPT not so much impt becoz it is the ranged that make me realli sad.

For range,we have 32 shots spread across 2 days.1st day is 4 shots in the day and 12 shots at night.2nd day is 12 shots in the day and 4 shots at night.Anyway,night shots are damn fun.If bullets hit the target,it will form a bright red 'fireworks' den the path the bullet took would be light up also,sth like star war.So,1st day,i miss one shot so i got 15 out of 16.So i thought second day i muz get full marks then can get the company best shot award.So second day,my lane cock up.the target board juz go up and down.Coz by right,if i shot the target board,it will falls but i nv even shoot and the board juz went down.So i tot die,confirm miss a few.Then i realise i miss 4 shots.So i juz suck thumb and continue shooting.When night shot come,i juz want to get over it fast and get back to bunk because i only had 4 hours' of slp before that.So i anyhow whack.So when the result came,the result reflected the day shots,i shot all 12 down.But i miss the 4 night shots.I knew i had disappoint myself once again.If only i had shoot all the 4 night shots,i would have gotten the company best shot and haiz,it is all my fault.Should not have given up.Haiz.

Next week,we having the inter company drill competition and i realli hope we can win it.I now polishing my boots and ironing my uniform.I want to perform infront of my parents and let them feel proud about me.I haven't realli done sth in my 18 years to let my parents be proud about me and i hope this time,i have sth to let them be proud of so wish me luck.

Last night was like a rollercoaster for me.I was the reserve for guard duty.I had to report to the SAF ferry terminal.It is like quite stupid la.Go there,the sergeant take attendance den lucky for me,my platoon got no main guard nv come,so all 3 reserve juz went home.i was like there for 1 min. and went home.

Quickly changed to go clubbing with jeremy.Went cocco and chillx for awhile.damn shiok.the lounge was like half empty so jerm and me juz went and chillx out.Went to top level and take a look and see alot of small kids dancing.Damn turn off.Lucky,i member of cocco and can get in free.If ask me to pay,i also dun wan sia.So dumb.Anyway,went to check out liquid room after that.Heard gre8 things abt them la so went to check it out.The club is small but the music is great.Heard is wad DMC champion,DJ koflow spinning.The place is like totally packed.Then i saw her dancing.wanted to get over to her side but it is damn squeezy so i decided to relax at one corner.Hahaz.Chill and relax.decided to went out to take a breather coz realli damn packed.went back in again.decided to force my way thru.dun know why but the guys last night quite short and small build so i can easily bulldoze lorz.Hahaz.lucky me.

Then dun know wad happen to me sia.Suddenly feel shy to ask her for a dance.Maybe becoz i like her bahz so shy shy la.Not like other gals,can anyhow juz ask.Hahaz.then her frenz angie like kip on nudging her to dance near me and stuff.After 5 min,i juz take a deep breath and ask her then she says ok den dance lorz.Details cannot divulge here la.After that,saw Wanxin.Got a shock sia.BUt juz says hi lorz.Then saw ian and eileen.Wah seh.the world is realli v.small.After that,sent the gals to supper but i realli dead tired.Had only 9 hrs of slp for the past 2 night so cannot go eat with them.Anyway,it was a great night la.

Okie.Gotta go prepare my book in stuff lehx.2 mre weeks to POP and then 13 days of holidays.....whee.....so gd so gd......so many things i can do....hahaz.....

Cyaz in 1 wks' time.....

Date:28-5-2006
Time:4.30pm

Sianz.Gg to book in, in about 2 hours' time.

Should i ask her out again next sat.?I seriously don't know bahz.I somehow think i will get 'rejected' again?But i don't wan to regret things in my life.I had missed out so much things.I don't wan to miss out on her.geez.So much mixed feelings b4 i book in lorz.Sianz.

gg to haf IPPT test on wed.Can i improve my 2.4km timing again?I already shock the coy by running 10:20.that time is i reli chiong.I juz think the run is for her.Specially for her den i juz chiong la.hahaz.i wan to get 10 flat siaz.

Now listening to Where'you go by Fort Minor and Holly sth de.Damn sad but realli describe my feeling la.Another song is oh girl by paul well.these 2 songs.Woahz.....can cry sia....haha........

Time:6.01pm

Last night just booked out from my Situation test and damn shagged sia.Some of my platoon mates wanted go club but in the end,everyone too shagged to go le.Hahaz.

Shall talk abit about my Situation test.We had a 12km route march with our 20kg field pack to our campsite.realli damn tired.those rocky routes can realli die.Every1 was trying to sing to forget the pain.We sang from Army songs to Pop songs like BSB,Maroon 5,Linkin Park etc.But to me,i sumtym sang but in my mind,it was she who motivated me to complete that shiet bahz.I just look at the sky and thought abt her bahz.Hahaz.then at the 10km point,we had a rest.then chion and i starting to rap.Beatbox and stuff.Damn funny.

We reached the campsite.Realli commando campsite.Mosquitoes i meant.Pitch our stuff then started to learn to tie diff. type of knots for our situation test for the nxt 2 days.Didn't know can use toggle ropes to tie a harness.very coolz.

I was being sent to Detail 'Hotel'.My position is a Light Anti-tank gunner.Must carry a stupid empty LAW tube and walked around.they weighed around 5kg lorz.Morning,we had a 4km of fast march.The purpose was to make us shagged so to see how we think under shagged condition.It was realli a fast march.Think 20 min. to complete the 4km fast march.I almost wanted to give up at the 3km but someone just made me wanted to complete that shiet too.

I cannot divulge the mission because it was highly confidential and restricted but all i could says the missions were fun and realli enriching bahz.Afer the end of 2 days' mission,we were supposed to rate our detail.Like who u want to befriend with,who can work under stress and who show potential leadership.Oh.Forget to add,the detail is made up of pple frm diff. platoons so we would not know every1 well.

Overall,i think i did fairly well for my missions bahz.It was not about whether u can complete but was about how u completed it.Hope i can go OCS.

Sianz lehx,7 days a week.I spending 5 and a half day in camp.How to jio gal sia?can anyone teach me?hahaz.

Date:21-05-2006
Time:1032

This post is specially for you.You should know who you are :]

It's alright that you never go lahz.It is important that you feel happy when going out.Read your blog just now and didn't know this week quite a bad week for you.But don't worry lahz.Today is the last day of the week.The new week will be a better one for you.Just want to says that you had been the motivation for me during my course of NS and for that,i cannot thank you enough.

Anyway,i sincerely hope we two can go out someday and try to get to know each other better bahz.And if you need someone to talk to at night,you can always call me bahz.I had free time from 10pm onwards.So till now,i had about 9 hrs' time before i book in again and haiz,very sianz to book in.

till then,hope to see u again :)

Time and date set manually.

Date:14 May 2006
Time:11.36am

I spent half of my day outside.Went to beach road to get some stuff for my Situation test next week then went to Sim Lim Square to get my CPU fan fix but my own personal comp. still got problem so no choice,i have to use the family comp. which is slow and outdated but can be usable.Going to force my bro. to fix my comp. before my next book out :p

In the afternoon,went out with jeremy.He changed alot sia.Went contact lens then wear shade.Hahaz.But his shade still lose to my Adidas Evil Eye Pro lahz.hehez.We went out then met isaac.Accompany him go Wheelock Place to fix his sis's handphone then we splitted.Jeremy and i then walk walk around Orchard road.It was like 1 mth i never set my foot on the orchard road but the feeling still the same lahz.Jerm and i later went to cine and chatted la.Told me alot about sispec course.He had a chance to cross over to OCS but he chose not to because he finds he learns alot during sispec.

Then at night,went to eat dinner with Ian.Huixiang cannot come because he has to help his dad.WEnt to swensen at Plaza Singapura then very coincidence met my juniors there.The 28th SC and the 29th SC were having their gathering there so i juz drop by and says hi.Cannot believe Sebastian who lives near by me can get into Student Council.All my juniors says i look better with botak sia.Hahaz.Don't know true or not.But physically i definitely improve alot.Hahaz.Ian also told me his story about Sispec den got a young couple beside us like keep on eavesdropping us.Ian is in the armour unit and he also win the silver bayonet cause he was the top 5 in the whole course.Even thou i heard so much about SISPEC,my heart still lies in OCS and i will hope to get into OCS bahz and also,partly because of her encouragement.Hahaz.

Bought a jade necklace for my mum.The jade is held by silver.Den my mum complains very hard to match coz the jade necklace don't come with the chain.Den my mum only has gold chain......I was lyk sianz diaoz...buy her sth den she still complains but well,she is still my mummy anyway.hahaz.Happy mothers' Day!!

My time and date for this blog is malfunctioning so i should do it manually.

Date:14 May 2006
Time:10.54am

Haiz.Another failed attempt to ask her out.
Don't know what is happening to me.I had never been so aggressive in jioing a gal before and i had never been so depressed over a gal b4 too.
If she knows i am jioing her and that if i had no chance at all,might as well tell me in my face.At least i know my direction.I am now like a lost sheep in the wild.I purposely made my Saturday free just for her even thou she never promise me anything but i always harbour a hope that she can go but sadly,i was been fooled again.

Last night,broke my 'retirement' plan.At first was to go Mdm Wong but sherlene told me the party there sux so went coccolatte instead.Go visit our friends there lyk the bouncer raj and the waiter idzham.All v.happy to see Huixiang and me sia.Then there was a party gg on so might as well go in coz members get in free wad.hahaz.ANyway,the place was damn packed by the time we get in.Notice all the guys there had hairs which made us the botak boys even mre attractive.hahaz.realised the DJ console was upgraded so the sound system is improved but of coz,still got stoppages but lesser bahz.

Of coz,when the dual terror of the clubs strike,we don't fail de.Haha.So Huixiang and i went down to get some drinks for ourselves.Went up again and i think HX strike first but he fail la.then saw a gal dancing beside me but got some freaking ugly shiet behind her and i decided to try my luck and ask the gal for a dance.She says okay,den those ugly shiet juz move off and kanna stunned sia.But after 10 min.,i left to one corner coz i still cannot get over that she cannot go today la.No mood to dance.So went to one corner and den saw another similar situation.So i had a bet wif Huixiang.If i can get the gal to dance wif me,he owe me 1 drink.So i juz try my luck coz a nerd beside her juz kip dancing but dare not ask so i juz made my move and got it.So Huixiang owe me a drink.hahaz.However,i somehow lose the feeling of hooking up gals and stuff bahz.Is it becoz i am in love?Or am i out of it?
Haiz.
If only she can give me an answer :(

Hey pple,i have decided to revive my blog.

Have been in the army for around 1 mth and things are looking good laz.

recently get to know this gal.I actually wanted to chase her de.
Before my field camp 2 sat. ago,i ask her whether she wan go out yesterday.She says shld be okay but location not yet decided coz still early.So i juz leave for my field camp happily and using that as my motivation to slog it thru the 7 days 6 nite field camp.

Then 2 days ago,i am back to my bunk and msg her.She said she might have sth on so cannot go.Haix.It totally shattered me la.but anyway,i think it is hard to maintain a relationship during NS and to even start it would be mission impossible bahx.That is why i decided to go slow and steady and juz go out and make mre frenz.

Till then,i will post again when i am back from camp on thurs. evening.

CIaoz.