Hmm..........today rest coz of flu........

Braces-wise,everything normal bahz,can bite bite bite le juz that those hard ones can't realli bite into den i nv bite lor........

Had a short dispute with my gf but after some times and a chat wif her,everything back to normal le.......

sumtym i wonder why couples can have cold wars for so long den i realise becoz they nv communciate...........both parties not willing to back off and wan to insist they are right.........whereas for my gf and me,dun knw lehx,when we quarrel,after we cool down for a while,within the day,we resolve all problems le.......

well........*shrugs* communciation is always the key to all problems *wink*

LAst night realli was a blast........

Had a primary 6 gathering.........i mean how cool is that,after 7 years of almost totally not contacting or seeing each other since our primary sch graduation........

Went to bugis mrt and saw only wanrong there..........she organiser and i can still recognise her coz she and me same JC anyway......den slowly one by one,pple start to stream in and i got a diffuclty spotting some of them and i think huiqiang changed the most.........from tomboy to a girl......albeit a pretty one bahz........

den everyone starts making their way to miss clarity cafe.......my 3rd time there and 2nd time in the week........bleahx.......den surprised to see kaiwei,eliza and samuel there too........

Den got alot of pple la............total of 15 pple,5 guys and 10 gals,totally outnumbered........but realli coolz to see how everyone has changed over the course of 7 years,some pple changed drastically,some pple don't.

Eveyone was chatting and stuff.........i mean seriously,after 7 years,some pple internally has meet up and bonded but some dun,so well....alot of things to talk abt lor.........den frm miss clarity and talk all e way to merlion.......haha........everyone juz chatting anything to everything under the sun or rather moon bahz.......

talk all e way till 12.20am den we starts to leave merlion and everyone was like discussing how to share cab coz out of 15 pple,10 lives arnd toa payoh area lor......den shiok wei,me,edmund,yinghui wll share a cab but den suddenly got bus 57 came which happened to be the last bus and everyone starts rushing for d bus and den edmund starts running and i also follow suit and in d end,my grp all rush.......coz juz take the bus blindly..........

lolz..........definitely a blast from the past and seeing so many pri. sch frenz fine and dainty is definitely pleasing bahz......

Heard they organising another one and this time we gg to inclde more pple.........yeah!! can't wait can't wait.......

Hm...........juz now stumble upon sth that i shld nt even knw or do it.......

However,did it and saw sth that i dun reli like to says........

does one past really matter?

To me,it does play a part but like wad i always told other pple,'past can't change,but present and future can so do sth abt it while u can b4 u regret'.......

19 words............but ever so impactful..............

Yeah...........sianz...........today finally put braces le.........

At first,i tot process gg to be long....like arnd 2 hours but in d end,only 45 min. lor.........hehe.........

den ask dear to pick colours..........haha.......at first,nurse only called my dad but when my dear nv moved,the nurse also says,'i wan gf to pick colour too'....hehe........den chose blue in d end..........

Hmm..........braces realli v.mafan..........first,brushing teeth and den cnanot eat too hard food lor..........for at least 1 year............heart pain pain.........

Den chewing also difficult.......den the pain is gg to be back tmr coz the anaesthic wears off lor........haiuz..........tmr den says bahz........

Sianz.........josiah gg to be attached out and i have to retrain a new guard comm..........ARGH!!!!!! den summre i learning plt sgt stuff..........AAARGHHH!!!!!!!

Dual role..........miserable life.........

Today is quite an emotional day for me bahz..........

Today is the day my brother will be working overseas....haiz....in china....

Took half day to send him lor........

Sometimes i realise it is when u almost not gg to see him for a long long while that one will knows how much actually one will miss each other bahz.........

For eg,since i enlisted into NS and my bro into SIM,we hardly see each other bahz.........like wkend,he will go out and den wkdays,he be busy with his wakeboarding stuff.......so we hardly get to see each other at home so i tot my bro leaving overseas for work for a few mths,i will not cry bahz.......but i was wrong....

As the time ticked faster to him gg to past thru the departure hall,i feel a tinge of uneasiness..........his frenz also came to send him off.............the gals cried and so is my mum.............at the point of time,unknowingly,my tears start to well up le..........i managed to hold it back....but barely.......i realli dun wan to cry in public area but maybe it is becoz of the nature of my cancer,i am a very easily emotional person.......

I still remember when i am in pri. 5,my mum went to sydney for 5 days......i every night cried myself to slp......realli....no kidding........

Now that my brother has left for work,my room is seriously very quiet......i look behind and saw my bro's work desk....very tidy and clean.....no laptops.....no DJ set..........v.odd feeling.....i kinda miss my bro messy desk but haiz...........i miss my brother!!! *sobx*

guess this is a passing phase of life bahz...........all of us have to adapt to it someday in some ways......but for me,it is gg to be a rough one but well..........i can manage lor..........

Meanwhile,was reading a book called 'tuesdays with morrie'....totally touches my heart..............it says abt a professor on the brink of dying..........
Family is the foundation of everyone.............without family,there can never be one.......will friends be there 24 hr for u when u are sick?it is always d family there that take care of u 24-7............

It also talks abt marriage.....respect and communciation....2 key points to a lovey dovey relationship............hehe............

Today realli a period of uncertainty.....even affected my dear dear too......on d eve of our 10th month anniversary.........she busy with her o week and rag stuff.......den i uncertain abt my bro.........sometimes i wonder whether one can multi-task?? *shrugs*

Bro,i am so gg to miss u....haiz........

Yeah!!! Standby week le......

Haiz....got mixed feelings.......my bro gg to attach to overseas for work le.....like half a year lor......my bedroom gg to be empty le but beside when i got into NS,i realise i nv realli been talking to my bro also la....but now that he is leaving tmr,i have abit of reluctant bahz............but well...passing phase of life lor...........

recently,i dun knw why but i start to detest smokers........i dun knw why,realli.........some OJT attached to my plt for duty den some of them smoke den afer they smoke,their breath was like -whoa-......realli wan them to stay away till their breath gets 'fresher'..........but i tihnk only some cigarettes give a foul breath bahz.......some of my frenz smoke de,the smell not bad,muscluline bahz....haha

Lately,i having mood swing,dun knw whether my bro leaving has a part to play in it..........

My comp. spoilt den juz repaired and re-install MSN den was scrolling the msn list and i will often look at the subnick of friends in my msn.............

I realise that subnick is a way to show one character bahz...........i remember there was one time when i juz install msn and den will start putting questions like ,"anyone selling hp?,'headache'......that time the purpose was to attract attention bahz.....like want to test how many frenz are out there realli cares bahz......of coz,when i think back,i realise how foolish i am bahz.........of coz,nowadays my subnick is abt my profession of love so not much a frenz can 'show' concern bahz..........

Well....see how edgy i am now.....even subnick can also get on my nerves de.....lolx........

Now listening to mambo jambo....realli love it lor.....a great blog music as in u blog while listening lor..........

In a flash,my relationship has last till 10mths le......realli a long and arduous journey.........a journey where we both are still learning but i reckon both of us still have a long long way to go before we can be the perfect partner for each other.....

Giving and taking have always debatable..............it doesn't matter who give more or who receive more but rather it is how u give and take that matter bahz......*smiles*

:)

Bon voyage,bro......

Bon voyage to cheryl jie.....see u in november!!!

Watched Harry Potter today...........show alot of talking but the fighting scene v.chaotic la.......like smoke here smoke there........i like watching magic show lor........

But well.......i watching with my dear dear so guess,it's all balance out bahz.........

Haiz...lately,dun knw wad happen..........but juz feel so sianz..........like sth bothering me but juz dun knw wad is it?? hmmm....but i got guys' PMS lor...but yahz...juz feel v.sianz.........unmotivated lor...........

aiya.......i nowadays highly irritable mood lor........aiya.......dun knw wad's wrong with me lately also...........

Juz came back frm dinner with weelai,kaiwei and ian.....

Ian jetting off to Aussie since the closure of New South Wales(Singapore)...poor ian....lolx....but nonetheless,wish him all d best in aussie,mate.....

Went to Miss Clarity Cafe to eat and seriously,the ambience is gd.......the food is wonderful but my smoky salmon abit *eeks*....not my kind type of cooking fish method?*shrugs* but the dessert is good good good......the mud ooze and the warm bread and butter pudding......oooo......v.v.v.v.nice........*licks fingers* The prizes are reasonable and the service is great........

den when leaving,very frustrating....waiting a tthe taxi stand at raffles city plaza,and when the taxi came into the taxi stand,it is green de and den suddenly become *on call*....u knw how frustrating it is when esp. we are the first in queue.......luckily,got one private taxi.....one of the remaining 300 private taxi left in Singapore.....den ian has to rush home to pack stuff and leave for Airport le....*bon voyage*

Seriously,i knw the taxi wish to make more money but it is v.angry to see green available cabs juz zoom off.........but well....wad to do....2.50 more booking fee lehx....who dun want to earn sia.........

Am i a capable guard comm.?

when i juz posted in as a sergeant,i have many aspired dreams for the plt but when i finally become guard comm.,i somehow juz lack the initial inspiration to carry out wad i have for the plt. when i juz posted in bahz.....

Somehow,it is due to more commitment to my gf bahz......

*shrugs*

Sumtym,how nice it is to fight along for a cause with someone.......that is wad i am trying to be.......the person to fight along with my dear..........giving her emotional support and moral support when she needed most bahz.......and on top of that,my own fight in d base.........

After ORD,i guess i will be a much stronger person.........

Gee....what a day today have been.....

Slept only 3 hrs and den luckily got no PT coz have sai kang to do lor....set up d tentage.......

Was pretty pissed with the HQ log side.....purposely give me a tentage that is not waterproof lor den we almst finishing le den luckily got rain den realise only the tentage is not waterproof den have to return and get a new one den the HQ assistant says is the Log spec. ordered to give de....i was like &*&*&* lor......

den given half day off and den go sentosa and see dear dear lor.......

Den jiu end d day le....

Tmr have to help other plt mount morning peak and den dear dear's FOC finally ends le......these past few days,meeting up with her often last only half an hour at the most on tuesday lor......but for the rest of 2 days,the duration like only 5-10 min .lor.......but i am there for half an hour den spend d rest of time waiting,seriously,sometimes i hate to wait but i dun knw wad charms my dear dear has over me that juz allows me to wait patiently for her de.....

gee....power of love? *shrugs*

Gee......i dun knw wad shiet my plt is having bahz.....when other plt having their own standby,they like realli gt no sai kang to do for the week......

Whereas for my plt,this wk is like total shiet work.......Monday help plt 1 mount duty till tues....den today have to carry tentages here and there....wah seh.....realli sai kang coming in fast and furious.....

It is also a test of my own leadership skills.......coz the plt sgt not here today.....

Somehow i always think that i have adequate leadership in me.....but after today,i realise i still have a long way to go......

OC told me this sentence,'i give u one problem,u as a commander,find soln to solve it'.

i realise most of the time,i am the problem-giver and not a problem-solver in a way bahz.....As in,in my heart,i knw how to solve certain stuff but i juz dun knw or lazy to blurt it out??....or maybe i feel that if the task is given to someone else to do,maybe he can execute it better bahz......*shrugs*

I always believe in lead by example but as a guard comm.,it is not possible to do that.........

Thus,i try to show it by making sure my pple knw wad is happening arnd d base but pple will have otherwise thinkings,they think maybe i trying too hard.Some says why i dun wan delegate stuff to my Guard 2ic but i dun coz i dun wan to seem as if i am tekaning them and stuff,some things muz take one step at a time bahz.........

Sometimes i realise pple have diff. perceptions even thou u have a totally diff. meaning....i have learn to take things in my stride....making sure that i dun get waver bahz......

Sianz....dear still at orientation camp.....

will be all alone on the comp. till fri. or sat. lor.....hope got nth on for her on wkends lor and most imptly,i also have nth urgent on wkends too...........

*shrugs*

Haiz....sianz...standby week and my dear went to become OGL for FOC........

Sometimes i hope i can read adult's mind.....go into their mind and get what they wan to says bahz.......I hate pple who like v.sacastic......like purposely wan suan u and stuff......i mean seriously lor,i am like only how young,u so senior le,still so childish to resort to using suaning to shoot pple mehx..........

Haiz....*shrugs* hope a solution comes to light one day.....i also wonder why she like wan to suan pple lor......i mean go bug ur own son's gf lor........she is gg to be ur daughter-in-law lor.......a formal status of relationship so go and disturb ur son's gf lor.........

Getting late and my gf involve in the Fright night.......and i nth to do so blogging lor coz normally,i be like chatting wif her on msn de........

Sometimes i look back at the things i done for my gf,i am quite shock myself.I told some of my frenz and they all agreed i dun look like the type that will do such swt things to my gf bahz........

To others,it may be silly but to me,wad matters most is the smile that i see frm my gf's face bahz........

I look back at my past and realised that my principle of love has not changed at all:To love doesn't have to possess.To love is that as long as the person is happy.
I am willing to do anything juz to put a smile on my loved ones.........

:) a simple action of smiling brings a greater impact on others' life so smile often :)