gee....what a day....juz came back from parade rehearsal......
For these past few mths,it is like a bullet train....
days going past juz like that..........wheez.....
Honestly,i am burnt out......realli tired.........everytym i go back to base,tons of problems awaiting for me.........pple report sick,mounting strength not enough,pple altitude me.............
The whole morning,on one hand has to look after the marching contingent,on the other hand,base side also give me problems.......sometimes all i hope is to have a few good leaders in d plt and not those leaders that are out against u........coz in d end,their faults become urs......haiz............i am also a human being......why can't anyone understand that part? Everytym i goes on leave,my morning will be like a working morning..........i also need my rest......i am burned......really burnt lor......haiz..........i juz need a listening ear.......the anguish i have in me whenever i go back base and faced plt problems,i simply juz wan to find someone to pour out my woes........i think andrew and sherwin will knw wad i mean.........070208,pls come quickly..........*gasping for air*
Sometimes,i look at myself and wonder is there sth wrong with my leadership......I admit i am not a perfect person nor am i a good leader.......But to a MAN point of view,a gd plt sgt gives 'off' to plt,smoke them off.But to me,i have to be accountable for everyone and i am sandwiched in between my PC and my plt.........
Nowadays,i realise the new batches of pple coming in are getting more and more '3G'.....last time when i am a new bird,wadeva my PS want me to do,i juz ok and go....but now,these pple juz keep on asking 'why muz this,why muz that....' and it is freaking irritating..........i got other stuff to do and yet here u are,keep on asking questions............why can't juz says,'yes,plt sgt.'....haiz.....
My PC also another backstabber.Always make me the bad guy.Last time,our unit cannot let pple go outside and report sick coz pple will tend to abuse the system but my PC says he dun wan be a bastard and thus,announced happily to everyone that he allows pple to report sick outside and trust the plt to have integrity.......but now,pple are beginning to abuse it and when i complains to him,he turned his words and says,'report sick outside is a privilege' and if pple abuse,we can take it away but to be frank,i have no recollection of him saying that infront of the plt.....he simply waiting for me to says thus making the bad bad guy.........
Seriously,i wld prefer to have many frenz...........but if i place my friendship into ops,i wld nt be fair anymore.......thus when i am strict,pple starts to says this and that and critise me..........last tym,i am particular abt critism.....but now,i am simply numb to it........guess wad they says are true bahz......when one climbs higher the ladder,the lesser frenz he wld have?? *shrugs*
ALl i wish for this xmas is for me to ORD in peace.......Hate to be PS when during end of year...........cfm alot of problems............haiz........
recently been clubbing..........i am afraid i will fall into the pitholes of clubbing again.........last tym,was crazy over clubbing due to relationship problems in JC and now,*shrugs* feel v.relaxed when in a clubbing atmosphere bahz........doesn't help much that i have frenz who willing to open bottle de lor........been drinking red wine past few wks.......den shuttlers of beer........gonna pick myself up from the slump....*argh*
can anyone juz let me ORD in peace??
