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Monday, January 29, 2007


Hm....

Sorrie pple if my entry is boring.....but cannot blame la....i serving NS lor....how exciting can it be....

If you pple wan to read abt my experiences in clubs den also v.difficult,i never go clubbing since like last yr october le.......

Well......life is juz so sianz.......wad to do.......*shrugs*

~ { 1/29/2007 11:10:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Sunday, January 28, 2007

Forget the past,embrace the present,ignore the future
Hmm,nth much....booked out den went out with my dear.....

Went balcony bar and tried some cocktails.I had strawberry magarita and graveyard and my dear had tequila sunrise.......First tym tried graveyard and i swear i would not touch it again....it taste like sh*t and seriously,i dun knw why is it that pple still ordering it lor....i mean maybe they want get drunk but i rather get drunk on long island tea than graveyard lor....Bleahxz.....
Think my tolerance for alcoholic drinks getting higher and higher lor.....haha.....i will not get drunk de sia.......

Then sent my dear home.......

Somtimes,some possibilities are hard to stomach.I knw it is not the truth but it may happen.We are humans after all.But sometimes the thought of it juz shudder me bahz.But like i said,that is in the future even if it may happen so let us juz embrace the present.I know i often says that pple shld look forward but slowly i realised future is v.vague.Alot of things can happen in future so why bother to think abt the future......What we have now is the present.We shld all juz embrace the present coz that is what we are certain abt.For eg,like study,Pple study frm pri. 6 to go secondary sch den if possible go poll or a JC.But pple shld juz focus of getting gd result in p6 den slowly think of the big stage of JC or poly.......so embrace the present by studying hard den slowly move up the ladder instead of thinking of flying all e way which will often result in a bad fall......

So let's us forget the past,embrace the present and ignore the future........

~ { 1/28/2007 10:39:00 AM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Thursday, January 25, 2007


geez....recently,very busy......

Wkend spent on wkend.Went back to Changi for a ceremony and glad to see my old pals in SSC 10 all doing fine lor.....Den went to Aloha Loyang for plt chalet....

Then Sunday reserved for my darling lao po lor.....hehe.....

Haiz,recently getting v.edgy......thinks it is me getting not enuff rest.......slping kanna disrupted becoz of duty lor.....sob sob.......

I wonder how come i have become so over sensitive recently....i could have close one eye on small matters but somehow,i juz always misunderstand things and in d end,everything blew out of proportion.......all becoz of me.....sometimes,i juz hate myself....hate myself for being who i am.....but in some other times,i juz love myself for being able to love my dear so swt and always touched her in one way or another lor......gee.....wad a contridiction....

A casual remark.....may seems harmless to one but harmful to others.........i often commit the mistake of not thinking thru my brain before blurting out stuff....i realised i hurt many pple unknowingly too....therefore,now i often stopped and thought back before i blurted out stuff to prevent hurting anyone lor.......

So whoever reading my blog,if i have offended u in d past,i am sincerely sorry........hope i have u peepz forgiveness.........Thanks

~ { 1/25/2007 08:51:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Tuesday, January 23, 2007


240906.....

The date when we first started.....

240107......

The date when we have stayed each other heart for 4 mths le......

Happy 4th month,fei fei sha gua....

*Busy these few days,will update blog in the next few days bahz........*

~ { 1/23/2007 11:44:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Wednesday, January 17, 2007

A good club
today,stayed home to recover frm my illness den nth to do so decided to blog abt wad a good club shld haf....

CLub in here means like council,an organisation that plan stuff for student body or plan activities for it's members etc.....

I was in student council so i knew wad a good club shld haf........and those clubs members who wish to improve their clubs can read my entry here and try to pick up some good points to make ur club more effective and attractive to others......

Firstly,a club shld haf a clear agenda of what it wants to do for the year.A good decision making committe shld be able to do the job.A club need a good solid backing and a leader who have a clear vision of what he wants the club to do for the year.

Secondly,the leader of the club shld have a certain charisma.A certain charm that when pple look for him for help,he is able to provide a solid and workable solution and that pple know that they can trust him for help.

Thirdly,communciation is vital.Dissemination of information is very impt.For eg,if there is a meeting at this certain time and date and location,make sure everyone gets the info.Never ever have last min. meeting and double cfm every members have the info.Give at least 1 or 2 days in advance.Personally,i hate to have last min. meeting and den that no one tells me in advance.It is v.irresponsible.It will spoil everyone schedule.Confirm everything.let's says there is a car washing at 10am,den confirm with that person that he or she is needed for the activity in advance.Don't says i confirm with u again and never get back to that person or get back to that person last minute.If u need that person for that activity,juz be firm and says,"yes,i need u for that activity and kindly come down to the location at wad time.'It's as simple as that.Dun ever leave that person dangling in the midway,unsure whether he or she is confirm or not.

Fourthly,be serious during meetings.Personally,i do admit i am the kind of person who play a fool in meetings during council.But slowly,i realise it is costing other pple time when u play a fool and not stick to the agendas during meetings.I learnt it during my JC2.That is why when i chair the event 'The One',all my meetings are short.U can ask my CCACO members abt that.The meeting could end in half an hour but if u play a fool,it will drag on to maybe 1 hr plus or so and worse still,never get the agenda done.It is better if the chairman of the meeting would put a stop.Make a stand during meetings of no-fooling arnd.He or she muz take control of the situation so that other members' time are not wasted.

Fifthly,try to spread the workload equally.That could be done if the club have more members.If can,try to spread the workload evenly.For eg,if that person is the head or vice head or rather,organising committee of a certain event,after that event is over,try to give the pple a rest at the next event.Rest doesn't means give a ligher role but totally excuse those pple frm participating.....however,if realli not enuff pple den gif the pple lighter roles.Lighter roles doesn't means sai kang or lousy work but realli like help out.For eg,help out to man stalls during bazzaar or sth.......I had enuff experience to says that it tasted like shiet to have 2 major ad-hoc projects back to back.I participated in the Orientation 1 den came the Chinese New Year project.2 major projects....that time is realli my lowest point of my college life....haiz.....

These are the 5 major points of a good club.

Hope this entry is beneficial to those in a club or waiting to take over the club executive committee....

I miss my council :(

~ { 1/17/2007 10:03:00 AM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Tuesday, January 16, 2007

SiCk SiCk SiCk
Haiz,today sianz.....asthma attacks den took a few puffs of ventolin but after awhile,the asthma came back again.....realli dun knw wad is wrong with me....

Den went to see doc,he says my airway infected with virus that is causing my asthma to come back.....haiz....realli dun knw wad is wrong with me nowadays,first stomach flu den now Asthma....guess when it is time to go,it's realli time to go......

I realise health is realli impt.....without a good health,there is alot of stuff we could not do......so pple,stay healthy and to those who booze and smoke,cut down before they cut u lor.....

There are times we have to make decisions.....they are no bad or good decision,only decisions that made u regret.......sometimes we are forced to make a decision,if it is bad,we juz haf to stick by it but if it is good,den we haf to thank our luck....Frm a simple choosing a birthday gift to choosing ur other partners........lucky for me,i chosen a very good and perfect partner and i thank my luck for it........

I am glad to be able to be together with u.Now that u haf another one to share ur woes and sorrows,hope u will feel much better....i love you....

~ { 1/16/2007 09:40:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Sunday, January 14, 2007

COld COld WeAtHeR
Juz book out....yeahz...Next wk standby week.....hope dun activate me lor.....sianz....

Whole day raining.....very sianz lor....last nite at arnd 11pm plus,cycled to chat with my friend doing duty at another location *confidential* Chatted with him till 1 plus den chatted again with my lao po on phone.....hehe......went back guardhouse arnd 2 le......so juz knocked out and sleep......

Hmm,i realise love can be a double-edged sword..........it can either helps u or breaks u......And i think it is also depends on what type of gal u are going out with....Coz my frenz also didn't expect his gf to be like that....all the promises and stuff juz gone *proff*....i mean it juz shows the true character of the gal bahz.....that is why i always think it is v.impt to understand the gal u are going out with.....u can see the true character as time goes by.....but not everyone has this ability.....to me,i got it becoz of my thick skin and also able to interact with many pple lor......

well.......A person character is truly hard to fathom bahz...........

~ { 1/14/2007 09:57:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Friday, January 12, 2007

Relationship can be really fragile
Juz booked out from base.....

LAst night whole nite raining,think i kanna the rain abit den went to sleep in aircon room den somemre recovering stomach flu so immune system not v.strong so i think now abit flu... :( my body like getting weaker and weaker,strength ebbing away........who knows,i may juz vanish totally or my body juz melt away and Loh Yong Cheng will juz cease to exist?? *shrugs*

Was chatting with the reservist and Benjamin while doing duty last night....

Relationship realli can be very fragile and shld be treated with care and concern....regardless in terms of friendship or love.......I mean one yr or 2 yr of relationship can juz be over in juz one statement......without any signs or anything,one party can juz call off the relationship in one simple sentence or sms......wad does it shows abt pple view abt relationship nowadays?Has the world revolved so rapidly that no one cares abt the years spent maintaining and building the relationship?

Was talking to Benjamin and reservists pple......The future is realli uncertain....Many pple will go thru different stages of life....at each different stage present a totally new environment.....temptations are bound to be everywhere.........well,made some sense thou but don't know la,just wait and see lor.......no one can predict the future anyway but the future is sth that i can work towards to thou......

About maintaining relationships regardless love or friends......It can be difficult thou....some pple prefer to meet up in order to maintain.....but for me,a simple phonecall or a sms would do bahz.....In life,we are gg to meet alot of pple and make alot of frenz,if we were to meet up or wad,we would not have enuff time in our lifetime to finish meeting up.........so yup yup.....alot of pple says dun jump right into relationship and test water first.But i dun knw how to........coz to me,in a relationship,i rather put in my utmost effort to maintain so at least,when things dun work out,i have no regrets coz i had given in my best.....

Time is sth that i always hope to have.....time for us to meet is getting shorter,even long phonecalls may even be gone too....but what i hope is that if each of us could juz steal some time to call up each other or what,that is gd too....like waiting for bus,waiting for lectures to start,walking home etc........yahz....dun knw la,i juz missing u badly.....

And dun knw why lately,i get very irritated v.easily.....haiz,can't be bother abt anything also le bahz.......sianz and tired.......my flu also partly wad is irritating me la.....juz dun knw wad is happening to me.......things juz go so fast so fast.....time to slow things down........*ah choo*

~ { 1/12/2007 07:53:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Wednesday, January 10, 2007


Hey pple,thanks for the concern abt my illness....i am feeling much better le......

today book out and went to see my grouchy gf....haha.........

Then went home dinner and den sent her home again.......

Short entry but i like it wad.....cannot arhz...bleahx :p

Hope everyone stays healthy.....:)

~ { 1/10/2007 11:22:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;



Today book out and insist on seeing dear feifei,hehe....

She arhz,grouchy den she juz grouch all e way to find her organizer....haha.....so i juz walk arnd wif her to make her feel better.....

Nowadays,alot of pple getting stomach flu....so pple,pls take care of urself.watch what u eat and drink lots of water bahz,this is short post coz i want it to be short....lolx....

Haf a nice night......hehe....

~ { 1/10/2007 11:17:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Tuesday, January 09, 2007


Today stayed home to rest....recovering frm stomach flu lorz......

Some incidents happen in afternoon...

Everyone is always searching for their true self,to try to fully understand their ownself.But think abt it,if human beings are so easy to understand,would not it be scary?Some people are always searching for their true self in their whole lifetime that they forget that there are more impt things out there for them to do.

Even i also dun understand myself.Sometimes i can be v.big hearted,yet sometimes i can also be v.petty.....haiz.....i always get v.emotional de.....knew that the past is in the past yet why do i still wan to dwell on it.....haiz.....dun knw wad get into me recently also....haiz.......I also dun understand myself too.......

Shld not have add on to her burden but dun knw la,juz subconsiciously added on her worries and stress.....haiz...maybe i shld juz disappear today,juz vanish so she wld haf less worry lor den tomorrow i will juz re-appear again....hehe......Anyone wan to recommend any formulae or machine that can make me disappear and re-appear as i wish to??hehe.......

~ { 1/09/2007 08:27:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Monday, January 08, 2007


Yesterday realli a bad day for me.........

Whole body aching and thumping headache and sumtym my body goes hot and cold.....i suffering that while doing duty.......realli very tough for me to endure..........

Luckily,after i off duty,my symptoms toned dwn abit so went to pull flag and den chiong for my next duty at 7pm again......this time,realli v.feverish.......running hot and cold lorz......endure until 10pm den go Medical Centre.....my temp. is 38.4 degree lorz!!! i got a shock but they juz gave me 2 panadol tablets and said that if not better,they sent an ambulance to send me lor.......

Then the night was realli a long one for me.I was like sweating like mad lorz....coz no wind blowing at my direction den all the aircons like pointing downwards while i sleeping on top......wake up a few times at night lor but still managed to catch some winks.....

Morning woke up den still feeling warm and den diarrhoea for a few times.....so went to report sick....MO says i had a viral infection and sent me home to rest.....Den later this evening,still unwell,so went to see private GP den diagnosed as stomach virus lor.....

Den dear dear came visit me this evening.....love her to bits....even thou i feel heartpain tat she travelled all way frm NUS to my hse despite her being tired lor....haiz......juz love her to bits la....

Hopefully,tmr will be a better day for me............

~ { 1/08/2007 11:25:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Sunday, January 07, 2007


hey guys,i am back!!!!

Firstly,wish to thank my gf for doing up this wonderful blog...realli love it....thanx dear

Secondly,juz wish to update others,i am now under navy sea soldier....to provide security for the base la......but not as simple as RP bahz,we like an all rounded soldier lor.....cannot say alot coz later kanna charged....lolx....

Thirdly,for those who have been reading my blog and feeling disappointed at me for not updating lately,i apologise la....i mean in National service,got wad to blog lor....got restriction de or else later kanna caught sia....so sorry la....den like that left frenz gathering and my dating wif gf wad....like that also boring lehx.....but dun worri la,i tried to find some articles to post den i comment on it lor....hhe......

Lastly,thanks for dropping by again............

~ { 1/07/2007 12:11:00 AM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Saturday, January 06, 2007


You Are 76% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!
Are You a Perfectionist?


You Are 8% Shy

You aren't shy at all, in fact, you're probably quite outgoing.
You are comfortable in almost any social situation, no matter how difficult.
How Shy Are You?


You Are 48% Feminine, 52% Masculine

You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides.
You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you.
You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.
Are You Masculine or Feminine?


You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
How Boyish or Girlish Are You?


How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.
How Are You In Love?


Your EQ is 127

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.
What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?


Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)


You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.
The Three Question Personality Test


You Are a Mango Margarita

Complex and sophisticated, you're the type most likely to order a round of twelve dollar designer margaritas.
You also entertain with flair, and you've whipped up a few original signature drinks in your time!
What Flavor Margarita Are You?


The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?


You are 80% Cancer
How Cancer Are You?

~ { 1/06/2007 11:31:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;


Friday, January 05, 2007

New Skin for 2007
Hmm.. let's see..
Juz a self intro..
in case there are ppl reading
Ermz.. im YongCheng's girlfriend.. Feifei
hehehe

This lazy pig here.. seldom touch his blog..
den he keep saying he blogger idiot..
dont noe how to change skin..
*bleahh..

Was hunting for a suitable skin for him..
but end up finding more that are suitable for me.. hahhaa..
Alot of skins to my liking..

Den i recalled him saying that on the first day of the year..
he saw a very lovely rainbow..
and he specially rang me to share it with me over the phone..
hahhaha..
So stumbled upon this skin..
I quite liked it..
So juz used it..
But i dont noe if he would like it too..

i think seriously
he wouldnt bother bahz..
*correct darling? heheh
he would say.. let me decide.. Anything i do, he will like it

Yepyepz.. but please.. with a new skin now..
dont have high expectations from this guy here also..
he might not be blogging much too..
cuz he has been realli busy..
Busy with his Navy stuff,
Busy with his own life and frens
Busy with me! *woops.. hehe
*Prove me wrong!* hehez

Nods..
That's abt it i guess..

Signing off,
Feifei

~ { 1/05/2007 02:50:00 PM }
surrounded by colours of the rainbow;