gee,althou this wk is standby week but alot of things to do lor.....Coz got range den haf to go IMT,Technical Handling test and den Clean rifle and stuff.....sianz sianz sianz.....

Dun knw wad is wrong with my leg lor....my left knee v.pain....v.odd position too lor....is the outside of left knee de......think i overstretch or wad....now as i sitting typing,i got abit of wobbing pain......tot it will shakes off after a few days but dun haf lor..........sianz....dun knw is it becoz run too much or wad lor............coz nowadays,Physical training getting v.xiong,everyday run run run........

Or is it i getting old le.....lolx.....haha....body weakening and stuff.........

Oh yahz,i was actually pondering whether shld i talk abt my clubbing experience and share wif others lor.....like diff. techniques to get gals and stuff.....but i thinking arhz,if i says le,den if got gals read,next tym they go clubbing,guys will have a more difficult time but ah,i think i muz share some la,esp. those lecherous guys.............so i muz share some to warn gals esp. those who are first time clubbing........

There is one thing i extremely detest in clubs and that is guys juz grab gals wifout asking.......For eg,like a pair of gals dancing den suddenly got a bunch of guys dancing v.near them and den when some hot music came on,the guys will juz take advantage of the 'highness' of the gals and hold them or wad.For me,i will ask d gal whether she want to dance or not.Not that i wan to act gentleman or wad but it is my principle lor.......

However as much as i says that,there are indeed gals who hang themselves out there to hook guys de.Den i got nth much to says le.

But if gals are there for pure dancing and not DIRTY dancing,den they better beware bahz.There are guys who like dance v.near.Esp. when the gal's back is facing them lor,they purposely dance near them.den get v.touchy when the gal nv siam or escape lor.The guys will think the gal are enjoying their 'company' so they will go the next stage of being touchy lor.So for gals,best is to dance near stage or corner or sth....nv in d middle,u will be juz like a tied-up lamb waiting to be slaughter.........

Tip: Be more aware of ur surroundings and dun juz stupidly stand there and taken advantage.Find a corner or sth where guys will not attack u from 4 sides lor......

Next:Dun drink so much.Seriously,i think badly of gals who get drunk lor.It is realli -dead- lamb waiting to be slaughter.If u knw u can't hold ur liquor well den dun drink lor.Dun says becoz ur frenz birthday or ur frenz challenge u den u go and drink.U will regret if kanna tekan advantage of and dun knw who is the culprit.So dun be stupid.If wan go drink,go pub lor.More quiet place as compare to clubs which are dark and anything can happen if the music get too hot to handle.

The last point is the company.As in pple u are gg wif to club.Somehow tied up wif the second point.I had this experience at zouk.My first time there at that time.there was this gal,can see she is wasted le.den she juz put her head on my shoulder and her gals khakis like arnd...so i juz push the gal to them,telling them to take care of her.There was no guys in d grp.Juz as i push the gal back to them,got this 2 lecherous guys,one fat and one thin like 2 white sharks juz swim swim and like get the wasted gal lor.The gals like wanted to get to the gal but the fat guy like blocked them away lor.can see these 2 lecherous guys are like seasoned hunters lor......the gals totally cannot fight back as they kanna pushed away by the fat guy......i dun knw wad happen to the wasted gal in d end la..........but after awhile,the 2 guys came back and search for new prey lor........hate this kind of guys......or rather,bastards.

Den again,go wif guys doesn't necessarily means u are safe bahz.I had this other clubbing experience.There this guy,he went wif 3 gals.....den in d end,the other 2 taken away by guys....he could nt do anything also....lolx.....

But again,doesn't means more guys means gals are safe.I got tis female friend.She is a clubber.She was like telling me that got one time at a club.She went wif one guy de.but the guy brings another 2 mre guys,totally stranger to her de.So it means she tentatively only knw one guy lor.Den i think the guy abit drunk or wad den the other 2 guys like v.touchy to her den she feels extremely uncomfortable lor......

Tip:Best to go in groups.Like got guys and gals.And den right,make sure the guys u are gg with are pple u are comfortable and can be trusted de.COz sumtym the booze and music....well...anything can goes wrong in an environment like clubs.......even guys u supposed to be trusted wif may end up like a wolf too?haha....u may never know....Anyway,back to my point,guys and gals.....den make sure u only haf these pple lor....dun later ur frenz get more frenz den in d end,strangers more than frenz,den u muz be extra cautious de........in a way,that is why i dun bring gals go clubbing,coz sumtym u bump into friends or acquaintences in clubs den they see that u bring gals den go and take advantage den u also v.jialat.So know who u are going with and whether they got bring anyone lor.............

In conclusion,clubs can a fun place to hang out and chill if u know how to protect urself bahz.Those tips i have typed are frm my personal experience.Sth that i see and observe and pick up from clubs.I have so-called retired frm the clubbing scene le so i dun mind sharing this with u pple bahz......

Phew,wad a long entry.....haha....

Sometimes,i juz wish i can either split myself into half or have 48 hrs per day...........

Then i can satisfy both parties and not feel guilty at all.........

If I have no NS,i wld have given all my 48 hrs to her lor.......

Sha gua,i also miss u lor........

Now i finally understand what is love.............

gee,as i was about to type this entry,Maggie from Power98 suddenly called lor.....

Says i selected for this game called 'scissors,papers,stone'.Asked me go down to bukit panjang plaza at 2.30pm lor next sat.I was like dumbfounded.She said i got sms in my contacts lor.I forgot le but heck la,asked me go down lor.Hehez.i still deciding lor.Coz nxt wk is my standby week.My wkend secure den somemre sat. nite,my dear have to work.want to spend time wif her in the sat. afternoon lor.Sianz.Dun knw whether wan go or not.can win $6000 in cash and prizes lor but if so easy win,then i not nid work le lor.....haha.........i now like 50-50 going only lor.....

Anyway,dismount lor.Next wk standby week.My precious week lor..........

whee.........

Gee,juz finish mounting duty......

One more duty den standby week lor....haha...wkend secure....so fast,2 mths has pass le,11 more mths to ORD lor....haha....maybe long to others but to us,when doing duty,time flies de lor.............U literally can see time flies....

Was chatting with some of the reservists pple and i think one of them says wad is true lor.....when one have gf or wife,social circle gets smaller........

Hmm,i somehow agree bahz.Coz like widening social circle when u are single and widening social circle when u are attached have totally different meaning.When u are single,widening social circle means searching for a soulmate,someone u can click and talk to and somehow,u will aggressively trying to know more pple and go out wif frenz and stuff,eagerly searching for the right one.But when one is attached,things changed.The urge to know more friends will die off coz u alrdy found the right one.Thus,social circle starts to shrink,limiting to only a realli v.close frenz and these close frenz muz somehow click wif ur other half too so it is like a subset lor.........Beside when one haf soulmate,one will want to spend more time with him or her coz it is wif him or her that u will feel most ease and comfortable with,something that other friends can provide or give u d same feelings lor..........

guess that is wad relationship is abt bahz.U will bound to make some and break some de coz everyone has only 24 hr..........thus,to me,a simple sms or a simple call to friends will be gd enuff le.At least let them knw that i still treasure them as my frenz..............

Today,took off to go for my dental appointment........

Saw alot of needles and clippers and syringes on the dental chair lor......so so scary........den my tooth,one canine is dead so nid to do root canal treatment den i think it is being split into 2 parts:exterior and interior.....so scary la,haf to go thru the process another time.....*pouts*

den the braces had to put in during end of march,more sianz,cfm got difficulty eating den the brace have to stay with me for 1 or 2 years....more more sianz.......shld have been mre careful when eating lor...but well.......nth can change anything le........

Tmr have to mount duty le,but v.short la,thurs. den sat. den standby week le....haha........gee...time realli flies.....

I realised i truly have matured alot since my days in army but i think it is more of my new relationship that realli made me grow up alot......a new relationship means a new responsibility and u learn to look at things in a different perspective bahz.......like be mre sensitive towards others and stuff.......

Chinese New Year is coming to an end and seriously,so lack of CNY feelings this year la,i gg to make it up next yr lor.........Pig Pig *oink oink*

Whee....hehe....surprised to see me here....haha.....i juz nw cannot slp well den suddenly wake up so went out and juz nice champion league is on so tot juz tune in and watch for awhile lor.....hehe....hopefully can have a better slp later......

Well.yesterday,went to bai nian with my dear dear.She came back frm malaysia le lor.....haha.......went my house den go cheryl house.........gee.....talked abt d memories in chung cheng and guess wad,one of my classmates during sec. 1 got hitched lor........she is an indonesian and she is 2 years older than me but she get married to a guy who is 5 years older lor....haha....how time flies.....dun knw when my turn to get married :s

Then went take neoprints.....whee.......haha......den went to Manhattan and eat....seriously,i think their prawns are good..........can try the seafood platter for one if u are not a big eater but for gigantic eater,the seafood platter for 2 can satisfy u.......it is v.affordable too.........29.90 for a big plate lor..........

Went watch norbit.............show quite funny and lame....if u are looking for a good story plot,stay away frm this show but looking for a good laugh,this show may be for u lor.........

gee....juz came back frm my big reunion dinner with my paternal side de......

Gosh,how time flies,everyone like grow up lor.....see my little niece and cousin....gosh....time realli juz went past......last time we were talkin abt studies,now is abt NS and career.......haha.....

den my cousin married at the age of 25 came.His first year giving ang bows lor den the couple like v.young.They were like tgt since sec. 4..........so lovingly lor..........but marry at young age got its pros and cons la coz both of them also nt yet financially stable too.........

Then sit arnd and chat lor.Nv gamble.....hehe....guai guai.......

Anyway,was watching this channel 8 show at 9pm.They talking abt true love.But this guy kanna stripped of his emotional line which means he cannot feel anything abt love and this gal who loves him dearly.She tried to do alot of things to jolt back the memories of the guy but to no avail.Then the gal likes want to give up coz she says she cannot carry on like this.This sets me thinking.Isn't true love abt staying wif the other half no matter wad happen to him?I mean yes,the guy may be emtionless but if the gal realli loves the guy,she shld stick by him wad.....can't becoz she tried but failed to jolt back his memories den give up wad......

well....true love.........no definite definition coz it has different definitions to everyone......

Happy New Year !!!!

gee.......half an hour more to CNY...yeahz.....

Like wad i typed in previous entry,this yr i dun haf much festive mood coz tmr have to do duty....*sianz* but well,i am gg to make it up on next yr Chinese New Year coz i ORDed lor....hehe....

Book out den went home to eat my annual popiah....yup....my mum will made popiah on every Chinese New Year eve den i can purposely put alot of sweet sauce on the skin....yeah......like the sauce oozing out when i bite the popiah but rite,very very sinful lor but it is once a year so heck......

Last duty do wif fuzhi....so much fun lor...tok cock wif him during duty den play alot of stupid games too........he forced me to chat wif him till 2.30am when my duty ended at 1am lor....coz he taking over me after 1am till 4am lor......i damn shagged den hit the bed den knocked out le......

Well.........feel kinda lonely.....juz nice went to Plaza Sing to get movie tix for tues.....i hate to queue up for tix so i got it early....surprisingly,the theatre v.little pple guess everyone having reunion dinner bahz....i had it early thou........den walked arnd plaza sing alone....gee...juz feel weird......coz everytym i walked arnd,i have a hand to hold but not today coz she away in malaysia.....*pouts* den i notice a shop.....it says open 11am to 9pm (including public hols).
Den beside the sign,is another sign saying it is closed for CNY....haha....wad a contridiction lor.....Plaza Sing is quite empty except for a handful of shops....even Carrefour is closed......

Den went back home and helped cleaned up abit.......

Gosh.....think i have to go back to my parents and pei them for the countdwn le.....

I wish everyone gong xi fa cai,those who study can score well and those who work can earn more more money and last but not least,those serving the nation,quickly ORD-ed lor....wad else can NSF wish for....lolx......

gee....busy busy day for me.......

Dismount on 13th feb but haf to mount duty on the 14th so decided to celebrate early with my dear.....

went my house and haf a quick dinner before she heads off to her house to pack the flowers.....stayed with her till 2 am....hehe......so technically,i had spent my first 2 hours of v-day with her lor.....yeah!!!

Went home and slept for 3 hour before booking in to base le......*sianz*

Then suddenly alot of admin work to do....so slept at 1am den woke up at 5am to do duty....*sianz sianz*

Chinese New Year is coming but yet,this year i dun feel any festive mood....muz be the NS lor....last time,i always the one hyped up for CNY,gg to chinatown and buy alot of decor to do and also help mum do spring cleaning but this yr,i go home den dead tired le den also,v.little time to do d decor and stuff....worst still,mounting duty on CNY day 1 lor......

The good thing is next yr,i ORD before CNY which means next CNY will be a fat fat one de....hehe...can't wait for that to happen......

Anyway,i wish everyone a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year in advance and hope the new year will be a smooth sailing one for everyone.......

GoNg Xi Fa CaI!!!

Phew.......busy busy wkend......

Sat.,i brought food for my dear for lunch den we go shopping again coz my mum grumble i dun haf red clothing :(

Bought Hush puppy polo tee and den couple tee for my dear and me frm newbie....happy v-day pressie!!

In d evening,after sending dear dear to work,i made my way dwn to council gathering to send lynette off coz she leaving for aussie soon le.I realli like this way sia.Afternoon go shopping wif dear den at nite,after send her to work,go out wif frenz.Best deal lor.Appease both side of my world.....hehe.....

gee,i realli miss council.The Bachelors' club founders finally met again.Shane,Jon Lim and me.Den now,only left shane still single.Surprisingly,he broke up wif her gf on the same date when i went steady with my dear dear on the 24th sept lor.......as usual,fool arnd.....the council suddenly went cam. whoring....taking pic almst everywhere den almst get chased out by Raffles city pple....haha......

After that,everyone was dilly dallying so i act as if i tour guide,lead the whole grp out to clarke quay lor.At first,i wanted to go Coffee Bean.den we went past bumble beez,sth like a new club la.Then they were saying they can gif us a VIP room at $15 per pax.The guys like tempted to go but shane and me and the gals dun wan lor........the gals are like v.surprised lor coz i well-known clubber in council tgt wif Huixiang,my partner-in-crime..........hehe........In d end,persuaded all to stay at coffee bean.Chat arnd and chill.Everyone was like teasing my tooth la :( Den i went on my own act lor,making everyone laugh and stuff....hehe....juz like the same old times in council....

gee,i realli miss miss council.Those fun we had,those serious time when we work.....gee....wad a legacy council has left behind.........hope have more gatherings lor so we can catch up wif one another despite how busy we are....best best best deal lor..............

Den this morning,woke up early to accompany dear to eat mac breakfast.Coz i gg to her house to made v-day bouquets......den met up wif her frenz too.....the world is realli v.small....huifang is same class as huiping lor.....wad a small world.........

den slack arnd her hse till the flowers came.The flowers came and den we de-thorn lor........so many thorns sia.....i plucked until got thorns stuck in my finger....pain pain worz :( den basically my whole of sunday spent doing up the flowers lor.....

Sianz,tmr has to book in le....it signifies the end of my standby wk.........sianz ah...............

What a day for me today........

Yes,yes,yes.....i know u all gg to scold me for being dumb but i still gg to says it....

I QUEUE UP FOR 2.5HRS FOR THE DONUTS AT DONUTS FACTORY.

yup,the hype arnd it is actually over rated but the donuts are realli nice.The bread is lightly toasted and is v.light.Not oily and sticky like those donuts sell at bakery and they do have a unique way of making the bread for the donuts.......

But seriously,queueing up alone is realli realli v.boring.esp when u are queueing up for more than 1 hr....mentally exhausting lor.........i feel that queueing up is the one of the ways that realli see time flies pass u lor.......so sinful.....haha......i can like do other things in that 2 hour plus lor.....hahaha....but well,i cannot realli turn back the time wad....so too bad....bleah :p

Standby week realli flies v.fast lor....haiz...how i wish every wk can be like this week....hehe.....

Sianz...next wk mount duty le.............

This standby week is the best week i ever had lor......

today had half day off den wanted to give dear a surprise lor......she returning frm malaysia so gave her a surprise at kranji mrt.......Actually,i could have go home and rest de......coz morning PT v.shiong today.....but dun knw,still chose to go dwn to kranji.....journey quite long.....almst fell aslp lor....hate the red line....the dist. frm Jurong East to Kranji like so freaking long la,esp. frm Yew Tee to Kranji.,.....

I was there at arnd 2.30pm and sat at the bench there patiently....noticed quite alot of students....i was like thinking,i realli admire these pple,morning so early wake up to come frm malaysia to singapore to study....den rush hm to malaysia in the evening........daily for 5 days a week....realli v.shiong for them....yet they still hang in there till they get wad they aim for,for eg, a degree or An O lvl cert or sth.......

Den at 4pm,dear finally appeared.....haha......den presented her a bouquet of blue roses....hehe....

Den i sent her home den i also went for my unit dinner at seoul garden@ Parco......

What a way to end the day.....by giving a pleasant surprise for her.......

Today is a bright and sunny day.....hehe.....Not referring to the weather,but my mood lor....

Today takes off to buy CNY clothing......gee.....with my dear lor.....

Buy shoes,buy clothing...

So happy.......takes my mind off the sad sad things in base for awhile...

Yeah!!!

Happy day for me!!!

Haiz.....things took a worst turn today....

I went to National Dental Centre this morning to get my tooth fix.Sianz.Now toothless....muz wait for 1 more mth b4 i can put on the braces.....

Heard that the plt sgt announces that becoz of me not asking him permission b4 i report sick,now,everyone has to go see the MO of Tuas medical centre if wan to report sick......seriously,muz u says it is becoz of me,then now suddenly changed.....i tot isn't it always a standard procedure to do that anyway?Beside,i also came back and mount duty despite me still having flu........u are juz trying to take advantage of the situation to turn the whole plt against me wad......

To me,u are seriously a coward.....u dun deserve to be a plt sgt at all,if u haf to says against me,says it in my face.....and says becoz u wan me to change,not becoz u wan to suan or insult me.....seriously,only a coward will talk behind my back and spreading influence pple to hate me even more....u are not a man....a coward,hiding behind....u ask urself,whether do u deserve the post as a plt sgt??

Seriously,i am trying v.hard to make peace with the plt since the incident that we trying to change the old bird-new bird system.......But dun knw why,nth seems to work.I am often feeling v.stress......i realli wan to juz escape frm everything......maybe juz changed plt?changed to rhibs?I realli dun knw wad to do le......i tried my best,to do everything nice nice and yet................

Nth juz seem to work........i am realli at my wits end le.......I realli dun wan to stay in a plt where everyone hates me lor.......seriously,i am suffocating.........the plt suddenly looks so scary....like when i enter the bunk,everyone like wan to devour me and tear me to pieces........

How?can someone pls help me??

Juz return frm base.....

Next wk standby week lor....yeah....time to do some CNY shopping.....hehe.........

Seriously,i need one long sleeve shirt and one t-shirt and one pair of jean and one pair of shoes and viola!!! haha........

was searching thru my msn and saw this subnick:keep a smile on your face when u are dying inside,juz for e sake of supporting others...........

I ponder it for awhile and it makes all sense.Especially for pple like me.......

Alot of pple see me as the bright sunny guy who often bring laugher to others.......but how many actually know whether am i realli that happy inside?How many pple actually know that i am crying inside when i appeared to be smiling and jovial everytym.........

I often appear to be the happy nut coz i dun wan pple to feel sad arnd me or to be bothered by my problems.i want them to feel happy and easy with me.....not always consoling me or listening to my woes......i am the type of person who rather keep my problems close to me rather than saying it out.......In a way,it is a bad thing coz sumtym the problems are so heavy that i often feel like dying...........I am selfish coz i dun wan pple to worry abt me...........I rather i help others than others helping me..................

Was on the bus with fuzhi.....i blurted out sth: Without hopes,we will not be disappointed.....or rather the higher the hope,the harder u will fall..........

Don't know.....i mean hope is often view as positive thing.....sth that keep one gg.......like hoping the gal one is jioing to be his gf,hoping to get into a good uni etc....all positive things......

But wad if one nv get what he hopes for,how disappointed will one be? So won't it be better if one dun hope for anything so he wun get disappoint?

Well....so is hope good or bad?

Only u urself can judge for urself.......

Sick of My NS life
Seriously,i am now nursing a slight flu and went to see a doc and got a medical certificate.Then the plt sgt said why i nv ask permission b4 i go report sick....i mean wad d heck,i am seriously ill lor.Not like some chao keng pple in my plt and they juz simply vindicate me.Even thou i got MC,they juz ask me go back and mount duty coz not enuff pple....seriously,i think it is all bullshiet....

They are very very protective of those old birds(pple who came in earlier than us).I mean that is not v.fair to all of us,.the new birds.I believe in equal treatment.I mean leave also wad.First come First serve.Where got everything muz let old birds go first,it is simply ridiculous.It is like some pple can chao keng for 2 or 3 days or more and they simply juz let them off lor.....

Haiz,i am getting sick of my NS life.Disrupted sleep,poor living condition....one person kanna flu,it will cfm spread to the whole room coz of poor ventilation.I alrdy spread some of my flu to some of the NS men coming for reservist le.......

I can't wait to ORD......my NS life realli sux to the core......CAn anyone help me get out of the bottomless pit tat i am alrdy in???I juz feel so helpless....feel so trapped in this tiny world.....a world where i cannot escape.......

I am crying silently in my heart at night although i am appeared happy......i am suffocating in this world of NS and can anyone pls hear my grievances and be there for me........this period of time is realli the lowest point....i am totally disillusioned abt my life.......everytym i book out,i juz wan to go out and see the world....how beautiful the outside world is beyond the cold hard steel gates of Tuas Naval Base.........

I often cycled to the seaside there,and juz watched the waves splashed against the banks......how i wish i can juz jump into it and let the waves bring me far far away from the cold hard world of NS.........far to a place that is not backstabbers, a place where everyone is innocent and simple.......where i can place trust in them rather than putting up a fake front to protect myself....haiz.........

Dear,i am sorry that i am juz so not myself this few mths.....i am gg thru a bad patch,pls bear wif me......pls be with me when i need u most..........coz it is only the love for u that keeps me gg in NS...............*sobx*