Sick of My NS life
Seriously,i am now nursing a slight flu and went to see a doc and got a medical certificate.Then the plt sgt said why i nv ask permission b4 i go report sick....i mean wad d heck,i am seriously ill lor.Not like some chao keng pple in my plt and they juz simply vindicate me.Even thou i got MC,they juz ask me go back and mount duty coz not enuff pple....seriously,i think it is all bullshiet....

They are very very protective of those old birds(pple who came in earlier than us).I mean that is not v.fair to all of us,.the new birds.I believe in equal treatment.I mean leave also wad.First come First serve.Where got everything muz let old birds go first,it is simply ridiculous.It is like some pple can chao keng for 2 or 3 days or more and they simply juz let them off lor.....

Haiz,i am getting sick of my NS life.Disrupted sleep,poor living condition....one person kanna flu,it will cfm spread to the whole room coz of poor ventilation.I alrdy spread some of my flu to some of the NS men coming for reservist le.......

I can't wait to ORD......my NS life realli sux to the core......CAn anyone help me get out of the bottomless pit tat i am alrdy in???I juz feel so helpless....feel so trapped in this tiny world.....a world where i cannot escape.......

I am crying silently in my heart at night although i am appeared happy......i am suffocating in this world of NS and can anyone pls hear my grievances and be there for me........this period of time is realli the lowest point....i am totally disillusioned abt my life.......everytym i book out,i juz wan to go out and see the world....how beautiful the outside world is beyond the cold hard steel gates of Tuas Naval Base.........

I often cycled to the seaside there,and juz watched the waves splashed against the banks......how i wish i can juz jump into it and let the waves bring me far far away from the cold hard world of NS.........far to a place that is not backstabbers, a place where everyone is innocent and simple.......where i can place trust in them rather than putting up a fake front to protect myself....haiz.........

Dear,i am sorry that i am juz so not myself this few mths.....i am gg thru a bad patch,pls bear wif me......pls be with me when i need u most..........coz it is only the love for u that keeps me gg in NS...............*sobx*