phew............1st week of duty almst ending soon...........

sumtym why am my NS life so unlucky?

First posting in as Sea Soldier alrdy suay enuff den when kanna posted to TDS as spec.,even mre suay coz alot of misunderstanding..............den i Guard comm. so long..........juggling between Guard Comm.,Magazine Spec and guard 2 ic...........all by myself............wad keeps me gg are my gf and that my 8-5 life.........

den now i become Plt sgt............i still have to do duty till mid. sept..........i see other plt plt sgt..........all newly appointed juz like me and yet they can 8-5 or rather as far as i see,so far only one plt sgt la coz the other PS is standby week de but we shall see how it goes next wk..........

Den haiz......to me,i told myself this:i shall endure till mid sept........bite the bullet.........

And another matter is the old birds that are ORD-ing 2 wks later..........realli glad that they ord-ed.........coz seriously,they are more of a bad influence rather than a gd influence to the plt............they play stunts like no ever b4 and still dare to raise voice at me...........come on lar,last time is last time........last time no stay-in but this tym has wad so dun expect wad is given to other ORD personnel muz be given to u guys too lor.........i realli hope they quickly ORD-ed la.......

Haiz..........gg to my new appntment.........no doubt heavier responsibility but come to think abt it,it is gg to be 5 mre mths b4 my big day lor..............*ORD*

Can't wait for it to happen.........

WHOO!!!!

gee....took leave this wkend coz realli v.shagged out.......

Was learning plt sgt and to add on to the fact that my PS v.garang and strict,i can get 5 phonecalls frm him in 25 min..............totally record for me lor......

Haiz.......den Guard comm. also lahz.........got some unhappiness over the plt.....dun knw la......sort of with them le........but have to give punishments to them also la den they like nt happy so haf to explain to them again bahz.......

Nowadays,army is not all abt control by fear bahz.......we are in a 3G army generation and most of us are educated and fear is outdated in a way......we all know how to think,know how to differentiate wad is right and wrong so it is best to go soft and den go hard if things dun improve.......

recently,my plt mate,lakshmen and jeremy asking me why i so moody nowadays.....i realli dun knw bahz.........on one hand,i trying to pave a new direction for the plt and wif the limited time i have on my hand,juggling between GC and PS,i totally gt no time and energy to think abt it.On the other hand,i have my dear dear to worry bahz.......she juz ended O week and nw busy rag and wad is worse is that she fell sick....haiz....*shrugs* glad it is over bahz......

these 2 weeks realli a testing time for me.........sometimes it is not that the burden can share bahz but juz that i nid pple to probe me bahzx......realli be persistence in wanting me to says and den maybe i will relent bahz......but these 2 wks.......*shrugs*.....dun knw bahz.......everything juz in me....waiting to explode and glad that i pass by singapore river on sat.....letting the waves bring my stress and troubles out into the ocean and remain there......

On sat.pei dear dear to go see NUS rag and flag day........dear dear had a outburst but partly my fault bahz........sumtym i wonder,is my action causing all e outburst that she have?i realli dun knw.......i got so much to think,so much to ponder......in my mind,plt stuff and her.........juz gg round and round my head.......but anyway,was quite hurt by her outburst and it seems everything is my fault.....she is not wrong bahz......coz maybe can says i am petty or wad but it seems i dun realli like the idea of me being 2nd??*shrugs* She is willing to sacrifice her health for rag but for me??*shrugs*

Anyway,Rag is a success.Seeing the event realli mk me miss my council days.Esp. CNY 2006........the cheerleading and the float.........everyday go sch nv see sun,leave sch also nv see sun.........almst everyday stay until sch gg to close at 9pm den left sch and the whole thing repeat again and seeing that my house win the dance component and all d gals hug and cry realli touches my heart............and i once again felt the hype last sat..........i once told my dear that i nt gg to touch wad event stuff but after last sat.,maybe i shld run for Student Union? haha.......wait till i get into the uni first bahz.........

gee.........very fast,i gg to be 8-5 le but life still gg to tough until october bahz where everyting will settled down and i be juz waiting for my ORD to come nearer!! woohoo!!

gee....a long post..........

whee!

gee..........

Busy busy busy cycle for me..........

i am now understudying plt sgt and is my guard comm. upperstudy......dual roles in d plt..........it doesn't help that my current plt sgt is on leave this whole week........

Haiz........den my dear dear also busy with her own stuff........o week and rag.......

She fallin sick too and yet i am in base..........

Hand tied up.........sumtym,i wonder at myself too.....can i handle 2 roles??

I am realli mentally exhausted.......so many things for plt sgt to learn and on the other hand,i muz teach my understudy well too.......

So many things yet so little times........plt.......haiz.......dun knw la.......

So many troubles...........