Haiz..........dun knw wad is happening to me nowadays..........the passion that i once have for things are all gone.........

The enthusaism has all vanish except for doing stuff for my dear..........dun knw why,when comes to stuff rgd my lao po,i still always have the passion and enthusiasm to go all out for her but when comes to base or myself,i juz lack d fire.........

Haiz..........i used to look forward to wkend,coz they are the days to revitalise me after one week at work but now,to me,wkend doesn't seem that impt after all le........I used to jio pple out to club on wkend and stuff but now.....dun knw.......juz laze arnd at home bahz........

is it becoz i have forsake my nightlife?I am a nightly person de.........i listen to clubbing music when i am happy and stuff.........

haiz.......dun knw wad i am blabbering abt also la.........

To sum it up,maybe my life too monotonous in a way bahz........sometimes clubbing or pubbing,get to meet diff. pple and get to observe diff. pple too..........abit more exciting.........is it the reason why i suddenly wan go clubbing?*shrugs*

haiz........i dun knw wad is wrong with me la.......

*pouts*

Sianz.......

Dun knw wad's wrong wif my unit lately.........charging pple and stuff.......somemre my batch boy..........haiz.........a sense of detached in my heart........

sometimes i wish to blog out my unhappiness in my bog but at d same time,i have to be careful or else dun knw which MSD come and spot check me den i die......

But lately,welfare wise being okay la........but haven't get my 8-5 yet.........actually my life the worst de la........dun knw why everytym =my NS so sucky.......

To be posted to become sea soldier alrdy very suay den summre when go tuas,stay-in.........wah piang eh.........the only gd thing is i got sgt la......

Sianz sianz sianz...........everyday,mentally v.exhausted........plan alot of things to do in yr end..........but nw don't seem to have the enthusiaism le...........die die.........can anyone pls ignite my passion and enthusiaism again..........

*the only constant thing in life is changes*

240907

a date that may seems juz another day to other people but to me,it is a date that changes my life drastically.........

exactly one year ago,at night,i summon up my courage and finally msg her my feelings for her.Yup,sounds insincere but well,i couldn't hold it anymore.......i was having my OJT at that point of time so yeah,it was only on 26th sept that i finally get to ask her in person to be my gf..........

Everything juz started to change frm there.........life realli juz revolved arnd her but hey,who can blame me? she is my first love and my first relationship.........

but well,we have exprience high and low point of our relationship bt all i can says is that these experiences juz make us feel stronger and more bonded tgt as one love.........

one year le,and to be frank,we are nt there yet........but we are still growing.....growing tgt,learning things as we move along........

but to me,all i can says is tat my love belongs to her,koh feifei.........

i love u

Phew phew........major ops has finally ended.....

But well,even thou the major ops has ended,all i can says is that life in TDS is on a decline bahz........3 plt system become 2 plt........mount,dismount,mount,dismount........totally no life at all lor.......the bad thing is that it is my plt that is being splitted up.......haiz.......now plt 1 has 2 PS-es and plt 3 got 2 guard comm.........sianz diaoz........

Actually,my PC wan to fight back to have 3 plt system again but seriously,i dun think it can wrk out.Come to think abt it,if have 2 plt system,i may have a higher change of getting 8-5 and secured wkend due to the increased of manpower but on the other hand,if 3 plt system,we have 8-5 for the whole plt and standby week........one cycle will come and go very fast de.....den very fast,ORD lor............less than 5 mths and counting..........woohoo..........

Now,hope the PS-es can have their secured wkend and esp. me bahz........i more deserved to have my 8-5 role coz of the split in my plt and me having a double job of PS....tsk tsk.........

Now,my dear dear doing her project at my house.......happened that her planner book was opened and inside there,she wrote her first crush's bday there.........it somehow sets me thinking.........

No doubt it has happened a long time ago........but it somehow sets me thinking of my first crush........but my dear's action somehow sets me thinking in a way.......up to nw,my dear stil rmb the bday and still got kip in contact wif d crush.........whereas for me,the last tym i met her was in a coincidence at my house nearby tuition class and i was sec. 2 at that tym.......but i nv bother to talk to her........and that was it.

*shrugs* somehow feel that the first crush is somehow that special to a gal bahz.but to a guy,maybe it is juz curiousity bahz......so not considered as first crush lor....sianz......guess it is the cold weather fault bahz......letting me anyhow think abt stuff........gee....

but well,as i was saying it sets me thinking,how long have i ever starts to ask abt my frenz's well-being..........so far,the only frenz that i contacted wif is huixiang......the rest..........*Shrugs* AHve i been neglecting them?or have i juz taking them for granted.....only when things happen den i starts to search for them??/haiz.......many many tots that flow back to me.......things have been v.busy for me...........

Busy busy busy.........if only i have 48 hrs per day....

*Shrugs*

Phew.........to think tat standby week is coming after 2 wks of duty.......things juz go awry again........

Coz 2 wks frm nw,got sth major happening which i can't disclose or else i be the nxt jeffrey....but anyway,OC wan us to get prep for the major thing so all stand in next wk which happens to be my standby week....

actually i not get nitpicking here if i having my 8-5 after the major but NO.....my PC still wan me do duty lor.......................but nvm,i shall play arnd coz i also have Base Orderly Sgt to busy with...hehe.....den he still wan me to do duty rite....steady lor.......he also got alot of admin work for me to do and he still says wan me to delegate my tasks....i mean hello lor....wake up ur idea la...my guys alrdy so xiong doing duty and nw u wan them to bear extra stuff when PS shld be the one handling it.....sometimes,i think studying too much not gd lor.....he still says wad poly scholar.....may have High IQ but def. low EQ to begin with........

This is navy.Not some infantry units that u have been to.Sumtym i wonder why our unit keep on having infantry trained officers lor.....really out of the way coz they don't knw wad our jobscope are.....we are not infantry lor......haiz.......they always says newly posted PC v.garang.....time will change....hopefully i do see a change bahz or else....life as PS is gg to be a tough one....

cheers....:)