Sianz........could be off tmr de but have to go back to base specially for the IPPT thingy...........to assist the unit in conducting the IPPT.....

The reason is becoz i have done b4 and if i go instead of a newbie,things will nt screw up and our plt name and reputation is preserved....diaoz.........

Haiz.......My guard comm. also CMI lor.......ORD same time as me and yet give the 'i can't be bother' look......i see le also dun knw wad to do.......i mean i also have my times b4 wad.......i was holding guard comm.,guard 2ic and magazine spec at the same time while u on course wad..........i have gotten more shiet than u before i become PS de........when i give u advice and u dun listen and when u get screwed,it becomes my problem again..............wth.........so how?wan me to take up the role of Guard Comm. again??cannot always be relying on me to do the jobs juz becoz i am more proficient in it wad...........realli wonder wad will happen to the plt if i am nt arnd lor.......haiz........the whole world is on my shoulder.......

Everytym the plt on duty,when i book out,wad i dread most is a call from office......realli scared.........haiz.......can't even go off in peace.........now i learn my lesson le,gg to go on my 'off' when either plt dismount or on 'off' too........

Argh!!!

However,come to think abt it,my appointment as a plt sgt has indeed let me learn alot.......from responsibility to adminstrative stuff........i have learn to look at things at a bigger picture.........with 2o over men life and welfare at ur hands,u realli nid to learn......

However,how i wish i have a capable assistant whom i unfortunately dun haf........my GC only knw how to play PSP,one day,i shall ban PSP frm my plt lor.........see wad they gg to play.......i mean u play,okay la,but play in d day when everyone v.busy and things happening,it is realli dumb.......realli waiting for things to happen.........juz wait.......i waiting for juz one big mistake and i sure gg to kick his arse........

WOAH!

haiz.........

Even thou i am much closer to my ORD.........3 mre mths.......but somehow i feel my life in TDS is on a decline instead.........

Seriously,i hate my Platoon Commander.

I myself thinks i am more capable than my Platoon Commander.Just becoz i am doing my job well and good doesn't means u can juz push more jobs to me lor.......and den,after pushing the jobs to me,u still dun trust me in handling it den i thinking why nt u go and do urself.......

So much for a poly scholar........low EQ..........come on la,where is ur flexibility........know why ur frenz in unit leaving u one by one,fellow officers don't like u.......and u have to cling on to another officer.........

I realli cannot stand it anymre.........last tym,i dun have this feeling de but right now,i seriously dread booking in to base........my health is declining again.......juz nt feeling right these past few wks..........don't knw is it the stress?? haiz....*shrugs*

Sometimes one need praise here and there to keep it gg but he doesn't??!!! On one hand saying tat i am doing my job but on d other hand,saying that as a plt sgt,i am too nice to my guys....i mean wtf!!! u are not the one mingling arnd with the MEn....so wad those thingy on battlefield and other infantry unit???come on la,u are long enuff here to knw things dun exactly work wad u dream of it lor..........WAKE UP!!

haiz......realli sick and tired of work de..........i presume even harder life coming after plt 2 forms back..........

If only my PC knw how to give more praises and less threats........all he do is threaten this and that.........wth!!! i wait till he goes in work life,i make sure he die lor..........come on la,we all are NSF.....dun gif me this kind of BS!!

Oh Gosh.........why am i not enlist in january den i be less than a mth more to ORD...........haiz..........tahan that bugger for 3 more mths........ARGH!!! it's killing me!!!!!!!

How i wish i have my previous PC.....know how to mingle arnd........as a PC,this is wad u shld do wad.........why go and differentiate officer and men lor......we all are humans being la.........why can one officer do so and the other don't??

argh..........i miss the plt spirit that we used to have when we haf the SSC 7............the soul and heart of plt 2.........

i dun wan plt 2 to be ruin in my hand but i need the autonomy to run the show...........is it a psychological problem?? that i myself unconsiciously giving me undue stress??

Haiz......i dun knw...........*shrugs*

last night have a chat with my buddy...Huixiang........seems so long le......

He ah.....knew him from 1st 3 mths in NYJC........same orientation grp.........den decided to stay in NYJC to try to conquer it and den landed up in Student Council.........hmm........4 years of friendship.......copper,bronze,gold or diamond frenzship??hehe.......

In any case,we 2 buddies also go chiong clubs tgt before we enlist lor.........

den suddenly,it strikes me when i ask him wan go club,he says that i no longer in d same league............

actually,to think abt it,it is quite true.......

Clubbing........it can view as negative or positive depending on hw u wish ti look at it.......

to those who knew me or saw me in clubs,the most i go for are the waist and i will actually ask d gals whether i can dance w them de...........

However,some,will prey on innocent and young gals who may be a noob in clubbing and starts to get hanky-panky with the gals.........i will take pity if the gal can't shake the guys off.But sometimes,dun knw la,whether is the gal realli a slut or juz enjoy being violated all over her body,she like seems to enjoy being violated lor........realli realli v.ashamed and look down on gals like them......

However,one can't realli blame the gals........coz with the booze and the loud music,the gals may juz forget themselves and let their guard down among the music and crowd and this is where guys come and in and take advantage........

Last time,before i am attached,i admit to go clubbing for gals.......i juz love the glam lifestyle of clubbing where gd looking wear pretty clothing and go and let their hair down.............

However,now i am attached......total different story........

tink my dear also afraid of me..........but dear,u can ask my frenz like aly or HX wad,i realli knw my limits in clubbing de........esp. wad i can or shld do bahz.......and that was way b4 i met u lor.........

Dear,still rmb wad we had chatted abt while sending u to tuition? that is exactly wad i am afraid of.......yes....u may knw hw to control ur liquor but the place is v.messy.....with a bit of drinks and loud music,once u get high........trouble will set in bahz........i have seen many cases where lechers will juz follow u where-ever u go de..........so what if u go wif frenz,u may nv knw wad ur frenz will realli do when they have a bit of drinks.........i also have cases where own frenz touch own frenz........alyssa,amanda and caiwen will knw abt the incident de la..........

Digress abit.........yup.......as i was saying......2-3 hours continously on d dancefloor...........*shakes head* no longer has the passion or stamina to do that bahz.........i prefer to juz sit back and chill and listen to music and see pple bahz......

It is amazing of wad u can discover how pple react to diff. situation lor.......diff. ways on how to approach a gal and see hw they pick themselves up after getting rejected.......realli interesting....i bet some matured men muz be doing the same to me when i first go clubbing bahz.......haha..........vicious cycle..........

It seems eons that i go clubbing.........but dun knw why,everytym i hear clubbing songs,i will feel a sense of energy running thru me..........*shrugs*

Has the dragon in me awake?

I realli hope not...........

Maybe too stress in work le bahz..........dragon wan to come out and play..........*shrugs*

clubs...clubs...clubs.........